all my bags are packed

all my bags are packed...hehehe who am i kidding? I'm so stressed! I'm not finished packing, all my books are here, the other clothes i bought for my family. Hay! Stress!!!!!

see here...

breakaway

I'll spread my wings
and I'll learn how to fly
I'll do what it takes
til' I touch the sky
I'll make a wish
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway

Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won't forget all the ones that I loved
I'll take a risk
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway

When I first came here, that was the song that I kept hearing from the radio. I kept hearing that song, and although I liked it the first time, I never really paid attention to what it meant.

It's only now that it hit me...

I am beginning a new chapter of my life...Something I am not sure of...But I know I'll be just fine...

please pray for our safety..we'll be flying tonight...

shopping

It was raining and crazy.


on our way to Pacific Commons


I need to check if the cap goes with my outfit (hehe) It was raining kasi.

I haven't started to pack.. although I think I'm done with the shopping except for my Dad's shoes, and some Bertie Botts.

I'm kinda sad to be leaving, I almost cried when after Ate Cat and Kuya Jeng dropped me off.

I got a copy of A Million Little Pieces, and the Sisterhood of the Travelling Pants for of course a bargain!

I'm stressed about packing!!!

thanksgiving

the truth is

I've been putting off updating this because my mind has been restless. I think about our soon departure, and all the things I need to do, the pasalubongs, and just going away from the place I've considered home for the past five months.

I can't wait to go home, but I can't help but be sad about leaving too.
And I guess going back to Manila means going back to the real world. Where I need to get a job and start taking up more responsibilities.

I'll miss all the TV shows I get to watch here. I'll miss watching Oprah at 4 p.m., getting tips from Martha, the Food network! ayayay

Thanksgiving

A couple of years back, we we're here for thanksgiving too, but our family never really experienced the Traditional one. So this is my first time. I'm pretty excited to see how the turkey will be prepared, and just cooking everything we don't usually have in Manila.

And of course, the after thanksgiving sale!

Most of the stores are open at 5 a.m. Target even has a registry for a wake up call! And I'm excited to get the best deals.

Happy thanksgiving y'all!

and i better start packing!

shopping is the best cure

That's why pencils have erasers

Just when you thought you need more time to heal..
Just when you just said in my own time...
It just happens...
while you're doing what you love to do...shopping!

I always knew shopping makes me happy,it gives me a sense of control.
But I never thought it could bring out the best in me.
It gave me back my innate affection and care for the people who matter...both past and present.

a new template

I've been wanting a new template for the longest time. And finally, decided on one and made little changes. It's nice to end this year with a clean slate. Free at last.

APO Hiking Society

On our way to Oakland last night, APO's cd was playing. I never really paid attention to it before but in that one hour drive, I realized APO was part of my lovelife soundtrack. Their songs are classics. It makes you so proud to be pinoy.

Laguna Beach

It was the last season for the guys of Laguna, I loved that show. In my first week here, it was all that I watched. The re-runs of it's first season. And every monday night, I would watch it and still catch the replay the next day, and then on Sundays too.

I like Talan. With the girls I liked the two Alex, and before I liked LC bec i felt bad for her, then there are times I like Kristen, but I never liked Jessica.

Josh Duhamel



Need i say more? I was watching Martha and he was the guest. But he's taken. His gf is the girl from black eyed peas. (i'm not sure abt her name)

i'm gushing over jericho rosales like a fourteen year old

TV MONSTER

So before the highlights of my day would be watching Martha Stewart, Oprah, sometimes Extra and Entertainment Tonight, Sex and the City, CSI, Laguna Beach and Gilmore Girls. But since monday, I have given up Martha Stewart for Tristan.

I know it's just starting tomorrow, but I am very excited. You can call me baduy and all, but I'm really gonna be a devotee to Panday. And you should hear my cousin Nate say Panday with an accent!

And I'm having LSS on the theme song! hahaha! I'm gonna look for the lyrics..

Next week will be season finale of Laguna Beach. I'm happy I will be able to watch the finale, but at the same time I feel bad about it ending so soon. I was kinda hoping it would end before I leave, but next week is too soon. *sigh*

I wish I could still watch this much TV when I get back.

Doctor Love

Lately, I have been the confidante of my friends with matters of the heart. I am not complaining, but I think I should start charging for session fees. hehehe

I don't mind listening to their stories, to their complains and their worries. What I love about this, is the exchange of thoughts and experiences. I like how it makes you think about your relationship as well. It also makes you thankful of all the experiences you had and the choices that you have made.

Musika

Today nga pala, I was able to catch Pharell perform on TRL. Kanye was also there, and so was Usher! Glad I woke up early.

b-o-r-e-d

I already organized my file folders.
I listed things to do before we leave
I listed things to do when I get back home
I listed things I want to buy, things i want to buy when i have work, gadgets i want to have, and everything that i could thing of writing down.

so i googled..here's what i've found..

Google Image Result for KAYE



for jog..

and this one is very obvious

fashion



this one is for boredom

AFICIONADA

Everybody who knows me, knows that I LOVE magazines! My earliest collection were Teen Beat and BOP! hahaha I don't see those anymore! You would see my room plastered with Brad Renfro's Posters, Jonathan Jackson posters in my cabinet, and all the teeny boppers you could imagine! (no offense)

I could say I got a little mature when I got hold of my first YM magazine and Seventeen. For a time, I preferred YM over Seventeen. From 1997-1999 I was buying every issue. Every month I was spending almost 200 hundred pesos for just that. When we went to the US, I bought every single teen mag I could. I remembered I bought one YM, one Teen Magazine and Two Teen People. You could imagine all the money (my parents) I disbursed in buying those "imported" mags. I only stopped when Candy came out, then finally Seventeen Philippines.

My mom even got me a subscription to Seventeen and Candy since I was buying every month, and it was more practical and a little less cheaper to have subscribed.

I eventually had to give up Candy coz I couldn't anymore relate to some of their articles. But then, I liked one issue, then got hooked and bought it every month again.

And I have this obsession of making sure it doesn't get any creases. That's why if you see my stock of magazines, you will still see it in very good condition. Everyone who borrows my magazines knows that rule, to be careful in flipping the pages.

My dad's been bugging me to get rid of all the other magazines. But I can't part ways with them. Not my magazines.

So anyone with all this obsession would be the happiest if one of her favorite magazines features her as their Blogger of the Month!

















So please share my joy and get a copy!

I almost forgot, thanks to Huael who left a message in the tag board.

The only thing that is not nice about this experience is I couldn't get a copy myself. I couldn't experience the thrill of going to the store and look for the magazine, open it, and find the page where this blog is featured. But I'm coming home before this month ends, so I hope I could still do that.

Anyways, it's not like an article I made was published.

But hey, I think it could be considered something like that. And this is my moment! hahaha

So get yourself a copy, and could you tell me which entry did they include.

Thanks Chinggay!

YOU LIVE, YOU LEARN, YOU CHOOSE

I have a few weeks left. I am going back home. And it's been a great experience.

I have realized my potentials, my limits, and my goals. Although not so clear with my goals yet, but I'm there.

There we're emotional baggages that I finally unpacked. It was a journey not everybody was given the chance to take. I'm going home with a few important lessons learned.

I learned that there is no place like home. That in as much as I always say I'm independent, well, I had no idea!

I learned that the friends you have in the ups and downs, no matter how busy and distant you are, will make their presence felt in every little way they can. And how much important to have these people to have specially when you are miles apart.

I learned that everything is a choice. Nobody expects you to always make the right ones, but I think you owe it to yourself to make your choice the right one for you.

I learned to appreciate. Not only what I have, but what those have given me. What those have made me.

I learned that not only does distance makes the heart grow fonder, but it also makes it stronger, more patient and more kind.

I learned how sometimes a simple remark can be so meaningful it changes everything you thought you've already decided on.

I learned that that although there is still so much for me to learn, to experience, I believe I've grown up. I may still like reading Seventeen and will miss watching Laguna Beach, but I have come of age. But I hope MTV Pinas will have Laguna Beach.

I learned that what I really like and love doing is there all along, I just didn't recognize it then.

I learned to look at the other side. There are two-sides in every story.

I learned why the tenth commmandment is You shall not covet your neighbor's house, nor his wife, his man-servant, his maid-servant, nor his ox, nor his ass, nor anything that is your neighbor's.

I learned that there is a reason for everything, and life has its own way of putting back things in its proper places.

And with that, I think this year is the end of the beginning.

OF CHEATING AND FULFILLMENT

I am fooling myself. I am cheating on my diet. I had eaten ice cream tonight. It was so good, I am not even guilty of having one. One of the best ice cream I've had in my 20+ years.
I'm sorry Kaye, but I had to have those. So no more claiming, Im on a diet. But I'll still continue to not eat carbs.

I've been busy doing my cousin's invites and souvenirs for her Christening. Tita has been worried I've done so much work and it might be tiring me, I said worry not, because I'm enjoying it.

I think this is a dream for semi-OC's like me. I made labels, I had to cut ribbons, the translucent paper, the works, had to make sure everything was not wrinkled, the works. And it has been like cooking for me..that fulfilling. I may sound crazy but, I did have fun.

I also painted for the souvenirs, we're giving boxes for the Godparents, and a pink paper-mache t-shirt for the other guests. I'll post pictures after its all done.

Was telling Jog, I think I've put so much in this project, I might not have anymore for the future use. hehehe

So that's how this week is going, I'm enjoying it, but the downside of this is, I haven't been able to read. *sigh*

PUMPKIN PATCH

I was excited to go to my first pumpkin patch. But we we're kinda disappointed to

see that it was not up to our expectations. But to make the most out of it, I took a lot of pictures..

It was my first time to see a donkey, a sheep, and a yak!

I'm 20+ old and it was my first time to see these creatures! my fav was the yak!

I can't believe i wrote about that drama last week! ick! But that's part of me..

I'm a little busy with Zoe's Christening, as I designated myself to prepare the souvenirs and invitations.

I'm done with the invites, but still not even started with the souvenirs.

But I'm sure it will be done before this week ends.

I had this interesting conversation with my tita last saturday, and it deserves another post.

unwell

I don't know why.

Excuse me, but I think I owe it to myself to be HONEST.
To recognize how I really feel and not how I suppose to feel.
I wanna be free from this consuming feeling.
I wanna be who I am.

It's hard to let go.
It's hard to mean it when you say, "It's ok".

I'm trying, really I am.
I guess I'm just not that mabait.

PEACE BE WITH ME

so?

I was about to write something,stopped myself from doing so.
NO JUDGEMENTS!

Anyway, this week has been devoted to shopping and eating less.

Went shopping last tuesday for pasalubongs and some personal must haves.
I went home with a lotta stuff and maybe 60$ poorer.
shiet.

I'm really excited to go home, but at the same time, couldn't help but think about
the possibility of living here. Well I guess that was the purpose of my being here in
the first place. To consider a lot about my future, to start thinking about it.
And I guess, I will decide on that soon.

I put myself on a diet, again!
I just can't believe how much weight I gained, so I needed to start now. It's my 6th day today,
and so far, I have managed to stick to it, and I've been stricter. I never thought I could be like
that to myself.

I have also been watching too much SATC, i missed it, but this week has been an overload!

My sister's the happiest these days, because she got what she wanted. Actually, more than what she wanted...
a Nano iPod. and i can't wait to borrow it! hahaha

so, that's all for me.

have a good weekend everyone!

can you keep a secret?

finished the book. i hope it becomes a movie! and to everyone who likes reading chick lit, to those who haven't read this, this is a must-read!

it's funny and honest. female readers could easily relate to the book. and how men should watch out!hahaha

In her Shoes: second hand: $4 :very good condition >>haha! im not selling one, but that's what i got today over at Walnut Creek's Bonanza St. Books.

I was originally looking for Oprah's new recommendation, A Million Little Pieces, because i read the excerpts from oprah.com and it was good. i think it's a hard-to-put-down-book. But i couldn't find one, and my feet led me to the used books section, the paperbacks, and i couldn't believe there was the book, on the top shelf for half the original price, and in very good condition.

and i can't wait to start reading the book.so bye!

chef at heart

i started cooking when i was in highschool. i liked it, but i also needed to do it. since we decided not to get any "help" anymore since we 3 children, all went to school all day, and since we don't have a big house, we could just all pitch in to do the other chores.

so anyway, i did enjoy,making our everyday family dinners. i sucked at it at first of course, but through the course of time and with a lot of watching of cooking shows, i think i've improved.

when we we're in 4th year highschool, being in an all-girls school, we had T.H.E. (Techonology and Home Economics), and for the first part of the year, we we're thought of cooking, making preserves, making itlog na pula and all. but i always looked forward to the second part of the term, where i knew we would be baking.
we didn't have an oven at that time, so i couldnt make all what we learned at home. but it was enough for me to learn, and take note of what should be done or not. what makes a cookie tough, and what makes the pie crust crispy.

it was just recently my mom bought an oven, after all theses years i've been bugging her to get me one. (see, that's because we have a tiny house)

so to test drive (is that the correct term?) the new oven. i was excited to make cookies. i baked my first chocolate chip cookies. and it was a success! i was telling jog today, how stupid i was not to take pictures of all the goodies i baked! like my first chocolate cake, my blueberry cheesecake, my oatmeal cookies, and just recently here, my banana bread, and sugar cookies. so from now on, i should take pictures, since, i'm always trying on new recipes, so everytime, its my first.

so why all these? it's just now that i've realized, that aside from enjoying just watching cooking shows, i really really love to cook and bake. it gives me peace of mind, comfort and sort of control. i know, it may sound so silly, and weird for some, but i guess, when you do something that you really like, and you enjoy doing, it will always give you the feeling of what i have just described.(i don't know how to call it)

initially, i wanted to call this entry "too early to call it "passion" but then, i've just remembered Oprah saying "Your true passion should feel like breathing...its that natural". So i guess, i've found one of my passions.

it's just my thing

i don't know if i should consider myself OC, because if you see our room ( i share it with my sister), it's not squeky clean, and unorganized. but when it ocmes to my magazines, notebooks, books, it should not have any creases or i cannot sleep thinking why i let it happen.

i also keep a list on everything. things i need to buy, things i like to buy, things i should have, books i have, books i've read,shoes i have,life goals, and the list go on.

last night, i had this bad dream about my shoes, shoes i left home. one of my favorite shoes was torn and can never be worn daw. it was a nightmare! so the next day, i emailed my sister to check, and if she could put it in my cabinet, cause i remember i did not put them in their boxes. so i hope my shoes are doin fine.

i make my own bookmark. i usally make them out of my magazine subscription card, and i don't make the usual size. i usually like it rectangular shape.

i go all the trouble to do all these things, i know!
but as simple as it all may sound, whenever i am able to do these, it makes me happy.
babaw!

you disgrace me, you disgrace yourself

how many times a day do we judge other people?
i usually do, and i'm not proud of it.
i don't have any excuse, and i think, nobody has a good excuse for such a thing.
we know its not a good thing to do, but we still do, unconciously or not.

we are all guilty of discriminating each other.
it happens all over the world.
we don't treat each other with respect.
that is why there is so much hate, there is so much anger.

if we just take a little time from our lives, and also care about other people.
maybe there is a little hope to end discrimination.

if we can only think about every action we take, and how it can affect not only our lives,
but of others too. then maybe, we could not worry about what kind of world the next generation will inherit from us.

and it doesn't surprise me, how just a little act of kindness could make such big difference.
because our hearts never forget.

watch Crash. you'll understand, why suddenly i wrote all of these.

when you're happy and bored

three names you go by:
1. k9
2. kenan
3. kathleen

three screen names you have had:
1. stylechild
2. imogen
3. crazybeautiful

three parts of your heritage:
1. filipino
2. chinese
3. yun lang ata

three things that scare you:
1. muscles
2. daga
3. natural calamities

three of your everyday essentials:
1.lipbalm
2. water
3. cellphone

three of your favorite musical artists:
1. eraserheads
2. alanis morisette
3. usher

your favorite songs
1. she will be loved
2. let's stay together
3. kiss from a rose
4. ang huling el bimbo
5. barely breathing

three things you want in a relationship:
1. security
2. respect
3. trust

three lies and one truth in no particular order:
1. i don't find kevin federline cute
2. i love kris aquino
3. i love avocado
4. i'm a good singer

three physical things about the opposite sex that appeals to you:
1. legs
2. neck
3. nunal

WEIRD

i'm such a weirdo.
i'm not sure if i have written this before, but SHE WILL BE LOVED makes me cry.sobra.
i'm usually teary eyed first stanza pa lang.
i know. crazy.
then there was, the south border song..ano nga ba yun?
Wherever you are. hay naku! especially when i watched their video, lalo ako naiyak.
i'm laughing while i'm writing this,kasi naman,kaloka.
before it was butterfly kisses.

what's weird is, i can't explain and find any reason why i cry with these songs.

FOGGY MORNING
















see the difference?