Im still alive

I totally forgot! Its Kikaye’s 1^st birthday this month!!!! Its been a year of blah blah and fun of making myself heard or should I say read. thanks for all those who take their time to drop by and catch up with me.

There’s not much going on that is worth writing, so I have been absent in my own sanctuary.

In the past two weeks, there was a chance or a thought I should say of employment. But I was rejected having not being able to answer what the interviewer wanted to hear. Or should I say what she wanted to get or maybe she didn’t hear what she always does.

At the same time, the plans of me going to help a relative became clearer and sooner.

I think what had happened was just meant to be.

I am looking forward on this trip, being able to help and the thought of traveling alone for the first time is a good thing but I couldn’t help but think of all the things, places and specially people that I am going to miss.

I will not be able to cook dinner anymore for my family every night. I might miss the chance of helping my sister plan for her debut, although I already thought of just emailing and chatting with her to make the necessary arrangements. Princess might not remember me anymore when I get back 6 months later. Soap operas every night after dinner and during dinner.

I will miss birthdays of friends: Nina, Gian, Anne, Mira and of course Jog’s. It could have been his second birthday together but as fate would have it, we have to celebrate it miles apart.

I am going to miss everything about our house, and my bumming around. Its just some of the things that I’m going to miss.

Yesterday, Jog took me to Roxas Boulevard. We ate siomai, squid balls, balut, dirty ice cream, fries and Mc Float. Just one of the most creative dates Jog has taken me to, he also wrote me a poem. It was funny, mayabang but heartfelt. It was the assurance I needed.

I am blessed with a loving family, reliable and trustworthy friends, and a boyfriend who is caring, funny, honest, mushy at times and crazy. I always say this, but I am the luckiest girl. I may sound arrogant but I guess I’m just grateful.

PJP II

I recieved this from email...

Friends,

In less than 24 hours more than 2,000 people from all over the world have
signed the petition to proclaim that Pope John Paul II should be known
henceforth and forever as John Paul the Great. Not bad. But we need many
more.

We need a million names. So, it will take more than the faithful readers
of the Friday Fax to make this happen.

Each of you who read this message must send this to all of your family and
friends. And each of them must send it to their family and friends.

If you run an email report, send this out to your readers. If you have a
radio show, mention this on air. We can generate a million signatures and
these millions names will make a global splash.

Direct your family, friends, colleagues, strangers to PJPthegreat
and have them sign the petition. Then have them send their own alert to
their family and friends to get them to sign.

Do it now, friends.

Best regards,

Austin Ruse
President
C-FAM

PS Remember, the title "Great" is not bestowed by the Church. It is
bestowed by the people, by public acclamation, and by historical use.
Let's start this right now!

CHEAP THRILLS


All Under P100

1. V-cut and Piattos Cheese flavor chips
2. Pancakes with Pancake syrup
3. Belgian Waffle with whipped cream and caramel sauce
4. Jell-o
5. Sarsi
6. Mc Float
7. Jungle sundae Cone (the new stalls at the mall)
8. Plato Wraps
9. Palmolive Naturals Shampoo (violet)
10. Hello Panda
11. Catching an episode of Desperate Housewives! (Soon!)
12. Cheese Whiz with Pandesal
13. Passing through Quirino Highway, being able to stare at Borgy Manotoc’s Blue Soda’s billboard. (big grin on my face)
14. Watching Entertainment Tonight (gossip!)
15. Slouching on my mom’s new comfy chair!

Yey!

And I found this in one of my files.. I got this 2 years ago from an email.

Think about them one at a time BEFORE going on to the next one.........

IT DOES MAKE YOU FEEL GOOD specially the thought at the end.

1.Falling in love.
2. Laughing so hard your face hurts.
3. A hot shower.
4. No lines at the supermarket
5. A special glance.
6. Getting mail
7. Taking a drive on a pretty road.
8. Hearing your favorite song on the radio.
9. Lying in bed listening to the rain outside.
10. Hot towels fresh out of the dryer.
11. Finding the sweater you want is on sale for half price.
12. Chocolate milkshake. (or vanilla!) (or strawberry)
13. A long distance phone call.
14. A bubble bath.
15. Giggling.
16. A good conversation.
17. The beach
18. Finding a 20 note in your coat from last winter.
19. Laughing at yourself.
20. Midnight phone calls that last for hours.
21. Running through sprinklers.
22. Laughing for absolutely no reason at all.
23. Having someone tell you that you're beautiful.
24. Laughing at an inside joke.
25. Friends.
26. Accidentally overhearing someone say something nice about you.
27. Waking up and realizing you still have a few hours left to sleep.
28. Your first kiss (either the very first or with a new partner).
29. Making new friends or spending time with old ones.
30. Playing with a new puppy.
31. Having someone play with your hair.
32. Sweet dreams.
33. Hot chocolate.
34. Road trips with friends.
35. Swinging on swings.
36. Wrapping presents under the Christmas tree while eating cookies and drinking your
favorite tipple.
37. Song lyrics printed inside your new CD so you can sing along without feeling stupid.
38. Going to a really good concert.
39. Making eye contact with a cute stranger
40. Winning a really competitive game.
41. Making chocolate chip cookies.
42. Having your friends send you homemade cookies.
43. Spending time with close friends.
44. Seeing smiles and hearing laughter from your friends.
45. Holding hands with someone you care about.
46. Running into an old friend and realizing that some things (good or bad) never change
47. Riding the best roller coasters over and over.
48. Watching the expression on someone's face as they open a much desired present from you.
49. Watching the sunrise.
50. Getting out of bed every morning and being grateful for another beautiful day.

Just spreading some love!

The best things in life are free!

Have a nice one!

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY

During sunday school, a small boy was told that its God who makes bad people good. "I know" said the little boy. "But mothers help a lot, too." - that's from Lucy Torres' column today.

To my Lola Tess and Lola Letty, thank you for giving us (Alexis, Dondi and I) loving parents.
To my Mom, who has always been the kindest, most loving, and cool Mom I've known.
To my Lola Angeling, for raising our super kulit Lolo Tony.
To my Tita Leng, for giving us Nathan.
To Tita Baby, for raising 5 kids and her grandchildren.
To Wena, for giving the cuties Sir, Lady and Princess.

To my friends mom's, if not for them i may not have the most dependable and honest friends.
Tita Lai, Tita Sally and Tita Ellen.

For my my friends
Cheese, Pam, Lei, Hannah and Vanessa, the new generation of mothers, for giving me inaanaks, Caley, Aiken, Kalel and Nynna.


HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!!!

It is indeed the toughest job, but all of you have been good at it!

So sue me!

I hate being clingy.
I hate being needy, whiney, and overly sensitive.
And that’s what I’m just beginning to be.
And I just hate it.
I cannot believe I’ve said HATE again.
And if I continue being like this, I might end up like what a lot people hate.
And if don’t get back to my old self A.S.A.P, I would be single all over again. (the bf’s kinda losing his patience on me, although he has not said yet, I just know, women intuition)

And just when I’m working on it, PLDT Vibe is making me back to the bwiset mode. Don’t you just love it? I don’t think getting DSL would be the solution, cause I know a lot of DSL subscribers who are not giddy about the service. So if ever, this blog reaches to anyone in PLDT, I hope I’ve sent the message across! FIX IT!!!!

I’m still jobless, and everyday becomes a routine of boredom and Bum-ness, if there is a word.

And that may be just the reason why I’m all this grumpy. The only thing I’ve accomplished this far, is baking cookies and making leche flan. Which was all a success by the way.

Another thing that makes me cranky is the weather. I don’t need exclamation points for that, don’t I? And I don’t have to tell you it’s HOT. Unless you’re in an air-conditioned office or the luxury of having one at home, well you may not be able to relate to that.

And just when I’ve gathered all my thoughts, this PC would hang. Of course! That would be the icing on my cake.

So far, as you could see, this week’s not been good for me. Except for Monday when we had our CSI Miami marathon and Yellow Cab pizza. That was a good day.

So there, I just want to spread the giddiness and good fortune I’ve been having.

la kwenta

Mosquitos love me. and as of 10:43 am, i have a total of 8 mosquito bites!!!!!!!! yikes!!!

but my heart sings...

like that y'all!

ink blots

i read my sunday newspaper, only to be inspired and realizing what really made me not want to write again. you see, ive been writing since Formal Theme's were required at school for English class. all i wanted to do was to write, compose essays, jot down random thoughts, doodle,thats all i do---except for poetry.i can't do poetry. writing was the only thing i knew i was good at to say the least.

until two years ago, i stopped writing and never had the apppetite to do so. i met this really great writer. when i read his compostions, i knew i couldn't be as good as him. instead of being inspired, i was discouraged.

i just wanted to write. i didn't want to be edited. i know i have great thoughts to share and be criticized for.

But there's fate and a little help from someone who believed in me.

that someone, although not really knowing my passion to write helped me be back on my pen and paper. i remember writing continuously one night, with a blank mind and words just kept my hand writing it all out. that's when i knew i got it back.

he didn't know anything. there was nothing special that he did,he just believed in me and in everything that i did.

and with all that drama, comes my blog and 10+ notebooks, filled with my thoughts and my heart.


forgiveness

i think i haven't. and i'm giving myself time, to get all the bitterness and pain out. i need time, this has been happening to me 4 times in 22 years. something must be really wrong with me, or i'm just destined to meet these kind of people and make me learn the same lesson over and over again. it's like math!


CURRENT CRAVING: chocolate!!!!!