what I miss the most in bumming around

Since I started working (if you call what I do work) I miss having my alone time, having all the time to myself. I miss making myself busy just for the heck of it. I miss forcing myself to do something, to make myself productive. I miss having control over my time, my life.

What I miss most is aiming aimlessly. I miss doing what I want to do my time. Now I’m tied up from morning till afternoon, my lunch break is an hour no more, no less. I have a 15 minute break that I have to break down to last me the whole day. It stresses me out!

From the time this eight-thirty-to-five-thirty job started I don’t have the time to go to the mall. Yah! I’m writing all these because I miss going to the mall. The simplest most relaxing thing, I cannot do anymore. To think now that I’m earning a little, and I could spend some of it to what I want, there is no time for it!

My 2 cents worth

I cried even before Elliot did when Ryan announced he was the one to go. I liked Elliot from the beginning; I thought his voice was something. During the first few rounds he was doing well. I think the pressure got in him thus the many times I’ve seen him just sing. He was very conscious to hit the notes resulting to emotionless performances.

I feel he’s a good man. I hope good things will come for him.

Katherine Mc Phee. Where do I begin? First of all she has a really good voice, she deserves where she is, plus she is pretty. But what saying things like “you’ve been really hard on me these past few weeks” to the judges appalled me. It was a test of character which Katherine did not definitely pass. Why couldn’t she accept criticism? She doesn’t deserve to be the next American Idol.

life in mono

My life is monotonous. And I hate the fact that I’m not doing anything about it, that I’m letting myself be in this situation. This is so frustrating.

I’m very grateful to have found a job after a month of job hunting, I’m very thankful to be in an established, well-known company, but I’m not just happy.

I am not happy because my work does not require anything from what I studied for four years. My work does not need me to be creative. I don’t get to do what I’ve always wanted to do. The only stress I get everyday is choosing what to wear for the day.

I’m back to where I was 6 years ago. I’m back in failing to do what I want to do. This saddens me, this stresses me out.

I’ve only been working for three months now, and during the second month I’ve already felt this, only was very reluctant to admit it even to myself. I didn’t want to seem ungrateful and mayabang.

Every day I wake up and I wish I could not go to work.

I know this has a purpose, which is why I am willing to stay until my probationary status.

And I must point out that I have learned a lot. I have learned a lot about myself and believe it or not I have overcome my shyness.

I don’t want to settle for second best.

American Idol 5

I’m very happy Elliot was not eliminated tonight, but I feel he will be in the bottom three next week if he continues to be monotonous like my work. He has a great singing voice, but unlike Taylor he doesn’t sing from his heart. He is much more concerned to hit the notes than to be able to express the song. Katherine Mc Phee is definitely going to be in the top 3.

Shoe story

I spotted really chic and functional shoes at people are people which could be worn for work and on days when you want to dress up. I should have gotten a snapshot of those delish shoes!

Caught the Rye

Finally. Finished the book, after a year of putting off reading it. It’s not on my favorite books list. For one, it didn’t really get my interest in the first few chapters hence the time it took me to finish the book. Although there were some quotable lines, still it didn’t give so much impact on me.