WEIRD

i'm such a weirdo.
i'm not sure if i have written this before, but SHE WILL BE LOVED makes me cry.sobra.
i'm usually teary eyed first stanza pa lang.
i know. crazy.
then there was, the south border song..ano nga ba yun?
Wherever you are. hay naku! especially when i watched their video, lalo ako naiyak.
i'm laughing while i'm writing this,kasi naman,kaloka.
before it was butterfly kisses.

what's weird is, i can't explain and find any reason why i cry with these songs.

FOGGY MORNING
















see the difference?

babies

i just love how they smell!

yesterday, at 10:20pm my Tita Mona gave birth to a cute and BIG princess
Zoe Katriel. BIG, cause she weighed 8 lbs and 20 inches. I am so excited, but was too afraid to carry her. I know how fragile babies are, and im not so used to carrying new born babies. But they said i had to "practice". well, i gave it a shot, and it was a whoa moment! I could smell her and she is just so cute with siopao cheeks! I didnt want to put her down anymore.

I sent my parents the pictures, Tito Randy emailed friends and relatives, and I'm sure everyone from Manila wants to see our new princess.

Nate was actually cool. We expected he would want to get the attention, but he kissed and talked to Zoe. When she cried, he said "whats the matter baby girl?". And then he said, "babies don't talk" hahaha! i know, he's just so adorable.

My Tita had a hard time during labor, and Tito Randy told me " Ngayon naiintindihan ko na may karapatan talagang magalit ng husto ang mga nanay pag lapastangan ang anak nila...sa hirap ng pangangak.."

But for now, i guess we all just have to enjoy the smell, the joys and pains of having a baby in the house.

emmy's 2005

just finished watching the emmy's.

i'm happy that felicity huffman won for best actress in a comedy series. and her speech was just awwww. you could see how proud in her husband was while she was giving her acceptance speech.

Eva Longoria was stunning. She looks like a barbie.




















lost won, and everybody loves raymond!! just right after tony shalhoub teased ray romano for losing the best actor in a comedy series category, saying " there's always next year, well, except for Ray Romano". well deserved for everybody loves raymond...10 years! sa last season pa nila nakuha. sweet success!

and my best dressed list...


Alyson Hannigan


Eva Longoria


Marcia Cross


Debra Messing


Mischa Barton

PHOTOS: Yahoo!TV

chismis galore

could not help myself but read and watch tsismis!

the other day, Britney gave birth to Sean Presley Federline. According to EXTRA, her room was $20,000 a night, and she hired a personal chef. they also rented 10 other rooms for their family and friends. well, she can afford it!

tommorow will be Oprah's season premiere with Jennifer Aniston as her guest, i think it will be a week-long season premiere, with a lot of hollywood stars as her guests this week. and i'm guessing they changed their studio design. i couldnt wait to watch it.

was browing the internet when....

NEXT ATTRACTION


it will be shown on December 2005, and im just so happy i'll be home by that time.salamat.

and....



but it will be a long wait, kasi its on May 17,2006 pa daw in Manila.

oh well, and Goblet of Fire naman on November.

so many movies to watch out for. im excited.

lastly, i took this friday afternoon.


my tita has my favorite flower and pink,yellow,and white roses in their garden. beautiful.

Pangalan

if every girl dreams about their wedding everyday, I have been writing and keeping my future children's names everytime i find one. hahaha!

as in! and everyone who knows me, from highschool can attest to that! basta, ewan, i just wanna be prepared and i want to give nice names lang talaga.

and im not sharing.hahaha! kahit kanino..ay except for Mira.hahaha. so Mira, you cant use my names, and i wont use yours. hahaha

so far, i have, like 16 names for girls, and 4 for boys. thats not actually acurate, kasi i have my other notebook sa manila,which has the other names i have collected since birth! hehehe and i have 2 unisex names.

but im in no rush to have babies ok.baka some will get the wrong impression.

im just obsessive about it.

random thoughts...so random,its not worth reading

was watching the season premiere of Gilmore Girls, when i got to watch the commercial of the new iPod... the nano iPod, which i believe is as light as a paper. whew!

and while reading my Nigella Lawson's book, i wonder what if i did take up culinary arts? hmmm
but hey, i still have time. i can take up culinary arts one day...i will

and i am currently in love with this songs...

And I
Know that he wont break my heart
And I
Know that we wont ever part
Its time, time for us to settle down
And I
Wanna be with him forever

I love you
And all of the things that you do
Oh baby please
I need you (I need you)
So believe me (I do)I do (oOoOOo)
Cause I love you (I love you)
And every lil thing baby (you do)
No no OoO whooOooa OooOo
They don't know how I feel
Cause I know this is real

and this..even though i couldn't relate to this song, i just love gwen

And after all the obstaclesI
t's good to see you now with someone else
And it's such a miracle that you and me are still good friends
After all that we've been throughI know we're cool

cool!

have a good one everyone!

mortals

i was crying the whole time when i watched Oprah's special on the Katrina victims.
i am no American, but i felt their pain.
i felt humanitty.
i remember Oprah saying, " you can smell death"
i watched as Julia Roberts, hugged and tried to comfort the refugees. and how a simple hug can make a difference.
and at these times, we owe it to our lives to help.

Taking chances

I am no relationship expert, but I do know what I have learned, and I think I have learned quite a few.

When relationships ends…

Some makes you obsessive.
Some makes you cry at three in the morning, 4 days after the break up.
Some makes you don’t eat your favorite sandwich, just because it’s his favorite too.
Some unleashes the bad side of you.
Some makes you make every song, your song.
Some makes you hate every couple you see.
And it could go on and on.

It takes time before you realize it’s not the end of the world. And there are more important things to be done.

I have been in those relationships; I have been through sad, hurtful break-ups. And I think that's why, a lot of us, have that post relationship im-so-scared-of-getting-hurt-again syndrome.

But looking back, I think I never had that.

The scared of getting hurt again part.
I am impulsive most of the time when it comes to matters of the heart.
Because I have always thought that you can never make precautionary measures,

falling in love is never pain-proof.

That it’s always a gamble.

You will never know, unless you’d be brave enough to know that it will surely hurt.

That’s why; I am so baffled, at why I am so scared now?
I am so scared, I cannot even admit to myself, that yes we are happy, I am very happy, and yes, it is possible to be this happy and at the same time have the most un-perfect relationship.

I am so scared to label our relationship, to label us. To label that this relationship is working out the way it should be and I could see a bit of the future.

I am so afraid to use the word might. Or even hope, because it feels like I’m pre-empting the future. I guess it’s because I have so much belief with fate. So much faith, that I am willing to deprive myself of the happiness the stability of our relationship gives. Just so I won’t be too assured, and later on suffer from the possibility that this might not still be it. Cause is there anyone, in a relationship right now, that wouldn’t want this to be it? And I hate that, that I am so careful about feeling that bliss. That feeling, which who knows I won’t be able to feel again, in this lifetime, with the same person or not.

I guess this one is just so important to me, I don’t want to gamble. I don’t want to take chances, and that I am so careful, that even if I know we are working hard for this relationship to be at its best happy state, I don’t really want to plan ahead. Even if Oprah says we have a good thing going on. It’s best if we take it one day at a time. Be patient and wait.

There’s no doubt that I have a great man with me. Journeying with me, making the most out of what we have and what have we have been through. He is doing his part at his best. He has been with me during the happiest and lowest points of my life, has been understanding and supportive, and most importantly, loves the best and the ugliest parts of me.

I am not scared of getting hurt. I am scared that I might give too much pressure in this relationship, the minute I say, this is it, and it will be doomed. I am so scared, that I will do something that will make this relationship not to be it. But will my being so careful help to prevent anything that may cause the relationship? I don’t think so. That’s why it’s so scary. Because, in the end, it may be not just about the two of you, but what was meant to be.

How does one know if the relationship they are in now is it? They say, you just know. In the middle of all this, I possibly know the answer. And I’m just so chicken to admit it and say it out loud.

What I do know now is what to answer when one day somebody would ask me, what makes Jog special? Jog is special because, he has taught me to know my battles, love with courage and unconditionally. And if only for that, I should worry no more.

allure, labor day weekend and james blake

all day yesterday, i was juts reading on allure, the mags sent to me by tita mai.(thanks!)
it wanted me to shop till i drop..sobra.thats how i spent labor day, ended it by watching laguna beach..hay..tinadyer

and here's my new crush...

james blake.





he won against nadal (not sure or was it noval), it was a sweet victory,coz he had been through a lot last year. he had a stroke, then his dad died of cancer. who could have thought that after a stroke, he could play again. tapos he won pa. god bless him.

i was chatting with jeline this morning, and she was asking me how jog and i are doing. considering we are miles apart.long distance eh. told her, we're good, its not perfect but we're happy.

but with the advantages of technology we are just windows away..

and another one where jog makes his best actor performance



thanks louise!

BLOG CRUSH

i have a blog crush..if there is such a thing.
i was blog hopping when i've come upon his blog.
nothing serious. just a crush.
he actually dropped by this blog once and left a message.
i think he's a great guy, artistic, and from what i've read he's a geek.
and he has a great gf. i should know, cause i read their blogs.(ah!clue!)
that's ok, i don't have plans.
even if he doesnt have someone,i am with someone.
so there, i was just crazy to realize, that yeah, i can consider him like ashton kutcher and jericho rosales. cause i'm totally crushing on this guy. hahaha

lemme know

hi everyone! i have been checking my stats, and it seems, i get visitors. so i just hope, you'd leave a post, or you can leave a message on my tag board. i'd like to know who you are...and i hope you wouldn't mind. and if you have also your web blog, you can leave the add so i could check it out as well. thanks!

Avada Kedavra

I finally finished book 6, and i baked some bread pudding just to get my mind off it.

Since book 4, JK Rowling havent written a happy ending Harry Potter, which is just so depressing. I might be overreacting, but hey, i havent cried like this since book 3 when harry met sirius. After reading book 6, i kept crying from chapter seven to thirty. I wouldnt want to spoil those who are planning to read the book, or those who are finishing it, so i wouldnt want to say anything beyond, It's a sad sad book. Although i liked how fast paced the book was, compared to the past books. And there were also things in book 6 that made me smile and lifted my heart, to which i could only refer as the love teams JK created.hahaha. And i'm not looking forward to book 7, but i'll read it still,just to know what happens, but if u ask me, i'm not that excited and giddy anymore. bwiset!

so there, i think i need to start reading the book jog gave me to help me move on. hope tommorow i will not remember anything about that book!

there are just some things money can't buy

haha! wala lang, that title just came to me, as i logged on here..

still not finished on the book, but i know i will be done soon.

been helping my tita to find a name for their baby girl. but i'm kinda holding back some names, thats because those names will be the future names of my kids. hehe. if ever i'll be having children. names with s, its because i think i have lots of them,this early ha, but i want to have kids when I'm thirty na...so there, and i want not just one name for a kid, but a maximum of 4. hahaha! kawawang bata...everyone's writing number one on their paper, but he/she will still be on her second name.i could just imagine! crazy huh?

we also bought dresses and cutesy stuff for the baby. grabe, i think i know a lot about babies more than ever! grabe, the things i learn, like breast feeding them every two hours, the things you should eat and not eat--ampalaya causes contraction, etc. hay! and my tita was telling me about her labor, and epidural! grabe! the things we women go through. they were also telling me, that when its my time, when i have baby, i should rather choose c-section, or if i'd prefer the other way around, better make sure they will give me the epidural immediately. hahaha

but before i worry about all that, i'd probably worry about getting a job first, when we get back to manila.

katrina

let's all offer a prayer for all those affected by this tragedy...

and i guess this is a reminder to all of us

inspire the uninspired

i cant remember where i got that line..it must have been from a movie..

oh well, i have been debating on updating this blog..there is nothing i could write about, that would interest you nor me.

well,yeah, i got another second hand book, Trading Up, and my most recent and one of my proudest purchases, NIGELLA LAWSON'S Nigella Bites, that i got for 15$. i'm so lucky to have that book,its not second Pegasus books in Berkeley is just on SALE! ha!

all in all i've been happy on all of my book purchases!

i have also almost bought this cute halter top from a store called Papaya, but I had to be more practical.asus.nah! knowing me,i was just converting and converting.hahaha

what else? we got to bath and body works,i was planning to hoard on my fav scent,but luck was not on my side. so i just settled to my second bests.

and just now, i remebered where i got that line, from Van Wilder, Party Liason!hahaha

so there, hope everyone's having a greet week..so far so good huh?

and btw, Book 6, for me is the fastest pacing book JK Rowling has ever written.