when you've got nothing...

There's nothing blog-worthy about my life, that's why I've been writing less lately.
Aside from being busy preparing for my sister's debut, there's nothing else I'm busy about.

Last Wednesday though, I got together with two of my closest college friends, Jeline and Tonet. We went job hunting. And so far, I haven't heard from any of the companies that we gave resumes to.

There. There goes my life.

I've got other things on my mind, but in another post i guess.

Congratulations Manny Pacquiao!!!!!!!!


By the way, I ended my agony.

aren't they the cutest?

"shoes always fits"

While busy finding the perfect paper for my sister’s invitations, I chanced upon one lovely thing at People are People. They’re the cutest pair. And they fit just right. But as always, the price tag is unfriendly.

Since last night, I’ve been contemplating on giving in… giving in to the price of that pair of shoes. Today I even showed it to Jog, who was very surprised that I’m willing to give in to that price, when just last year I didn’t with the Janilyn Snakeskin Pumps.

And as of this writing, I couldn’t help but imagine how good they look on my feet. And how much we will go through together.

I know! I like the shoes, so I should go buy it. But If you know me a lot, you’ll know how much time I give on deciding when buying shoes. I always, always have to think about it countless times before buying. Because I don’t want to regret buying a pair which eventually I wouldn’t want to wear anymore. And price is always a consideration, because I want my money’s worth. I don’t want to spend on something I’m not very sure of the quality.

But I better decide on fast, or else they might not have my size anymore.

Full circle

Speaking of shoes, I together with Jog passed by CMG and saw they we’re having SALE. So we went in.

JOG: BCBG ba yung shoes na picturan mo sa states?
KAYE: Alin yung blue?
JOG: Yun bay un? Basta yung may nakasulat na letters
KAYE: ah, oo. BCBG yung ibang shoes ditto.
JOG: ah.

Then I turned around and saw the pink and blue BCBG mules.

KAYE: uy! Eto yun! As in!
JOG: Oo nga ano, tignan mo price. Sale.
KAYE: oo nga, 1,200 lang. compared mo dun,almost 30$.
JOG: bilhin mo na.
KAYE: wala size sa blue, etong pink. (I try it on) Ay malaki, size 7 and half pala to eh.
JOG: ask natin
KAYE: wala yan, smallest size display sila.

I was about to buy that pair, only they don’t have it my size. But I jokingly told Jog, it was a full circle shoe moment. hehehehe
On other things

Been busy with my sister’s debut, it’s all that I do now. I just hope things will turn out the way we planned it. Even better.

Finished reading In her Shoes. Loved the book! Jennifer Weiner gave definition to what a chick lit really is. I’m on A Million Little Pieces, and so far, it’s all good. The book was written just what I always imagined how (if I get the chance) I’d write a book.

Piolo and Juday

Don’t Give up on Us is the 3rd (I think) movie of Juday and Piolo that I’ve watched. It was not a disappointment, although Till there was You is still my favorite movie among the movies they’ve made. If you’re a sucker for Pinoy romantic movies, this is worth watching.

SALE

It’s every shopper’s favorite time of the year! SALE! Hope everyone will have a blast! May all of us find great bargains, find shoes with our size, and enjoy this season while it lasts.

I just hope everyone won’t experience having to fight while digging into SALE bins with other shoppers. Always remember the golden rule. And believe in shopping Karma.

cheers pare!

Goodbye 2005!

Got this from Ala Paredes' blog.

Great way to sum up my 05.

1. What did you do in 2005 that you'd never done before?

*live away from home

*handle my own money

*galera

*have henna tat

2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?

I don't make resolutions. And no plans of making this year an exception.

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?

My girlfriend Vanessa and my Aunt Mona

4. Did anyone close to you die?

No one

5. What countries did you visit?

U.S.

6. What would you like to have in 2006 that you lacked in 2005?

Perseverance and less prejudices

7. What date from 2005 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?

day after thanksgiving, November 25, 2005. Purchased my most expensive possesion.

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?

Being able to live away from my family for 5 months.Being able to help my Aunt's family.

9. What was your biggest failure?

I think I've learned a lot this year that I shouldn't consider it as a failure but rather a lesson.

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?

No. Thank God!

11. What was the best thing you bought?

I think purchased a lot this year! To name a few...My digicam, My kitchen timer,7$ Calvin Klein shirt, .97 cents hot pink bikini top from old navy,5$ Roxy shirts, my 8$ hoop silver earrings that i purchased at the streets of Berkeley,my second hand books,and my 12$ leather K.Cole wallet.

12. Whose behavior merited celebration?

My siblings, who've stepped up with household chores and took more responsibility this year because of my 5 month absence.And the boyfriend, who've patiently waited and showed me more love even if we were miles apart.

13. Whose behaviour appalled you and made you depressed?

A few people I respected and loved the most.

14. Where did most of your money go?

Clothes,accessories,books and my camera.

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?

buying my camera, finding second hand books, and baking.

16. What song will always remind you of 2005?

Love moves and Breakaway.

17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
i. happier or sadder? Same. HAPPY

ii. thinner or fatter? Fatter! lose some weight after a week, but gained it all again during the holidays

iii. richer or poorer? richer!

18. What do you wish you'd done more of?

not stressing myself too much about things that don't really matter/ shouldn't really matter

19. What do you wish you'd done less of?

being a b*tch

20. How will you be welcoming the NEw YEar?

At home with the family.

22. Did you fall in love in 2005?

Actually, it was STILL IN LOVE with the BF.

23. How many one-night stands?

NONE!

24. What was your favourite TV program?

Panday! hahaha! I was missing Pinas so much, all i watched was TFC!and Barefoot Contessa, Semi-Homemade and Martha. and Ellen! hahaha!

25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?

I HATE the word HATE and the feeling it brings.I don't like HAting anyone. So, no I DONT HATE ANYONE!

26. What was the best book you read?

Memoirs of a Geisha.
Runners up: The Wedding & 11 minutes

27. What was your greatest musical discovery?

nothing extraordinary, but I found myself liking Greenday, Ciara, 50 cent, Kelly Clarkson and Snoop Dogg More.

28. What did you want and get?

my digicam and a laptop.

29. What did you want and not get?

wala naman. good thing no expectations kasi.

30. Favorite film of this year?

Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire

31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?

Just had food delivered at home, Spent it with my family and bf.

32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?

no more worries.

33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2005?

all Pink but still forever with my tsinelas! And trying to dress like a 16 year-old

34. What kept you sane?

Family, friends and Jog.

35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?

Jericho Rosales, James Blake, Jimmie Johnson, Ashton Kutcher.

36. WHo is your real-person crush?

HAHAHA! he's a semi celebrity naman eh. he's my blog-crush.

37. What political issue stirred you the most?

Gloria Gate

38. Who did you miss?

my family and jog.

39. Who was the best new person you met?

Sylvia and Marianne

40. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2005.

1.Life has funny way of teaching you your lessons.

2.Let Go.

3.Shopping really brings out the best and goodness in me.

4.Never be complacent of your relationships. Work on it.

41. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year

I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly

I'll do what it takes til' I touch the sky

I'll make a wish

Take a chance

Make a change

And breakaway

Out of the darkness and into the sun

But I won't forget all the ones that I loved

I'll take a risk

Take a chance

Make a change

And breakaway

It's been a great year. Life has been good to me. And I couldnt help but be scared and at the same time be excited for the year to come. I am looking forward to the challenges, possibilities and lessons that awaits me this coming year.

am happy that I left all the baggages. That I'm facing the new year with hope and an open mind.

Good Health, Peace, More LOVE, Prosperity and Happiness to all of us this 2006!

Have a safe New year!

good company

It's such a good feeling when you get to be with old friends. The friends who took you in when everybody else, whom you thought were friends turned their back at you.

I'm blessed to have found them in a time when everything was changing. When every one else were moving some place else, when everybody seemed like strangers.

These are the ones who are happiest when you are happy, who calls to check up on you, or when you least expect it at a time when you badly need to talk to someone. These are the kind of friends who would fight the urge to say I told you so, because they don't want to rub it on your face anymore.These are the people who would try to get along with your partner because they know it's important to you. These people would be there on occasions that are special, because you are special to them.

For the past 6 years I've been friends with these girls, we've never lost that connection. We are all changing, everyone is working except for Nina and me, Vanessa's got a baby and is married, Jen have gone from long hair to short hair, then back to long again, except for Joy, who is still single. hehe

We we're all gigling during Ninna's Christening, coz we never imagined being like this when we we're in highschool. As Joy puts it, Parang laro lang to.

We are getting older....seems like it.

and now we all are officially Mares

what i've missed

It's been two weeks since I've arrived. I'm definitely enjoying all that I've missed. We ate at Wai Ying and Seaside. So the plans of losing weight is very much not on my list now.

I'm trying to enjoy just being home again, not forgetting about finding a job. I'm also "busy" planning Porli's debut.yey! so, there, but I miss my wi-fi connection.

So the things/people/food/places that I've missed, I went/saw/ate them in the past week.

I went to Makati again after what seems like forever.*check*

Jog, my sister and I saw Harry Potter 4 *check* last friday, It was not a disappointment for me. Finally, a justice for a good book. Coz finally I've realized why Harry Potter movies are sometimes what we've not read in the book, or how sometimes we feel like something's missing. It's because, I think, the people who made HP the movie, still wants the non-readers to understand the movie even if they have not read the book. So, let's give them a break. But I think the casting directors are the ones who have a problem. Because Cho Chang's not as pretty as the book described her, so is Fleur. But Hermione was breath taking.

Last friday also saw some of our good friends, Mira, Bot and Don. We we're like 5 hours late bec of Harry Potter. Sorry Adine!














moi, mira, bot and don's cellphone


our (mira,adine and I) boys

It was my first night out, after so many months. Was not used to vodka sprite anymore.hehe

This week will be busy with taking out balikbayan friends, attend Ninna's Christening, and planning of Porli's debut.

home and incoherent

So finally after almost 12 hours, I'm finally home. It was a short flight compared when we fly by Northwest. The crew were all nice. it was a good trip, except for the delay in Hawaii. But everything else was good.

I didn't start unpacking until today,because some of my things we're on Tita's luggage.

Jog dropped by in the afternoon. He brought me lunch, Chicken Joy! hahaha! I was getting a little sleepy by 2 p.m. But I had to fight the urge, or else I would be up all night. So I finally had my first taste of Pinoy Big Brother, my mom, jog and my sister were all updating and explaining the rules. It's good.

I forgot to bring home the power supply of the laptop! hay! I keep on forgetting something when I travel! Much more to learn!

I wake up early now. Since yesterday, early than I used to. I'm like, let me sleep!!!

A lot of things have been different in our house. I need a little getting used to pa..But I missed my family a lot.Specially our family dinners and when we dine out. So I'm just so happy to be home. To sleep in my own bed, and have late night chikahan with my sister.

Speaking of my sister, I'm dumbfounded by her iPod. First, I bought her the wrong case, it was for the mini iPod pala. She left it the day I got home,for me to try it. And I was like, how do you look or the other songs? My mom and dad doesn't know either, so I had to ask my little brother minute after minute! so I gave up, and just waited for Porli to come home. I could not believe that small could store up so much songs, the playlist makes up my whole history!

Everyone's asking me about my plan. I don't have any. Just wanna get a job, and be able to pay my smart subscription. I'm just glad to be home. Plans will be made next year na lang.hehe I don't wanna pressure myself muna until I get my body clock back to normal.

Next week, I'll be seeing my college friends, attend Nynna's Christening and see my highschool friends. Hopefully.

I saw na pala my feature in Candy, i got kilig.

So there, I'm finally home.

all my bags are packed

all my bags are packed...hehehe who am i kidding? I'm so stressed! I'm not finished packing, all my books are here, the other clothes i bought for my family. Hay! Stress!!!!!

see here...

breakaway

I'll spread my wings
and I'll learn how to fly
I'll do what it takes
til' I touch the sky
I'll make a wish
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway

Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won't forget all the ones that I loved
I'll take a risk
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway

When I first came here, that was the song that I kept hearing from the radio. I kept hearing that song, and although I liked it the first time, I never really paid attention to what it meant.

It's only now that it hit me...

I am beginning a new chapter of my life...Something I am not sure of...But I know I'll be just fine...

please pray for our safety..we'll be flying tonight...

shopping

It was raining and crazy.


on our way to Pacific Commons


I need to check if the cap goes with my outfit (hehe) It was raining kasi.

I haven't started to pack.. although I think I'm done with the shopping except for my Dad's shoes, and some Bertie Botts.

I'm kinda sad to be leaving, I almost cried when after Ate Cat and Kuya Jeng dropped me off.

I got a copy of A Million Little Pieces, and the Sisterhood of the Travelling Pants for of course a bargain!

I'm stressed about packing!!!

thanksgiving

the truth is

I've been putting off updating this because my mind has been restless. I think about our soon departure, and all the things I need to do, the pasalubongs, and just going away from the place I've considered home for the past five months.

I can't wait to go home, but I can't help but be sad about leaving too.
And I guess going back to Manila means going back to the real world. Where I need to get a job and start taking up more responsibilities.

I'll miss all the TV shows I get to watch here. I'll miss watching Oprah at 4 p.m., getting tips from Martha, the Food network! ayayay

Thanksgiving

A couple of years back, we we're here for thanksgiving too, but our family never really experienced the Traditional one. So this is my first time. I'm pretty excited to see how the turkey will be prepared, and just cooking everything we don't usually have in Manila.

And of course, the after thanksgiving sale!

Most of the stores are open at 5 a.m. Target even has a registry for a wake up call! And I'm excited to get the best deals.

Happy thanksgiving y'all!

and i better start packing!

shopping is the best cure

That's why pencils have erasers

Just when you thought you need more time to heal..
Just when you just said in my own time...
It just happens...
while you're doing what you love to do...shopping!

I always knew shopping makes me happy,it gives me a sense of control.
But I never thought it could bring out the best in me.
It gave me back my innate affection and care for the people who matter...both past and present.

a new template

I've been wanting a new template for the longest time. And finally, decided on one and made little changes. It's nice to end this year with a clean slate. Free at last.

APO Hiking Society

On our way to Oakland last night, APO's cd was playing. I never really paid attention to it before but in that one hour drive, I realized APO was part of my lovelife soundtrack. Their songs are classics. It makes you so proud to be pinoy.

Laguna Beach

It was the last season for the guys of Laguna, I loved that show. In my first week here, it was all that I watched. The re-runs of it's first season. And every monday night, I would watch it and still catch the replay the next day, and then on Sundays too.

I like Talan. With the girls I liked the two Alex, and before I liked LC bec i felt bad for her, then there are times I like Kristen, but I never liked Jessica.

Josh Duhamel



Need i say more? I was watching Martha and he was the guest. But he's taken. His gf is the girl from black eyed peas. (i'm not sure abt her name)

i'm gushing over jericho rosales like a fourteen year old

TV MONSTER

So before the highlights of my day would be watching Martha Stewart, Oprah, sometimes Extra and Entertainment Tonight, Sex and the City, CSI, Laguna Beach and Gilmore Girls. But since monday, I have given up Martha Stewart for Tristan.

I know it's just starting tomorrow, but I am very excited. You can call me baduy and all, but I'm really gonna be a devotee to Panday. And you should hear my cousin Nate say Panday with an accent!

And I'm having LSS on the theme song! hahaha! I'm gonna look for the lyrics..

Next week will be season finale of Laguna Beach. I'm happy I will be able to watch the finale, but at the same time I feel bad about it ending so soon. I was kinda hoping it would end before I leave, but next week is too soon. *sigh*

I wish I could still watch this much TV when I get back.

Doctor Love

Lately, I have been the confidante of my friends with matters of the heart. I am not complaining, but I think I should start charging for session fees. hehehe

I don't mind listening to their stories, to their complains and their worries. What I love about this, is the exchange of thoughts and experiences. I like how it makes you think about your relationship as well. It also makes you thankful of all the experiences you had and the choices that you have made.

Musika

Today nga pala, I was able to catch Pharell perform on TRL. Kanye was also there, and so was Usher! Glad I woke up early.

b-o-r-e-d

I already organized my file folders.
I listed things to do before we leave
I listed things to do when I get back home
I listed things I want to buy, things i want to buy when i have work, gadgets i want to have, and everything that i could thing of writing down.

so i googled..here's what i've found..

Google Image Result for KAYE



for jog..

and this one is very obvious

fashion



this one is for boredom

AFICIONADA

Everybody who knows me, knows that I LOVE magazines! My earliest collection were Teen Beat and BOP! hahaha I don't see those anymore! You would see my room plastered with Brad Renfro's Posters, Jonathan Jackson posters in my cabinet, and all the teeny boppers you could imagine! (no offense)

I could say I got a little mature when I got hold of my first YM magazine and Seventeen. For a time, I preferred YM over Seventeen. From 1997-1999 I was buying every issue. Every month I was spending almost 200 hundred pesos for just that. When we went to the US, I bought every single teen mag I could. I remembered I bought one YM, one Teen Magazine and Two Teen People. You could imagine all the money (my parents) I disbursed in buying those "imported" mags. I only stopped when Candy came out, then finally Seventeen Philippines.

My mom even got me a subscription to Seventeen and Candy since I was buying every month, and it was more practical and a little less cheaper to have subscribed.

I eventually had to give up Candy coz I couldn't anymore relate to some of their articles. But then, I liked one issue, then got hooked and bought it every month again.

And I have this obsession of making sure it doesn't get any creases. That's why if you see my stock of magazines, you will still see it in very good condition. Everyone who borrows my magazines knows that rule, to be careful in flipping the pages.

My dad's been bugging me to get rid of all the other magazines. But I can't part ways with them. Not my magazines.

So anyone with all this obsession would be the happiest if one of her favorite magazines features her as their Blogger of the Month!

















So please share my joy and get a copy!

I almost forgot, thanks to Huael who left a message in the tag board.

The only thing that is not nice about this experience is I couldn't get a copy myself. I couldn't experience the thrill of going to the store and look for the magazine, open it, and find the page where this blog is featured. But I'm coming home before this month ends, so I hope I could still do that.

Anyways, it's not like an article I made was published.

But hey, I think it could be considered something like that. And this is my moment! hahaha

So get yourself a copy, and could you tell me which entry did they include.

Thanks Chinggay!

YOU LIVE, YOU LEARN, YOU CHOOSE

I have a few weeks left. I am going back home. And it's been a great experience.

I have realized my potentials, my limits, and my goals. Although not so clear with my goals yet, but I'm there.

There we're emotional baggages that I finally unpacked. It was a journey not everybody was given the chance to take. I'm going home with a few important lessons learned.

I learned that there is no place like home. That in as much as I always say I'm independent, well, I had no idea!

I learned that the friends you have in the ups and downs, no matter how busy and distant you are, will make their presence felt in every little way they can. And how much important to have these people to have specially when you are miles apart.

I learned that everything is a choice. Nobody expects you to always make the right ones, but I think you owe it to yourself to make your choice the right one for you.

I learned to appreciate. Not only what I have, but what those have given me. What those have made me.

I learned that not only does distance makes the heart grow fonder, but it also makes it stronger, more patient and more kind.

I learned how sometimes a simple remark can be so meaningful it changes everything you thought you've already decided on.

I learned that that although there is still so much for me to learn, to experience, I believe I've grown up. I may still like reading Seventeen and will miss watching Laguna Beach, but I have come of age. But I hope MTV Pinas will have Laguna Beach.

I learned that what I really like and love doing is there all along, I just didn't recognize it then.

I learned to look at the other side. There are two-sides in every story.

I learned why the tenth commmandment is You shall not covet your neighbor's house, nor his wife, his man-servant, his maid-servant, nor his ox, nor his ass, nor anything that is your neighbor's.

I learned that there is a reason for everything, and life has its own way of putting back things in its proper places.

And with that, I think this year is the end of the beginning.

OF CHEATING AND FULFILLMENT

I am fooling myself. I am cheating on my diet. I had eaten ice cream tonight. It was so good, I am not even guilty of having one. One of the best ice cream I've had in my 20+ years.
I'm sorry Kaye, but I had to have those. So no more claiming, Im on a diet. But I'll still continue to not eat carbs.

I've been busy doing my cousin's invites and souvenirs for her Christening. Tita has been worried I've done so much work and it might be tiring me, I said worry not, because I'm enjoying it.

I think this is a dream for semi-OC's like me. I made labels, I had to cut ribbons, the translucent paper, the works, had to make sure everything was not wrinkled, the works. And it has been like cooking for me..that fulfilling. I may sound crazy but, I did have fun.

I also painted for the souvenirs, we're giving boxes for the Godparents, and a pink paper-mache t-shirt for the other guests. I'll post pictures after its all done.

Was telling Jog, I think I've put so much in this project, I might not have anymore for the future use. hehehe

So that's how this week is going, I'm enjoying it, but the downside of this is, I haven't been able to read. *sigh*

PUMPKIN PATCH

I was excited to go to my first pumpkin patch. But we we're kinda disappointed to

see that it was not up to our expectations. But to make the most out of it, I took a lot of pictures..

It was my first time to see a donkey, a sheep, and a yak!

I'm 20+ old and it was my first time to see these creatures! my fav was the yak!

I can't believe i wrote about that drama last week! ick! But that's part of me..

I'm a little busy with Zoe's Christening, as I designated myself to prepare the souvenirs and invitations.

I'm done with the invites, but still not even started with the souvenirs.

But I'm sure it will be done before this week ends.

I had this interesting conversation with my tita last saturday, and it deserves another post.

unwell

I don't know why.

Excuse me, but I think I owe it to myself to be HONEST.
To recognize how I really feel and not how I suppose to feel.
I wanna be free from this consuming feeling.
I wanna be who I am.

It's hard to let go.
It's hard to mean it when you say, "It's ok".

I'm trying, really I am.
I guess I'm just not that mabait.

PEACE BE WITH ME

so?

I was about to write something,stopped myself from doing so.
NO JUDGEMENTS!

Anyway, this week has been devoted to shopping and eating less.

Went shopping last tuesday for pasalubongs and some personal must haves.
I went home with a lotta stuff and maybe 60$ poorer.
shiet.

I'm really excited to go home, but at the same time, couldn't help but think about
the possibility of living here. Well I guess that was the purpose of my being here in
the first place. To consider a lot about my future, to start thinking about it.
And I guess, I will decide on that soon.

I put myself on a diet, again!
I just can't believe how much weight I gained, so I needed to start now. It's my 6th day today,
and so far, I have managed to stick to it, and I've been stricter. I never thought I could be like
that to myself.

I have also been watching too much SATC, i missed it, but this week has been an overload!

My sister's the happiest these days, because she got what she wanted. Actually, more than what she wanted...
a Nano iPod. and i can't wait to borrow it! hahaha

so, that's all for me.

have a good weekend everyone!

can you keep a secret?

finished the book. i hope it becomes a movie! and to everyone who likes reading chick lit, to those who haven't read this, this is a must-read!

it's funny and honest. female readers could easily relate to the book. and how men should watch out!hahaha

In her Shoes: second hand: $4 :very good condition >>haha! im not selling one, but that's what i got today over at Walnut Creek's Bonanza St. Books.

I was originally looking for Oprah's new recommendation, A Million Little Pieces, because i read the excerpts from oprah.com and it was good. i think it's a hard-to-put-down-book. But i couldn't find one, and my feet led me to the used books section, the paperbacks, and i couldn't believe there was the book, on the top shelf for half the original price, and in very good condition.

and i can't wait to start reading the book.so bye!