I found out from Alex that Louise has a blog. And he found out about mine too. He forced me though…I asked him kasi what he got for Louise and what did she got for him this Christmas
Alexx: “Secret”

leche talaga si alexxx, talent niya yun eh, asarin ako. But he said basahin ko na lang sa blog ni Louise, I was shocked but really excited because finally I can read from someone I know personally. So immediately, I checked out her blog. Browsed through it lang kasi I was waiting for the bf to call. So later, after I post this, I’ll read all her posts.

Last night was Dang’s 21st birthday celebration. Her birthday really is on the 24th but since it’s Christmas Eve, not everyone could attend. And that happens every year. I was telling my mom, that for the longest time we’ve been friends, this would be the first time I’ll attend her birthday party. So this year, she celebrated it on the 26th. Before we picked up Jen & Nina, I needed a quick trip at Glorietta and get the birthday girl a gift and my other friends who will attend (aside nina and jen, coz I got them gifts already) their Christmas gift naman. My plan was earrings for Dang and something from Papelmerotti for Florida and Anne. Both shops I planned to buy on closed just as I was on their door. And so, my last resort…herBench. I got Dang cutesy panties, Florida two socks, and Anne hair spray. I left jog pa nga, kasi nag CR sya, and I told him sa Sak-O-Beads lang ako, but then it closed nga, and I feared everything will close and herBench was the last na, so I went there without informing him, tpos na sa akin pa cell niya. I finished shopping agad naman, but syempre he must be looking for me all over, buti na lang he’s patient. (bawi) On our way there, Anne who got there at 7p texted me and the girls that she will leave early cause there’s another party she and Robert needs to attend to. (it was Robert’s friend naman) When we got there, Anne was already outside waiting. But glad she stayed longer even if Robert arrived na. We exchanged gifts and Nina got me the best one, not because it was pretty pricey, but because she knew I wanted it. Anne gave us boy leg panties, Jen – Nivea Lip Balm, and Nina got me BS Lip & Cheek tint! I loved all their gifts naman, jen was nicely wrapped. Who doesn’t like gifts?

Later I find out that it was all Dang’s money spent on her birthday. She’s working na kasi. But we we’re all amazed and happy for Dang coz we know that, that’s the way she would want her birthday to be. We realize, at least someone from us is growing up!

This entry could get better if I could share with you our pictures. Tamad to get my phone eh. I finally bought my own copy of Da Vinci code, hoping I could finish it na. I wanted to buy 11 minutes but then I thought if I’ll buy it na, I would just be excited to start it then leave the Da Vinci code na naman.

Jog and I still haven’t gotten each other gifts. I know what I would get him na kaya lang, I just don’t have the time.( my fav excuse) I asked him out for dinner, my Christmas treat for him but he doesn’t know where I’ll be taking him. We passed there last night, I told him “Ay, dun oh, wag na lang”. Then he said “ha? Dun mu ko I-date?, we laughed and he said “Hindi talaga uso sa ating dalawa surprise noh!” Because on Christmas eve he asked me if I liked the color green na jacket from BAYO, coz that’s what he got me daw. Sabi ko “ssssssshhhhhh! Surprise mu nman ako” then he laugh, sabi niya, actually I haven’t bought it, pero I looked at BAYO and wala na dun yung gusto mu jacket, so sa Kamiseta, meron sila, yun nga lang green, I just wanted to know if you like the color. Crazy.

I was telling my friends that he’s vain. And bakla siya. Totoo naman eh. His friend bobot and I call him “45mins” kasi that’s how long it takes him to prepare when they go out. Sobra! And there was this time, he came from his OJT and he was wearing their uniform, tapos he changed his shirt, gray shirt. Eh blue yung pants niya, from our house to the mall he kept on checking out his attire and kept on saying “hindi bagay, uwi na tayo”.
Iba.
He was wearing the pants I wanted him to wear. He still wears baggy pants pa kasi, I told him mas bagay yung mejo fit. And last night, he wore not so tight fit worn out pants. Porma noh!

But I love that that’s how he is. He has good taste and rubs a little of it on me. Hehe I like bringing him along when I shop or most of the time window shop, the great thing about it is :

1.he doesn’t mind and does not complain
2.he gives his opinion and chooses which one’s better without sarcasm.

He sometimes tells me pa nga what to buy or what should I wear. Most of all, he appreciates when I look good on this or that. He sometimes even joke when I forget to put on some blush on which he calls “daya/ pam peke”, he would say “ay! Hindi mo na ako pinaghahandaan.”

I’ll be having my Print Media OJT at People’s Journal. We were supposed to report at the office kanina, but I could not get off the bed, 9am na me natulog. We had tequila at Nina’s place after Dang’s party. Tonet passed by here, to tell me it was ok I didn’t go, kasi wala naman daw yung head naming. She also got her West Ice cigs from my boyfriend. They like each other. Good for me.

Everyone who knows me very well would say, why not have your OJT on a magazine? I know! But due to pakikisama and lack of chance, I think I’m stucked there. But I’ll make sure that on January I’ll get that recommendation from the school and together pass my resume at Summit Media.

My bf was asking me kanina what time I’ll be going to report at work tomorrow. Sabi ko tamad na ako. But he said I should go kung gusto ko graduate sa March. “this is your last sem” Mas tatamarin ka pag wala ka kasabay. Buti na lang, good adviser si boyfriend.

LSS: Crazy for you: Spongecola
TO DO: give off old clothes
get jog a gift

MERRY CHRISTMAS!

I'm very thankful that i'm able to spend Christmas with my family and friends...

hope everyone will have a good one!

have a blessed christmas!

UPDATE

Oh well, it's been weeks since i last wrote...

we had our thesis proposal, and our teacher liked the "Friendster" idea. it will be easier since we will be giving the survey sa school lang, and puro sa net ang info.

i'll be having my Print Media OJT in People's Journal, and i, together with tonet was given the Police beat. Hassle lang to go to their office in Pier. Taxi lang alam kong papaunta dun. syet.

xmas shopping for my mom -done. my sis and i helped her, kasi she has work, and kami vacation na so, kami na lng shop for her. the bf helped us carry the bags and patiently came shopping with us, kahit super daming tao.

we just came from Market!Market! hay naku, i bought na gifts for my friends:

Jen
Nina
Pangga
Te Mhay (jog's sis)

tpos, i got myself shirts. tpos i left most of my money dito sa house so, hindi ako nakabili for him.
i was thinking a belt. pero i also wanted to buy him a pink shirt since he likes to have one daw and i think he can get away with that, bading talaga and boyfriend ko!

but have not yet got tonet one. tpos im not sure if we- my highschool friends will have our christmas- get- together this year. since nina's back, i hope evryone will make time. if it will push through, i have to prepare almost 10 gifts pa. although i have an idea na, sympre kuripot na naman si manang. :)

i visited Marla's site, got the link form Ala, ganda ng layout niya. i especially like her "scrapbook" posts. hay naku, have to learn Photoshop7 na!

**the boyfriend went out with his friends, wala siyang signal, im beginning to rrrrrrrrrrr!

survey says

got his from my alexi's blog...

1.last person u wrote a letter to: emailed my friends in yahoogroup
2. sport you would least play: i hate sports and it hates me too! i dont play any..
3. last movie u watched: Alexander - BORING!
4. what do people first notice when they see u?:my little hands
5. do you like peanut-butter?: not much
6. last person who texted you: SMART
7. do you read comics: archie comics
8. how pretty/handsome are u?: pretty! yes confident! syempre who else would say that, ako lang
9. do u like earthquakes?: no
10. worst nightmare?: being stabbed and chased by a scary looking man
11. most beautiful place u've visited?: san francisco, palawan
12. wanna be a celebrity?: nope, but i want to have their salary
13. do u like surveys?: yah
14. your close friends: pangga, iyang, larcy, gian, jen,nina
15. most people would describe me as: kikay
16. one thing u hate about urself: putting things off the next day
17. vegetable u hate: i love veggies, oh, ano pla, labanos, i hate the smell
20. u like to go out to a grocery with...?: my mom and sis
21. favorite person in the world?: jelly
22. can you dance?: a litlle
23. favorite past time?: eating, surfing the net, watching movies, making to do lists
24. are you happy?: yes
25. do you believe in God?:yes
26. what is the worst rumor you've heard about yourself?:im pregnant and im easy
27. what is the most stupid thing u did for the person u love?: too shy to admit it was stupid
28. Are U In Love?: yes
29. what is your greatest asset?: my fat cheeks!
30. what time is it? 10:26am
31. aside from answering this survey, what else are you doing?: watching/listening to MYX live
32. first thing to do when u wake up tomorrow?: banyo
33. Where are you right now?: in front of the pc

my demand of a beautiful love story

Last night while having the usual phone conversation-before-we-go-to-sleep with my boyfriend, we looked back, a little flashback on the things that happened before it became “us”. So we went from asaran to me being pikon. I was, ok, insisting that he liked me that night I stayed at their house, while he said no, he was just being nice. And so I thought if that’s what he says he did, then maybe I just pushed this whole relationship with him. I mean, if I hadn’t admitted to Jen, her sister that I liked him, and if I had not talked to him consistently on the phone for days at that time, and had I been honest that I had a bf, (yes that time I had, but believe me that’s another story) it could have not been together.

That night, because of that crazy realization, I said a lot of things I didn’t mean, to the extent of saying, I wasn’t sure if this is what I wanted. I know, its really mababaw and good thing, jog is really patient and hindi na niya ako pinatulan.

I’m sorry, and its really mababaw, and childish. But the reason why I was upset about it, is because all along I thought we had a cute, romantic, funny love story I could share to those who would mind to know how we got together, and of course, if this was for keeps, something I could tell my kids and grandchildren. (I know very fast forward) and maybe even if things wouldn’t work for us, I know ours is a great love story and I would still tell my kids about it.

In my past relationships, I didn’t have that. And from the start of this relationship, I thought we had that love story I wanted, kaya nga I thought this was really different. And just like that, I felt I lost it.

He tried to appease me, but you know naman, whatever he says I wouldn’t believe him kasi at the back of my mind I’ll think that its not sincere and he’s just trying to make me happy and forget about the thoughts I had.

I know its hard to understand, and I know what’s important is now. That I’m happy, we’re happy, and he’s still the same guy I met 11 months ago. Maybe I just couldn’t accept the fact that at the beginning the feeling was not mutual.

P.S.
we're not talking. he's really mad na.

and zuv is back!

another day

I got another stamp for my Starbucks planner. I had to, I knew I had to spend my last P100 to a cup of coffee, for me to have my planner.soon.

On the way home, sa Bangketa ng Pedro Gil, where every vendor seem to take advantage of the holiday season “shopping” a white watch caught my attention. You see, ive went to all tiangges I know for me to find that big white watch, with no “tatak”. Yung hindi ako ma-chismis, kasi most of the watches I’ve seen are imitations of Guess, Dior, Gucci and the like. I didn’t want to have that kind of watch naman, and so when I saw the watch, I asked Manong if meron siyang tatak, I couldn’t see, I wasn’t wearing my glasses, and he said wala po, P100 na lang tapat na po. KACHING! Me, a fan of bargains couldn’t help but haggle pa rin, “Manong, baka pwede nmang 80 na lang” when in fact at the back of my mind it’s a steal coz I’ve seen a lot of these watches and the cheapest I’ve seen so far is P200. And so when Manong said, tapat na po with a smile, I said OK, and asked if the batteries are new. it is, so GO!

I went home with a new watch inside my yellow green -P100 bag, I’m naming it OPRAH, because for those who know, it’s her favorite color.

I don’t have classes tomorrow; I’ve already fixed a box from my cabinet, and found make up unused because they were stocked at the end of my cabinet. And so, I told myself before I shower, why not have a little play with the make up.

While writing this, I’m reminded of the strange girl’s blog…zuv.. I miss reading her.

And by the way, although I know a lot who hates Paris Hilton, I must admit she’s not getting into my nerves. Actually I kinda like her.

DA VINCI CODE: no progress

before i go to school

updating....

i got my Starbucks card na, i have to have 21 stamps and as of this writing, i only have 4 pa lang. Read Bianca and Iya's blog, Bianca's 8 stamps to go and Iya's 13 pa, according to Bianca, we'll be spending 2,100 to get that Planner. Jog said that when he knew how many stamps i would be needing, sabi niya it's impractical and i could get a cheaper Planner and it doesnt have to have Starbucks in front of it.

but i want and needed it.
after school, i have to drop by starbucks and get my 5th sticker!!!

Friendster..

i've been listing all of my classmates form elementary, esp those who didn't finished highschool in Sta.Isabel, somehow i felt i wanted to be connected with them, syang nman friendster account ko kung puro present friends ko lang nandun, besides that's the purpose of Friendster naman di ba. i wanted to do the searching and adding now, but i have a 1pm class.

which reminds me, ibabalik na yung first quiz namin and gosh, baka lagpak ako dun. Physics eh syet.

Market!MArket!

we went again last saturday, shopped a little crazy. i went home with 4 bags, 2 in each hands.
and it's slightly annoying to see everyone wearing flower brooches, but then i reminded myself everyone is allowed to wear it.

try to write something with sense later..

**Da Vinci Code --i'm not progressing!!!!!

the late Nov22 entry

LAST SALE OF THE YEAR

Last night, "we" (my mom,sister and i) went to Glorietta and survived it's last day of SALE.i bought two decent white pants and a lip gloss i would share with my little sister. my mom enjoys bringing us to the mall,of course Buding and I does enjoy too,kasi we would end up bringing home "something". On weekends, when we have nothing to do, my mom would always invite(sometimes, bribe us --with the promise that she will buy us what we want) us to go to the mall, divisoria, greenhills, or a newly opened mall.

SM - We've got it all for you

it was the first time i went to SM, actually i've been there a nuber of times already when they opened after their renovation, but it was my first time to see it finally organized (like what i really liked about SM Dept. Stores) with the left wing opened. when i went there kasi, sa center pa yung mga stalls, the right wing pa lang yung open, yung shoe section. i enjoyed going through their shoe and bag section, reasonably priced kasi.
Magazine

I've finally bought my November issue of seventeen Philippines! the only magazine i've promised to buy, since i want to save up for books instead. i've been in love with magazines since forever, and i've only realized i've got a collection, 4 years ago. BINGO
i miss having a BINGO store nearby, in Taft Ave. Cor. Pedro Gil, there was a Bingo Store, but now they have 7 eleven instead, actually in Pedro Gil, it has 3 7-eleven outlets on 3 consecutive sts. 1-near the Petron station, 2-across Taft Ave, 3- cor. Leon Guinto.BINGO kasi sells back issues of Vogue, Allure,People, and other foreign Mags, at a cheaper price. i've bought a Vogue, Gwyneth Paltrow cover, one of the thickest issue i have for P100. and by back issues i don't mean years ago, like for example now its Novemeber, there would be September issues that would cost you 100-150 depending on the magazine and usually the thickness of it. Ive bought quite a number of Allure mags, and it costed me P80 - P100 tops.

so there, if you also love magazines, as much i do, and you know a BINGO store nearby, i suggest you check it out.

another tip** if you think P150 Vogue is still pricey, you could wait, kasi they usually lower the price, lalo na pag marami pang copies, in a few weeks lower na yung price.just make sure they still have enough copies

**sa SM din nga pala, they have back issues,sa stationary section.

Poinsettia

In G4, there are Poinsettias.December is just a week away. I'm a little bit excited, of course, this would be the first Christmas of Princess (our dog) with us, my last Christmas as a student (i hope/yipee!) and it's also our (jog and i) first Christmas together. and i'm planning to buy my first MAC lipstick, due to too much reading of Erica Paredes' blog.hehe i have to ask her yet what she recommends me to buy.i'm also excited coz, i will have christmas money to spend on. the savings i have with tonet. yehey!

on my christmas list are:
pumps
blue haviannas
denim jacket
cheap flip flops
skirts

** i need to have the Starbucks 2005 Planner or the Powerbooks Planner!

BOOKs i finished reading-- Bridget Jones: the edge of reasoning, setting aside Da VInci Code, which i must continue reading, must pressure myself to read coz it's my tita's.Helen Fielding didn't have much surprise, it was quite a light read, Bridget didn't celebrate her/our birthday, and i wonder who will play Colin Firth when in the first movie Colin Firth was Mark Darcy.i pressured myself to finish the book last saturday in the fear that i would not make it till the release of the movie, only to find out it will be shown last week of november!
thank to kimi gurl who lend me the book, she also introduced me to four blondes.

i recommend:

if you would like your pictures from your cellphones printed, i suggest, you go to the kodak outlet in Glorietta hmmm i'm not sure if its 2 or 3, the one across Tower Records, near Nescafe Cafe. they offer the cheapest among those i've tried.

LSS (last song syndrome): My Boo
BOOK: Da Vinci Code (not even half way, the book has been with me foe 3 weeks now!)
FOOD CRAVING: none
TO DO: haven't done my to do list

my most beautiful people list

my lola sent me the october 2004 issue of Teen People, they had their annual "most beautiful list" and with their list, i only agreed on some, i felt old kasi some of those who are included in their list, hindi ko kilala.buti na lang kilala ko pa si chad michael murray! mejo ka level ko pa mga 15 year olds. :D

Here's my list: (in no particular order)

1. Adam Levine
2. Bamboo Mañalac
3. Borgy Manotoc
4. Brad Pitt
5. Brandon Boyd
6. Chad Michael Murray
7. Collin Farrell
8. David Beckham
9. Ethan Hawke
10. Freddie Prinze Jr.
11. Grant Hill
12. Jason Lewis
13. Jay Hernandez
14. Jericho Rosales
15. Johnny Depp
16. Josh Harnett
17. Justin Timberlake
18. Kevin Garnett
19. Lino Cayetano
20. Mark Mc Grath
21. Paul Walker
22. Pharrell Williams
23. Rich Alvarez
24. Richard Guttierez
25. Rob Thomas
26. Usher Raymond
27. Will Smith

who's in your list?

long time no post

hello.

i've been busy and had no time to write.

so these are the things that happened to moi the last week of october and the past week...

i've finished my 60 hours of internship at ABS last October 27, but i still reported to work until friday of that week so, I've completed 72 hours of late night work, pressure and fun.

i was at work when everybody, including my boyfriend partied themselves as Halloween approached last October 29.

i've enrolled myself, borrowed my tita's Da Vinci Code, spent November 1 at Cavite with my titas and cousins, and gave myself a little break last friday when we went to makati with jog and our friend alain.

speaking of that party, i saw, for the first time, two of present crushes, Borgy Manotoc and Jay-R. *giddy* i was all giddy and acted like a FAN...tulo-laway kay Borgy, buti na lang Jog was patient and could stand my craziness.that's what boyfriends are for!!!hehe besides, he bribed me to come with him that night by "Sige ka, baka Borgy will be there na naman!"

so, when i saw borgy who was staying near the DJ's booth, i had to exchange places with jog so that i could see him. when we we're dancing, jog could tell that i had almost all of my attention to the Marcos lad. and at that time, all i could think of was, i'm happy i saw him and i still couldn't believe he's just 10 steps away... that was my star strucked experience..

MARKET!MARKET!

last night the three of us, my mom,sis and i went to the Fort to check out Market! Market!
it was such an experience. they have tiangge inside the mall! almost all the greenhills shops were also there. i saw a pair of jeans (for men), 350 lang!!!! i immediately called my bf, and asked him his size, kaya lang ayaw niya, dyahe daw sa mommy ko. so ayun, pag balik namain dun at wala na yun...bahala siya!!

i bought a skirt and a pink shirt both costed me 500, carry na di ba?.
so, i am definitely coming back!!!!

meron pa sila fruits and vegetables stalls, plus mga plants. it's really nice. im sure all the ladies found their new haven.

***i've tried the Palmolive shampoo, color violet, and it smells good!!! sobra, until now ha. and i found out from my bestfriend gian na the fragrance stays all day sa hair..but that i can prove tom pa.

die-SEL

i started my OJT last night at INSIDER. when i arrived at 6, they we're still preparing for Patrol, but Ms. Love toured me around the news group dept. She showed me where i would give the sequence guides and script and to whom i must give them. i was really nervous, kasi it's live and there's no room for mistakes. When the sequence guide or the tapes wouldn't be given to the respective person at a specific time I'M DEAD. my career is ova'!

As i wrote yesterday, they we're really nice. (Ms. Love and Mam Beth) Last night i met more of the staff, our Floor D Kuya Rudolf (he's cool), Ate Jake from the Graphics dept (he's hilarious), Ms. Ken PA din (super kulit), and Ms. Karen Davilla (really pretty and nice) and Mr. Erwin Tulfo (bait din and super funny).

Ms. Love also showed me around Studio 7, the control room, the Graphics dept and the TOC. She showed me the long and short cuts. I needed to be familiarized with the workplace kasi, i will be assigned to go all over the place and give them scripts,tapes and sequence guides. and i need all the luck to make it through without fail.

i was in the studio when we went on air, met the cameramen and the anchors. they we're all accomodating. Mr. Erwin Tulfo, (all the cameramen addressed him as Boss) was so funny. Sobra! (the title of this entry is because of what he said) Edmer (another intern, but it was his last day yesterday) was telling me it's fun to watch when they go on air kasi parang sitcom. and he was right.

Edmer was really nice to me. he showed me around and gave me points to remember. he gave me tips which i found very useful and he assured me that it would be fun just as long as i do my work.

Tonet my jowa was assigned to Ek Channel in Production. Actually most of us (from our school) was assigned in Production. Si Gaeity sa MTB, Jeline sa MYX (i wanted to be assigend there, but i'm happy sa news dept), Froi was also assigned sa NCAG (News and Current Affairs Group) but his show assignment was Special Assignment.

I haven't seen Kris, hope later i'll see her. Jericho din- para naman yung WHO DO YOU WANT TO MEET sa friendster ko matupad kahit isa. hehe

later!

karir!

i had my last day of orientation yesterday, and i was assigned in the News and Current Affairs Department of ABS CBN!!!! whooohoooooo! i met our Executive Producer Ms. Beth, and she was nice naman. i was expecting a very mataray EP kasi, and Ms. Love (who i think is the PA of the show) is very accomodating and she wanted me to start today na lang instead of last night. and i forgot to mention pala the show, it's "INSIDER" (yes, naman!)

i'm really excited and i'm expecting a lot of work. sana lang hindi ako mataranta and i would be focused on my work. i hope wala akong boo boo's later.
if there's a downer, but actually not really, i'll be working from 6pm to 12m! and that's QC.. buti na lang my dad offered to be my driver. hehe

at first all i wanted was to get in the internship program of ABS. that meant, any show would do. besides getting into their internship gives you a little edge over those who would apply for work to the station, in the future. but i'm really happy and really LUCKY to be assigned in the "INSIDER".

so there, i'm officially a student trainee of ABS CBN's INSIDER.

and as Ma'am GiGi said in our orientation, " ang ojt dito sa ABS kinakareer!"

sembreak,ojt,alicia keys and tv shows

hi! finals are over! i'm having my sembreak na!

well, before that, at the start of the week (monday) my boyfriend was really galit. as in, he would not answer my calls and would not reply to my texts! as in! it was my fault, and wednesday before my last test, i went all the way to alabang to talk to him and be make peace *hehe* so there, hindi niya ako matiis (yabang! ok na kasi kami) we're ok na!

KAPAMILYA

for my friends who know me very well, they know how much i wanted to have my internship in ABS.
lucky me, i'm having my orientation on tuesday and wednesday. so happy! pero my god ang transportation ko!!! 30 papunta and almost 40 pauwi!! hay naku! welcome quezon city talaga!

ALICIA KEYS

"If I Ain't Got You" A. Keys

Some people live for the fortune

Some people live just for the fame

Some people live for the power yeah

Some people live just to play the game

Some people think that the physical things

Define what's within

I've been there before

But that life's a bore

So full of the superficial

Some people want it all

But I don't want nothing at all

If it ain't you baby

If I ain't got you baby

Some people want diamond rings

Some just want everything

But everything means nothing

If I ain't got you

Some people search for a fountain

Promises forever young

Some people need three dozen roses

And that's the only way to prove you love them

And in a world on a silver platter

And wondering what it means

No one to share, no one who truly cares for me

Some people want it all

But I don't want nothing at all

If it ain't you baby

If I ain't got you baby

Some people want diamond rings

Some just want everything

But everything means nothing

If I ain't got you

Some people want it all

But I don't want nothing at all

If it ain't you baby

If I ain't got you baby

Some people want diamond rings

Some just want everything

But everything means nothing

If I ain't got you

If I ain't got you with me baby

Nothing in this whole wide world don't mean a thing

If I ain't got you with me baby

oh well, i'll miss the alicia keys concert tommorow. i don't have money to buy tickets eh!
i tried winning the tickets in tv shows, who i can't believe gives away ticket just like that.

i'll just sing if i aint got you in my cd player na lang..

it would be so nice if jog and i could watch it. haaay! that's kinda our song...

not connected

our two phone lines we're disconnected for 3 days. and it was like i can't do anything without the phone...crazy i know but that's how i felt. there was no internet of course kaya sobrang booring!!!!!

one tree hill and the O.C

i was talking to gian last night, and i told her that even if a lot of people and i read everywhere that i should watch these shows, when i finally had time and watched it, i've realized i'm OLD. i know, that OA coz i'm only 21, but one tree hill is like, about highschool and O.C. is very much like dawson's creek in college and with a lot of money. i'm sorry for those who enjoy watching it, im not saying it's not good, it's just that, i feel it's not for me anymore.

i mean, even if i think chad michael murray is cute, even if i feel i have to see him every tuesday,i don't think i could spend an hour watching his show and just look at him and say "it's ok, he's cute naman eh"

speakin of tv shows, last night i was able to catch Simple Life 2, and although i know it's annoying how bratty and kind of self centered they are i enjoy watching it. sorry.

breast cancer awareness month

as i was blog hopping and reading one of my fav blogs, Ala posted that it's breast cancer awareness month this october. so there, i'm just trying to spread the word!

i watched Rio Diaz lifestory on Maalala mo kaya last night, and i just could not help but cry and admire her strength and faith. she's amazing and a real inspiration not only to cancer patients but also to us who are so blessed to be healthy and alive.

fully booked

i was lost. it's my first time to check out fully booked, coz everytime i go to rockwell, i'm with someone and kahiya naman if i'll drag them in, cause i know i'll take my time around the store, and i was right.

as in! the books i want to read are all there...

• the queer eye for the straight guy book
• five people you meet in heaven
• shopaholic series
• gossip girl (i know! i'm too old for that)
• about a boy
• satc
• the notebook
• bridget jones:the edge of reasoning (the movie will come out this november, and i don't think i can read the book before it's shown) **a little trivia, bridget jones and i have the same birthday!!!that's my claim to fame!hahaha
• COOKBOOKS -Nigella Lawson, Bobby Flay (crush ko kasi sya), Ming Tsai, Sara Moulton
• Kevin Aucoin make up book
• Manolo Blahnik!!!!!!!!!

as in sobra! i was lost and i loved it!

their paperback five people you meet in heaven is only 278..unlike sa national. eh kanina, i don't want to spend my money, kasi i'm actually saving it for something...so there, babalikan ko na lang.

anyways, i bought my lip and cheek tint na sa mimi's. hay salamat!i could sleep well na! hehehe

my bestfriend gian asked me about blogging, i hope she starts soon, para kahit papano, kahit pilit may magbabasa ng blogs ko!!!!! hehehe

later!

coming home

my dear boyfriend arrived lunch time today!

i had a day full of agenda, but when he texted when i was finishing my spagetti at Mc Do, i knew i had to cancel.

TO DO LIST:

- take make up quiz, who cares! finals na next week! who is she kidding?

-pass my e.p readings, i can do that tommorow.

-have chest x-ray, a reuqirement for ABS-CBN OJT (yes, they called,we just have to complete our requirements by tuesday next week!) i'll do it tommorow na lang.

-pass my script, i asked my friends to pass it for me, what are friends for?

those are the things i missed just to see my boyfriend! it was all worth it!!!!

he was tanned! gwapo!!!

we had early dinner at our favorite carinderia, and he had a lot of pasalubong, mostly food for my family, i got a coin purse and thats it. ah, barquillos pala! but Princess, ate half of it.

i'm really happy he's back home, hope he can rest well tonight and tom, kasi wala naman siya class.

last night, i'm officially a crazy girl. i finished my script at 3 a.m. i was dead tired, had back pains na. when i climbed myself to bed, got my cell, i thought of texting him, to say i just finished and i'm about to sleep. then while i was composing the message, and super tired, that's when i felt I MISS HIM and cried! i was used to talking to him after a hell day, before sleeping and last night i was dead tired and nobody's giving me the comfort he gives, even without me asking for it.

yah, i cried, only later to realize he's coming home today, and i only have to wait for hours na lang. imagine, i managed to be ok, calm, and kept myself busy since the day he left. i didn't cry, sometimes it hits me that he's malayo and all but i didn't cry. kagabi lang. weird!

so there, i'm really happy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

later!

katam

i'm doing laundry as of this writing, jog called while i tonet and i we're window shopping, listing all the things we want for christmas and we will buy for christmas.

kasi, since july, we save P40 everyday including sundays, on december we are expecting to have 6k!!!so there, mayabang kami mag window shop.

im supposed to do my project, a script for my playwriting class. a final requirement for the subject, but i'm realy "tamad". umiral na naman Katam ko.hehe

instead im blog hopping, reading about other people's lives and making my own blog, blog-tiful. :D

there's this song on my mind...yung "all i want for christmas..." the song from love actually.

speaking of songs, i'm looking for Beyonce's album, dangerously in love, i'm planning to burn it and give my dear boyfriend a copy coz he's in love with beyonce..who wouldnt be?even i sometimes' caught by her hips swaying, bootylicious body! things you do for your significant other!

i also got the latest issue of 17 mag, Lindsay Lohan's on the cover! my mean girl!

just browsed through it on the way home, later ko na lng basahin, since i bought a light bulb na din for my desk...

finals are coming up next week..arrgh! still so tamad. hope ABS CBN calls na for our OJT or else we're screwed! baka RPN na lng kami, since most of our classmates are having their TV OJT there.

i'm playing neopets again.i'm trying to get a job and make my pet productive naman.

i'm out of words.

later,

WHAT I WANT FOR CHRISTMAS part 1

i know it's very materialistic, forgive me...
just giving in to my human needs...
besides it's just a wish list...

1. Pumps from Janylin


2. BOOKS
Tuesdays with Morrie
5 people you meet in heaven
Memoirs of a Geisha
Da Vinci Code
The Edge of Reasoning: Bridget JOnes 2
Shopaholic Series


3. BAGS
i know i have plenty, but i'd like some more (BAD!)
MNG


4. SATC
i know, it ended na, but can i just have one last hirit?


just part 1...who knows how many would be the next

l8r!

blah blah blah

The Word of the Day for September 27 is:

realia \ree-AL-ee-uh\ noun : objects or activities used to relate classroom teaching to the real life especially of peoples studied

Example sentence: The teacher asked the exchange student from Brazil to bring in photos, food items, and other realia to share with the class.

single for the moment

it's the second day of being "single" and besides the i have all the time, i miss my beau...

he called when they arrived in Bacolod, he was asking what i want for pasalubong, i kept sayng i just want him to come home safely and soon, just as i finish saying that, he sssssssshhhhh me, insisting i should tell him what i want to have.

even if he's away, he's still the sweetest bf a girl could ever have. like last night, at 10:30pm i was miraculously sleepy, then he texted and asked what i was doing and if im getting ready for bed. and so even if i was so sleepy, i replied then rembered i still have to do a script due on friday. then i passed out. the next thing i knew, i was awaken by his "missed call" and then i knew it was signal to call him, kaya lang, bigla nag-out of coverage area ang secretary niya, then i textd na lng, and he said he just wanted to say goodnight and he'd call na lng tom kasi badtri signal dun.

Jewelries

I went to our library kanina, i had to do one of the requirements before graduating, blah blah, so i want there. if there's one thing i like about our Library's Periodical Section, is that they have decent magazines like People Asia and MEGA. Everyone knows i love Magazines and so, this was the best time to catch up with MEGA Mag since i don't buy them regulary.

Lucy Torres-Gomez (who i admire so much, not only because he's married to my ultimate crush, but also because she's a devoted mother, a perfect definition of Beauty and Brains) was on front cover of MEGA's September issue. In her interview she mentioned how she grew up in Ormoc, and even as a child she adored jewelries. Jewelries that defined moments and has sentimental value. like a i-love-you ring given by her husband, heirloom engagement rings, 18th bday pendant, thanks-for-giving-me-a-child earrings.

i personally like heirlooms, at 21, this early my mom already gave me a cross pendant with rice pearls embedded on it, and 2 black pearls which could still be made into a pair of earrings or maybe a set. (we asked in Makati, how much it would cost and it's too pricey) i also still have my first necklace, although the pendant with the letter "K", but my sister lost it when it was her time to use it. (both our first names start with letter K)

and now that i'm thinking that it's really nice to pass on jewelry not only for its monetary value but more so for their sentimental value.and right now im doing a mental inventory of all the earrings and rings my mom lets us wear ....

one week vacation

hey!

my bf's leaving. actually he left this morning, he's going to bacolod, originally the plan was only for a week,then this morning he called saying it will be for a week. nyahayay!

he jokes and says: "pakabait ka ha, at enjoy ka sa 1 week na bakasyon mo!"

so here i am, alone, heehe. O.A. nman noh!

MOVIES!!

i watched the Terminal and Feng Shui. the terminal was kinda long pero its ok naman kasi it was not boring kaya lng ang tagal lng talaga. then, Feng Shui, it was the first time i screamed that hard! i mean tili to death talaga. Kris' acting was good in fairness and besides i like her. but compared to her acting in Hiram, its much better.

ex boyfriend

my ex bf marvin called last thursday, when i answered the phone and knew it was him, i felt i should talk to him, after all these months of not avoiding his calls, texts and emails.

when we broke up, marvin and i were friends, i got over him almost a year after we broke up pa. partly because i knew it was my fault i lost him and because of the hinayang factor because my mom adores him.

after him, jai came, marvin wanted to come back. at some point i was really annoyed with him kasi he was very persistent to the point that i felt he was disrespectful of jai and our relationship, that was the time i felt i can no longer be friends with him.

then now that im with jog, earlier this year, he did the same thing. super kulit, there was this time my bf read his txt, and with that i knew i can never be friends with him.ever.

but when he called last thursday,he was asking how i was and said "Kaye, may gf na ako" honestly i felt relieved more than anything. Kasi naman he's a good man, a great catch, and he deserves to be happy more than anyone.

i told him, i was irita during the rime that he kept on calling,text pa ng text and he apologized and he said he understands.

so there, our friendship is restored.

later!

have to cook dinner pa!

my boyfriend's new love

Last Friday, I got my Mango gift pack at Robinson’s Galleria with my boyfriend. (I won the Cosmopolitan MNG raffle contest) The package included their first signature fragrance, Mango (cut for a woman),Eau de Toilette 150 ml, lotion, and deo spray. It also included a shirt, with MNG logo. It made me giddy and made all the effort worth it.

Another reason why I was able to drag Jog all the way to Pasig was because he was also looking for new shoes.

This is the first time that I had a boyfriend as conscious as Jog is. (I don’t want to say vain!) He’s a metrosexual! He’s very particular with his clothes, his skin, his feet, and gladly we share the love for SHOES!

Just like any other girl, (haha! I’m comparing my bf to a girl!) we’ve been looking for that “perfect pair” for the past 2 weeks, we’ve gone from every mall, South Mall, Festival, Rob.Place Manila,Glorietta and lastly Rob Galleria.
And finally, we’ve found it! SALE pa!

It was brown, just the color we both wanted, and its name it TOBY. Cute noh! And when we were about to pay for it, as we were checking for damages…there it was some white mark on the left pair. He was heart broken. The sales lady was kind enough to tell us na, we could check out their outlet at Robinson’s Place Manila. And that kinda relieved us, kasi nman its near my school, I could check it out and buy it for him.

And so, right after my EP, I went straight to the mall together with tonet, hoping they have the design and a size 8 for moi boyfriend.

And as I was approaching Hush Puppies, nakita ko na! I immediately asked for a sized 8 the man who assisted us asked “Saan po yung magsusuot?” I answered, “ah wala eh, pero nasukat na naming yan sa Galleria, may damage lng kasi yan dun eh.”

I went home with his new shoes.

Today, he went here sa house and wore them. He kept on jumping! kasi nga daw light weight ung Hush Puppies. we took pictures pa! di ko ma-post kasi di ko pa upload from the cell. tom, or maybe later.

life check

Friday
September 3,2004

The Notebook

It’s one of my favorite novels by Nicholas Sparks. And I love the movie.

I watched it with Jog in SM Southmall, sabi pa nga nya, we should have watched it sa Alabang Town or Glorietta and spent 100+ pesos kasi the movie was worth it.

I cried when I read the book and as expected I cried watching it. Jog kept showing me his goose bumps when Noah said “it’s not yet over” and when Allie said “do you think that our love can make miracles?” super kinalibutan si Jog.

After the movie, he asked me if it was just like in the book, and we both kept saying their love is unbelievably true.

I’m glad he enjoyed and liked the movie. The last movie we saw kasi, nung Monday lang. Princess Diaries, he was bored. So buti nakabawi ako.

If you guys haven’t watched the movie, you wouldn’t regret watching it.

Monday
September 6, 2004

Tell me what I don’t like Mondays…

Oh well, during my 10 a.m. class our teacher we’re bursting with fruit flavor! Actually it was the opposite. Super galit talaga siya to the whole class. Kasi last Saturday, we used the broadcast studio and naiwan yung aircon na bukas for 2 days!!! Kanina lng na discover.

Sino naiwan nahuli sa studio? One of them was I. Tonet and Larcy were the ones who switched off the lights and well, they left the aircon. Kasi nman hindi nila alam mag patay noh and hindi nila alam na bukas pa because the lights we’re off na! Not that I’m siding with them, (of course I am) kaya lng meron nman kasi talagang naka-assign to do that, so it was not their responsibility/our responsibility.

Our president is a friend of ours (Froilan), pero kanina umaga, when our teacher was blaming my 2 friends larcy and tonet, I had to say something.

I felt it was Froilan’s responsibility being the president and having called that meeting. And he was actually not claiming any responsibility for what happened. He kept on looking for others to blame, when in fact dapat siya ang umako ng responsibilidad and in the first place adjourned the meeting and left the studio with us. Kasi hindi pa daw tpos yung meeting, but he left and so everybody thought tapos na. No officers we’re residing the meeting, nung umalis nga kami, nagulat pa kami na aalis na at kami na lng pala tao.

Well anyways, tonet and larcy talked to our teacher na, who is still very mad at all of us.

I made cheesecakes today! I have orders kasi sa office nila mama.

And while making those, I saw Bamboo sa Ok fine Whatever! He’s really cute, pero he’s losing weight. And he has nice legs; I saw it last week when Pipol featured rock bands.

And Star Movies were airing one of my favorite movies…Reality Bites. And because of that movie, my ideal guy was like Troy Dyer. (Ethan Hawke’s character)

Here are just few of my favorite lines from the movie:

Lelaina: I mean, these job interviews, Troy... The word “vivesection” a staggering understatement. I mean, can you define irony?
Troy:: Its when the actual meaning is the complete opposite from the literal meaning.
Lelaina: My God, where were you when I needed you today?

Lelaina: Troy, aren't you excited?
Troy: I'm bursting with fruit flavor.

Michael: Have I stepped over some line in the sands of coolness with you, because excuse me if somebody doesn't know the secret handshake with you.

Troy: There's no secret handshake. There's an IQ prerequisite, but there's no secret handshake.

Troy: Did he dazzle you with his extensive knowledge of mineral water or was it his in-depth analysis of Marky Mark that finally reeled you in? I just would have liked to have been there to watch how you rationalized sleeping with a yuppie-head cheeseball on the first date.
Lelaina: He's not a yuppie.
Troy: He's the reason why Cliff's Notes were invented.

Lelaina:: Why are you acting like a jealous boyfriend all of a sudden?
Troy:: I... am not acting like anything. I am calmly reading.

Troy: There's no point to any of this. It's all just a... a random lottery of meaningless tragedy and a series of near escapes. So I take pleasure in the details. You know... a quarter-pounder with cheese, those are good, the sky about ten minutes before it starts to rain, the moment where your laughter becomes a cackle... and I sit back and I smoke my Camel Straights and I ride my own melt.

Queer Eye for the Straight Guy

Well, watched their episode last night. The guy was a great ice skater. He’s married; his wife is also an ice skater and is Italian. They look so beautiful together!

The guy’s clothing make over we’re all Armani, he was taught how to make raviolis, and you could really see he’s gladly doing this for his wife and that they really love each other.

After enjoying the show, I called up the boyfriend and wanted to tell him that I love him, but I couldn’t… nahihiya ako…ngayon pa!

But before we hanged up, I managed to say I love you, without sounding so cheesy and clingy and annoying. And I thought he liked it.

Ah! Love…

say more with pictures!

ha!

i can post pictures na!!!!!!! well, thanks saab!!!

i'm posting, this pic kasi resize ko..gigantic naman pala kasi pag di mu resize so...

here's my jowa, tonet


tonet's my classmate, been friends for 2 years na, she knows all about me,we share the love for tofu, and we both dislike spicy foods! i know i can depend on her, she's a great friend,sister,daughter,person lahat!
i love her!before we call each other sosi friend and now jowa

and mah bowfriend, jog


my bestfriend,mah bowfriend, the man i could be crazy with, i fight and make up with, the man who have treated me with great respect, and who have love me inspite and despite of

jen, my pangga and jog's siter


its because of her that jog and i are together...hehe
we became close late last school year, it was her last year kc she was graduating.
it was our closeness and sleep overs that introduced jog and i to each other.
she was supportive though hindi sya naging konsintidora..
she's also very close to my family, and i consider her family..
we we're worried at first na baka maapektuhan kami because of our (jog and i) relationship, but i really try not to involve her for our friendships' sake.

NINA's BACK!

that's me,jen,anne and niña


me, jen, anne, niña


niña,me and jen
dati it was jen na long hair ngayon kami naman ni niña!


niña,anne and me

nina my highschool friend came back from the states last monday, it was only last saturday that we got the chance to see each other again after 2 years na..

the night started and ended with kwentuhans, about our other batchmates, and i was surprised to know a lot, i mean A LOT are momies now...oh well.

we felt very SATCish kasi we we're in starbucks and it was only the four of us...
ayun..

i showed my sis our pics kanina morning and she said "matatanda na kayo!"

hay!

P.S.
i'm trying to post pics, hope its a success!

SATC

Sex and the City: bye

finished the 6th and final season of sex and the city last sunday.wasn't able to write about it kasi nawala sa isip ko..hehe. i cried over (for the first time for SATC) the ick factor and the american girl in Paris part 2..it was swell.. its sad na its over pero they ended it well naman, so ok na din..

jog, who catches the 6th season over their WOWOW channel, agrees with me na super gwapo ni Smith, Samantha's new boyfriend! he's super sexy and he shaved his head... (i like kalbos eh)

jason lewis (kalbo)

jason lewis (satc)



and i like harry, charlotte's really lucky to have him.

i'm really careful about writing about it kasi don't want to ruin the excitement for those who haven't watched it..

and Miranda's like the jealous friend we have, or we ourselves are..in a good way though.

Berger reminded me of my ex boyfriend, (he writes well too-my ex) i wondered tuloy if all writers are like that..hehe

and Carrie everybody's favorite wore the best outfits and the i-wish-i-have-that shoes!
she deserved only the best...even the best man for for her.

TIVO- Miranda has it, Oprah has it...hope magkaron na din dito PINAS!!

CINDERELLA STORY

i passed by Robinson's Place Manila (as i always do) and checked out if it's still shown, well..hindi na!Jog and i we're planning to watch it pa naman sana on Friday..tsk tsk tsk..

i love lizzie maguire,( i mean hillary duff) and super cutie pie si Chad Murray! Dawson Creek days pa..kaya sana we'll be able to catch it.

HTML

hay naku, still learning and researching about it...
hirap tlga.
kaya tignan nyo yung link ko, hindi maganda!hmp!
but i'll read more about it..

BEING A STUDENT

well.kanina lng ako nag research finally, for our project due next tues..cramming is the best policy..hehe

and kanina while waiting for jen,realized na dami ko pa defeciences and i'm graduating!
i have to complete my Nat Sci 2 subject and hopefully my PE 4! or else mag swimming ako next sem!nyaiks!!!!
sana matapos ko sya...

and there's this EP thing pa na kailangan complete or else hindi din me graduate!
arrrrrgggggghhh!


thanks to ala and bianca! they allowed me to link them..sana si saab reply na din..

UCC coffee

ate out tonight with my mom and dad. feeling only child!hehehe

we ate at UCC coffee at Valero st. Makati.

i had their seafood salad, and had their banana chocolate smoothie! it was delightful!
i've been having a chocolate and ice cream craving...maybe its becuase im not eatin rice for a month now.im on a diet, and i've lost weight, 10 pounds already and im very happy to fit in most of my clothes now!

gtg, im learning html..hehe

too much that i can't handle

well, jog and i talked last night.
actually, it was midnight so, early this morning.
after what felt like 3 weeks of not talking, (we both say that) we're really crazy.

we didn't really talked about it.
i just told him what happend to me and my whole day,
we talked about SATC's last season, and how much i love smith,how i cried over a few episodes for the first time, and how my midterms were.

he actually told me some things that i should remember,it helped a little but at the back of my mind, i still have doubts.

i know we love each other,but i'm not sure if we are ready for the consequences of loving each other and how we can show each other that we mean it when we say "i love you". i'm not sure if i can be as bold as i was before and take that leap, even if i know that in the end it will hurt.

i just feel lost in love.

it seems that no matter how much he would explain, and how much i believe him, i couldn't gamble anymore (as i used to,in matter of the heart). i'm getting old.

and here i am, trying to figure out what i should do.
i think i've been here before and i think he shouldnt make me go through this again..

to be happy and be a martyr or to be alone and alone

in a rut

it's midterms week, im in my last exam tomorrow.
and there's nothing i'm looking forward to this week..
last week i had, because jog and i had plans..
but now, i don't know...

we argued about the same things all over again last night.
partly my fault, because we've talked about this a million times already, agreed upon a solution but still i can't seem to understand.

i just can't accept the fact that the best reason he could give me is "sorry, i can't"
and even if we say we're in a relationship, that we are happy, it could only take one phone call, a text or a chat that could ruin it all.

i love him. very much. but even if i say this to myself over and over and over again, it still doesn't make a difference on how i feel or think...

Pangga (jen, his sister who's also my closest friend) said it best...
"there are a million and 1 reason why you should not continue on this battle but it there's one reason why you should...its because you love him.."

and it hurts big time!
we agreed not to talk, until i've made up my mind. i don't know if i could live with that...
i'm so used to talking to him all the time...(very dependent i know)

it hurts that we're like this now, that we could be the sweetest looking couple then the not-talking-for-a-week couple the next..

we're happy,i'm happy,i love him,he loves me, and i cant believe we're messed up because of that tiny detail!

and for the first time in the history of my relationships i don't blame it on him..i mean i dont put all the blame on the guy...

i'm just hoping for the best..

this shall all past......

renewal of vows....

we got it from dino guevarra and kim delos santos on 30 days, actually it was jog's idea.kasi sya naman nakapanood.

for the week of july 19-24 we were always fighting on the phone. i dont know if i was PMS-ing, basta we would always sleep na masama loob. reasons would be because he said something that i didn't like, or he says a joke and mapipikon ako.like that, and it was tiring. the only good thing (also bad actually) is we would patch up agad,like the next day and we wouldn't talk about it na lng, we say sorry but we dont discuss it na lng.

and so friday comes and my then si jai my ex gave me this cd, sympre naman any bf wouldnt be happy. mejo tampo pala sya when i was singing one of the songs in the cd, yung kay carole king, you're so far away...

saturday
since wednesday,when i recieved a text message from my friend ate jp who invited me to our friend jp's bday on saturday,(another jp) i've been planning not to go,but then i got a call from the celebrator himself (who's a very good friend,and considers me a woman after his heart) i changed plans.

the plan of going on his birthday..i didn't inform jog pala...that night, he called and was really mad..

jog: alis ka na?
kaye: hindi mamaya pa
jog: ah tlga, kanino ka nagpaalam?
kaye: (silence) (takot me) ah, (stutter) di ba sinabi ko na sayo
jog: (interrupts) wala kang sinabi sa kain na tutuloy ka
kaye: kwento ko na sayo di ba na nagusap kami...
jog:oo pero ang sabi mu ayaw mo pumunta at makipag plastikan sa kanila
kaye: oo nga pero nung tumawag si jp di ba naawa naman ako...
jog: bahala ka..sige na magbabasketball ako,wala ako dala cell

and so,officially he was mad.

it was raining hard, and i have'nt finished doing the laundry, so i got into thinking...
sa totoo, takot talaga ako kay jog, specially when i talked to pangga,his sister jen, and she told me, jog was really mad and asked her kung nagsabi ako sa kanya (kay jen) even their mom said " ay naku ging,sabihan mu si kikay,alam mu naman yang si jog sawain"

i got my phone, texted ate jp, made up and excuse that my parents didn't allow me to go becuase of the rain. and i knew jp would understand. besides, anu ba naman yung si jen and tonet na lng friend ko,basta ma bf!" hehehe

when he got home from basketball, i called and told him i stayed home.
JOG: mabuti naman.

and then that night they had to leave because their uncle died.they had to go to bulacan.

i was hoping that night, its over.the fight.

MONDAY

He told me he was really pikon last saturday, and he really wanted to ask me kung gusto ko pa tuloy relationship namin, because we were fighting the whole week, with really babaw things.

he also said he felt bad, because i was singing the song jai gave me last friday..

and so monday we kissed and made up

and wednesday he gave me flowers..

kaya when we talked on the phone, i told him..renewal of vows week ba?
and kasi we were planning to watch pa catwoman (which is a very lousy movie) on thursday pa...and that's how the title began..hehe

we're really crazzy!

NOTE:
Actually, this all happend before "MY FIRST FLOWER".
i didnt have internet account at that time kaya, ayun...now ko lng na post.hehe

MY FIRST FLOWER

i remember having this converstion with my good friend Larcy, during our boyfriend-less days,well it still is for Larcy (hehe) she asked me if anyone from my ex's gave me flowers?

and then i looked back from bf #1,bf #2..."wala pa" i followed it up by "eh kasi naman, i don't like flowers, i mean of course they are nice pero, if it will be given by my boyfriend or a suitor, i wouldn't appreciate it..para kasing feeling ko tamad na sya to think of something to give me,its very usual na for a guy to give flowers..mas ma-appreciate ko pa pag food!" That was 2 years ago..

well, i've been very careful and afraid to say how i really feel with my relationship with jog..i mean when other people ask or sometimes even to myself, i don't assess our relationship as too good nor too bad..with my past relationships, and i guess everyone could relate, you would like to think that that relationship you're in presently will be " it ". and now that i'm into one again, looking through my history of past relationships, i've had 2 false alarms already, the first one was the guy my mom loves and the second with the so brilliant guy, i'm so afraid to even hope that this is it..whenever it crosses my mind, imediately want to erase it!

but i guess denying myself with the truth doesnt help either..

jog has been amazing all these time (i didn't an use exact time frame,because we're cray and we don't have an official "date/monthsary/anniversary) he's been all that and more, i see his efforts in making my family like him,he's been good to my friends (esp. tonet my jowa), he makes time for me, for us, he says sorry when he feels its his fault, he still says sorry even if its my mistake,he's very patient with me, he puts up with my craziness and although he seldom says " i love you " amazingly i can feel that he does..he shows me..so, officially today, i'm wishing (cause i dont think hoping works anymore) that this, our relationship will come far.
so anyways,back to the title of my blog..

i was out with my very good friend JP,we had lunch, coffee, long chats, and ice cream! (cause i just had my braces adjusted and it hurts like hell) earlier that morning while having our usual good morning talk on the phone, he asked what time i'll be finished with my "chismisan" with JP, i said, i'll behome by 230. then he said that he'll be driving for his father and he might drop by later..of course i said "sure, just text me when you're on your way na"

and so, at 430 my phone vibrated and read "nsan ka n? ppnta na kme jan!" i told JP we have to go na,coz the bf is dropping by the house. i hurriedly took the fx ride, then he again txtd "dto na kmi!tsk! wala pa tao sa bhay nyo!" i replied "w8 lng,hi way na me, sbi k kc txt me pag ppunta na kau"
i saw their car parked, saw his cute nephew Sir Wendrick, and his dad. when i walked toward them, i called Sir Wendrick and asked for a kiss, then i apologized and then asked Sir his favorite pasalubong from me.."Sir, gusto mu ba ng Moo?" Pa-good boy answer "Opo!" then i took his hand and then we walked towards our gate, and just as we were near our house, Sir called out "Pangga!Pangga!B-lak,B-laklak galing Jog" and there..i saw in our plant box, long stemmed Stargazers! i could feel my smile reached my ears...

its the first time ive recieved flowers from a guy..from my bf..and according to jog its his first time giving a girl flowers..wow first timers!hehehe
its such a wonderful,crazy feeling.
actually, babaeng babae feeling ko, im officially a lady..
and everyday i take pictures of it like it was surveyed..
i miss blogging!wala kasi internet, and sobrang kuripot me to buy for myself. too much saving!hehehe
i missed reading saab, ala, and bianca's blog tuloy!
anyway, catched up ion them na.

im back?!

i'm back.and this is for good.i hope.post again tomorrow.

stupid

IM SO STUPID!!!!
i dont know anything about htmls,urls...aaarrgh!


LAKERS...
hay naku, we lost..jog's really happy,detroit sya eh!i was heartbroken.

FRIENDSTER
hay naku!saya ng friendster tlga!my friend bianca, whom ive met through my lola in Brunei,found me!they've migrated to Australia, she's taking up nursing (everyone is) and she remebered my whole family.ka-touch tlga!

MABUHAY ANG FRIENDSTER!

crazy 

ME! 

BACK TO SCHOOL,BUT NOT FOR ME

i'm stil not attending school! june 7 was officially our first day of classes, but i together with my jowa tonet, have not attented any of our class..we have an excuse, we are fixing our accreditation of our subjects from our former colleges, the hassles of being a transferree.

as ive promised myself the whole of summer, I WILL ARRANGE MY BAGS.At last!i fixed my bags and cleaned some of them, and to my surprise i have plenty of bags than what i've expected.my excuse? we have a uniform in school, and the only way i could not get bored is to accessorize and have bags to change everyday.pwede?ok ba excuse ko?

and i have not bought school shoes yet...

TOO MUCH TRUST..IS THERE SUCH A THING?

WORLD CHAMPIONSHIPwell, to start off, LA won! love yah kobe! hands down to DETROIT, good defense and you kept me nervous up to the time Kobe sent the game on overtime.whew!
and i have a new crush, MVP Kevin Garnett, my bf's cool with it :p hehe

PUSS IN THE BOOTS
today,jog and i finally watched Shrek 2!!!since the first day of showing, we have been planning on watching the movie but there's always something that we choose to do instead, like watching Troy first, well it was a good choice 'cause we saw Bamboo at the movie house, then he told me he's thinking twice about watching a movie because according to a friend who had seen it, it was "bitin", and so we postponed watching it again...and then yesterday he asked me if i still wanted to see it, i said YES before he could change his mind.

i enjoyed the movie!i felt i was half my age again! sabay kami tumawa ni jog in almost the same scenes! katuwa ni donkey when he drinked the happily ever after potion! and yung style ni puss in the boots pag lalaban sya,yung paawa effect!effective!hehe sabi nga ni jog, i look like him,pag nagpapaawa.sabi ko: what!mukha akong lalaki! hehehe

DILEMMA
my friend jen whom i call pangga, who is also the sister of my bf gave me something to think about... about his brother and his gimik last night. well, my bf told me something, naturally i believed all of it, because i trust him.when i told this to jen, she went "WHAT?". She said if she was in my place he wouldnt believe what his brother told me.with that, i was still firm on what i believe, i told her her brother would tell me everything and wouldnt lie because i dont give him the reason not to tell me the truth.but she got me thinking when i was having dinner, that she could be right, that he wouldnt tell me those other details because he wouldn't want me to get hurt and all...and so, being me i asked jog bluntly if he told me evrything i should know and if he was truthful today. he answered back, "yes, if i was lying i should have just not told you anything at all" with that, i felt calm.

have i been too trusting?or am i just stupid and gullible?

and i believe in intuitions, i didn't feel any with jog.sana langmy intuitions would not fail me.

and jen says i love his brother too much,i'm blinded thats why i believe him. i dont think so, but could she be right?

other blogs,quizzes, oppppppps

visited my favorite blogs.read other people lives.funny and interesting.my boyfriend would laugh at me when he finds out i spent 3 hrs, reading other peoples rants and raves.he would say his current favorite expression "tsk tsk...crazy"

i saw Ala Paredes' site through which i viewed Mich Dulce's blog, and got this quiz,that is actually for blogs.cool!

speaking of boyfriend, he's actually not in a good mood the last time he called,bad trip sya with jen..tsk tsk tsk...i dont want to get in the middle of their "fight".

this is actually the first time i've seen him mad..i mean talked to him...and i'm not actually frightened..it's just that,he rarely losses his temper,kaya i'm kinda worried at the same time mejo sige na nga, takot..hmmm..hope i can cool him down...asus!asa pa me!

from Mich Dulce's Blog

K	Kind
A	Astonishing
Y	Yum
E	Explosive

Name / Username:

Name Acronym Generator
From Go-Quiz.com


fun!fun!fun! :D

Music and Love Part 2

6. feels like home: Chantal Kreviazuk – and if you knew how much I wanted someone to come along, and change my life the way you’ve done, it feels like home to me, it feels like home to me, It feels like I'm all the way back where I come from It feels like home to me, it feels like home to me It feels like I'm all the way back where I belong … you feel comfortable, you feel that he’s your resting place…
7. I love you: Faith Evans – my heart belongs to you, so what can I do to make you feel I’m down with you… I love you I want you You're the one that I live for And I can't take it any more I love you I need you What can I do to make you see You're the only one for me.. just the line I love you makes everything easy to understand
8. balisong: river maya – never in my life have I been more sure, so come up to me and close the door, you’re everything I wanted and more…another great composition from Rico Blanco, very powerful lyrics
9. noypi: bamboo – well, the song is not really a love song, but it is special because the time my bf, his sister (pangga), and me saw Troy, we saw it with Bamboo because he was also there in the movie house, my bf knowing that I like Bamboo, waited for him outside the men’s room, while I was totally against it because of my hiya, called Bamboo, and asked for an autograph. It was really sweet of him (my bf) and it was a funny experience!
10. would I lie to you – I don’t know who sang the song, but I remember surprising my bf with the lyrics of this song on his email. There was this night on the phone when he was singing this song, telling me “would I lie to you baby?”

Music and Love

The soundtrack of my lovelife:

1. Rainbow: South Border- the song reminds me of the phone conversations that starts at 11pm and lasts up to 6am the next day…it’s a very positive love song, very hopeful. Cause I’m always around you and I’ll make you see how beautiful life is for you and me…2. the reason: hoobastank – I’ve found a reason for me to change who I used to be, a reason to start over new, and the reason is you… need I say more?
3. another used to be: joe – now all that’s changed, since you’ve come my way, now I don’t want us to become, another used to be …for someone who has been in relationships, and who is currently in a new one could relate to these lines and would mean every word of it
4. bonnie and clyde: jay-z & beyonce – all i need in this life of sin, is me and girlfriend, down the ride till the very end its me and my boyfriend … I’ve always found this song cute and now, I could really make this one of our songs because my boyfriend can dance well…that simple.
5. underneath it all: no doubt - do you want to love me? underneath it all, I’m really lucky, underneath it all, you’re really lovely… believe me it takes a lot for a guy to like me, much more is to love me. To accept who I really am and still love me underneath it all is really a BIG!

to be continued...

the reason

the reason

I’m in love!

My little brother caught me off guard when he asked me about my new beau. He asked me how was he different from my former bf and how I feel. I told him all the reasons why I love my baby (that's our not-so-unique term of endearment)and how I wanted this to be “it”. When he just gave me his “im-not-convinced-so-I’ll-just-pretend-I-am-look” and I asked him why he simply answered “that’s also what you said about the-ex-bf . With that I had to re-evaluate my feelings and convince myself that this time my new relationship really is for keeps despite what brother have just said.

This only validates most of our beliefs that whenever we are in a relationship, we (both guys and girls are guilty on this) would think that this is “it”. Of course who wouldn’t? I mean we take the risks and be in a relationship, work on that relationship only hoping for the best and make it the one for us.

In this lifetime I’ve fallen in love for a total of 4 times already, plus now, so 5 times all in all. And for all those 4 times I’ve felt love and being loved, it just didn’t last. And for the 5th time I’ve felt it again and sige na nga for the benefit of the talk I had with my brother rather than I say I want this to be it, I would rather say, I hope and I pray that this is it.

Each day, I have the reason to smile and look forward to tomorrow because I have someone I share and end my days with.