when it all falls down

its been a while since i last wrote..a lotta things happened, up until last night when i felt, ugh...this is too much..

i'd rather not go into details but it reminds me of the time in highschool, when my "friends" all got mad at me, and they turned my bestfriend into their side and got mad at me for reasons that i lied to her daw and i didnt tell it to her face whenever i get tampo, or when she gets tampo always and i couldnt understand why she gets like that.

its frustrating and i get hurt when people i consider friends do things like this. na parang, our friendship is defined with the time we spent together and when i call them, yun lang ba? i mean even if we don't talk, my bestfriend gian lives far north, its just recently they got a phone line again and a cellphone, and now that we could actually talk, she has work na. but i dont get mad that we dont have time together, or she does not have the time, the beauty of our friendship is when we get together, it feels like its not been years since we last talked. we could pick it up where we left it..

another thing, its hurtful when you think your friend should know you better, and yet, when shit happens and you are in the that shitty sitation the blame is on you, before you conclude or blame it to someone else, a friend would think "she cannot possibly do a thing like this"

i think what hurts the most is when FRIENDS do this to you. i don't have to say ive been a good friend, i know im not perfect but i know i wouldnt do something like this to a friend.

and when such a thing like this happens to the people you love, it's bad that they seem to blame it on you.

basta, today, i learned the real meaning of family and friends.

and if ive been thankful and proud of my boyfriend, much more now.

this shall all past, and i hope things would get better for everyone.