"Everything"
Alanis Morissette

I can be an asshole of the grandest kind
I can withhold like it’s going out of style
I can be the moodiest baby that you've ever seen
And you've never met anyone
Who is as positive as I am sometimes

I am the wisest woman you've ever met.
I am the kindest soul with whom you've connected.
I have the bravest heart that you've ever seen
And you've never met anyone
Who's as positive as I am sometimes.

You see everything, you see every part
You see all my light and you love my dark
You dig everything of which I'm ashamed
There's not anything to which you can’t relate
And you’re still here

I blame everyone else, not my own partaking
My passive-aggressiveness can be devastating
I'm terrified and mistrusting
And you’ve never met anyone as,
As closed down as I am sometimes.

What I resist, persists, and speaks louder than I know
What I resist, you love, no matter how low or high I go

I'm the funniest woman that you've ever known
I am the dullest woman that you've ever known
I'm the most gorgeous woman that you've ever known
and you've never met anyone
Who is as everything as I am sometimes

You see everything, you see every part
You see all my light and you love my dark
You dig everything of which I'm ashamed
There's not anything to which you can’t relate
And you’re still here

And you’re still here
And you're still here...

I heard this song on the radio on our way home from Napa. Its the craziest and cheesiest song I've ever heard for a long time now...

I wanted to highlight each verse, but there are some i think i am not.i hope.

This song made me realize how crazy i can get sometimes and how much crazier Jog is for putting up with everything...

And this song only proves that when we do get in love, the real kind, we don't really know when and how we love our partners flaws.

Watup?

Well, I caught myself watching Laguna Beach’s first season. (feeling teenadyer) It took me 5 episodes to admit to myself that I like it, and I’m looking forward to its second season premiering this Monday at 10.

As you can see, I’ve been watching TV a LOT! I join my cousin Nate (3 years old) watching Sesame Street in the morning, followed by the Berenstein Bears (dunno the spelling) and convincing him that Arthur is also as good as Elmo.

I needed to check out Oprah’s website to see when is Oprah shown, and what on channel. At night, I watch Friends, SATC, Everybody Loves Raymond, CSI, VH1 presentations, Fear F1actor, and just last night I watched the first few episodes of Being Bobby Brown! (I know! Haha)

I frequently watch the Food Network, from Everyday Italian, 30 minute Meals, my favorite Good Eats, and Barefoot Contessa. I wonder where Nigella Bites is shown.

The weather has been crazy. In the morning it would be sometimes brezzy (that would be a good weather), but it is usually hot. I was surprised that it could get that hot here. I mean, I thought Manila’s summer was the worst, well it is not! Today was the hottest that I've experienced so far. It was already 7pm, the sun was still up and it was scorching hot! The sun does not go down till, 9pm. And by this time, the temperature just drops down like crazy.

I’ve been telling Jog, how advertisements are done here. I was shocked. In Manila, if one product compares their product to other brands, they would usually not mention the brand name. But here, just yesterday, I saw a Diet Pepsi Commercial, claiming that it’s better than Coke zero. Very straight forward. I've also seen Subway vs. Burger King, Minute Maid vs. Tropicana, and so much more, I could not remember.

And Mc Donald’s serving salads? Uhm..maybe because sales has been affected by supersize me! Just maybe…

WHAT'S EATING ME

Last sunday, Ate Cat, jog's sister took me out for dinner and some gambling..haha we went to Cache Creek, and played on some slot machines. We came home the next day na. I enjoyed naman, and I've seen a lot of Filipinos.hmmm,we really like gambling.

I was depressed with all the news that Ive been able to watch this past week, it's a shame. i don't like to say that,but it really is a shame,with all that has been happening with our country-politics.

YM,has been a lot of help to lessen my homesick-ness. and i guess, it would be my friend for the next few months..

The weather is good here,mainit in the morning,then really brezzy at night.

so i might just have to end this nonesense before it bores me out...

happy thoughts

Before i left,Jog was teling me to think of happy things whenever i miss home...

haaaay!


miss this cutie pie! and her big mouth! haha she loves dresses and bata pa lang maldita na!



miss my girls!!!!


miss my roommate..


my jowa


my college friends



and my beau

in otha words

I have always been attracted to deep set eyes, "payat" legs, nice toes, moles in the face, and "kalbos".

I have always wanted a bf who likes to go out on friday nights, someone who could make me laugh, someone who is patient, someone i could be silly with,someone who would appreciate my cooking, someone who wouldn't mind taking the backseat for me.

I have always hoped to be in a relationship wherein there's trust, honesty, respect, appreciation and love.

i never thought i could have that kind of man and that kind of relationship with one person. It does exists. and now, i have all that i ever wannted.

I better stop now, or else i might sound like im selling my bf...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOG!!!! Hope you'll be able to read this on time....
You know how much i wanted to be there...hope you'll have a blast!

take care! and i miss you...so much!

see you soon!

P.S. I forgot that i also want someone who will rub my back, when i've drunk too much tequila!!!hehehe

NOYPI

I think its a shame when a Filipino doesn't even know how to speak our language.

My mom has this friend, who migrated here in the US when her son was, i think, 8 or 9. They went home last year, and the boy, now in college doesn't know and understand any single tagalog word!!!

And recently, I met this family, and they have a 18 year old son who comes to Manila for vacation every now and then, and he also doesnt speak our language. I know he was born and raised here, but come on, you're still a Filipino!

I don't understand why these people don't speak to their sons in their native language. Kahit konti.

I have nothing agaisnt English, I write with that language, but i don't think we should forget about what we were born with.

I think it will not make you a less of a person when you know Tagalog even if you grew up someplace else. Rather, its an advantage. You instantly know two languages.

I also think its a disgrace when people in Manila, talk in English and feel superior. I also don't like people who come here in States, for a vacation, and suddenly when they come back, they immediately take on the accent. OH PLEASE!

I remember having this conversation with my friend Jen, we were talking about this singer who has been living in Manila for years and has been making a living there and he still doesn't know how to speak tagalog! As Jen says " Natatangahan nga ako sa kanya eh, ang tagal na niya dito hanggang ngayon hindi pa rin siya marunong magtagalog."

missing home

i arrived here july 2 at 730 pm, and the sun was still up. my flight was full...full of pinoys. the wheather was good, and i got out of the airport by 930.

my body clock's changing and i'm still not used to the time here and that the sunset here is at 9pm.
i'm missing hoem so much, and i forgot to activate the roaming services of my phone.

anyways, as you could read its as lousy as it could get. will write soon when i get enough sleep!

take care evryone! :)

changes

i cannot believe that i'm leaving tommorow. i haven't packed and i cannot say i'm ready. it's been an emotional circus for me this week, and i feel there are still more dramas ahead.

i was surprised that SKYCABLE changed their channel listings. ang layo na ng STAR WORLD and HBO. ETC din. Channel 48 na Star World. well, im just glad i won't be adjusting to that till i get back.

i also noticed changes in Friendster ha. when you look at other people's profiles. I'm sorrounded by changes. i hope its all good.

this might be the last entry i'll be writing before i leave. so, goodluck to me. and take crae everyone!

JENICHOY: if you get to read this before my text, keep me posted! i'll miss you!
JOG: i'll see you soon!
BITCH: thanks for texting, i will still read your blog! tc!

and to everyone who wishes me well, and wishes for my safe arrival at SFO... THANKS!!!!