hope to hear from you again
xo,
kaye
a story of a girl who wishes to remain twenty-one
hope to hear from you again
xo,
kaye
It’s heartbreaking. I cannot bring myself to see or even touch my most favorite thing. It’s so much like a break-up, you’d rather sleep and wish it was all a dream. I don’t know what happened but when I checked my folder, it was gone. Not even a trace. All my files of the past year and just about everything GONE! I knew I had to have back up!
So I want this all behind. Don’t ask anymore!
On things that made me a little happy
MC Donald’s Milkshake!!!!!!
It’s back! But only to a few of their outlets, I first knew about it through Seventeen. Aside from Eastwood, they now have it in Glorietta. So to those who missed this yummy treat, whenever you’re near the area, better treat yourself with some!
Cheap thrills
I once was asked how I score good finds. There’s really no right answer to that question. I guess you should just know the right places to get them and be there. Specially when they’re on sale! And if there’s something I’ve learned, if you see something you really want and you’re comfortable with its price buy it! Or when you find something that you like but will make you starve yourself to death till the next payday or allowance, sleep on it! If the next day you still want it and cannot stop thinking about it, then buy it!
Currently here are my favorite finds
my less than 500peso sandals, the headbands, earrings and cincher are all under 100peso
On other cheap thrills
Vitress Hair Spa
J&J Milkbath
Body Shop Lip Balm in Raspberry and Strawberry
Mimi Lip and Cheek Tint
Bench lip glosses
Bench clear mascara
Potato Corner fries in cheese and sour cream
Gummi bears, sour tape and Nerds
Meiji Macadamia
Bobbie cuticle oil
Bobbie Nail Polish remover
Tokyo Tokyo’s California Maki
Sarsi Mc Float
Carmex Lip balm
Oktoberfest and love bites
I wasn’t here last year, and the last time I remembered going to an Oktoberfest event was when I was in first year college. This year although my best gimik buddy is not around I went single to blue wave to have dinner and a night out with my girlfriends. The dinner was a treat from our October celebrators Anne, Jho and Vane.
I couldn’t help myself to miss Jog and think about if he was here, he would have joined us. It could have been our first Oktoberfest together. I had to stop myself from thinking about him because I didn’t want to ruin their night. But I knew they we’re watching over me just in case I break down. Girlfriends!
It’s hard to enjoy yourself when you know you want something else. It’s hard to be really happy when the person you want to be with is not there with you. It’s been two months since he left, but reality hasn’t really sink in. It’s difficult. It’s unfair. And I just want this year to pass, or have it forwarded to June 2007 already. I want it done.
Grey’s Anatomy
I’m watching season 2 on DVD, not done yet but I'm so loving it!
The events of the past week made me reflect on how I am living my life. How I make decisions and just life in general.
It made me realize that life is too short to be angry all the time, to have baggage’s, to worry all the time, and later on have regrets.
I was such a worrywart about work and career, I was whining (yah, I admit that) about how it sucks but I never really have been doing my part. It was all about how this job is not for me and how it’s not really a real job, when in fact I should be thankful I have a job when there are thousands who are job less and would are looking for one as I whine. I still think I could do better, and find a more suitable work for me, but I guess I still have time to find another one in due time.
I was so worried about the future that I forget about living. Living for each day that it comes. I forgot about enjoying.
Jeline’s text was timely because it says:
A interview with God:
Man: What surprises you most about humankind?
God: That they get bored with childhood, they rush to grow up and then long to be children again… That they lose their health to make money, and then lose their money to restore their health… That by thinking anxiously about the future, they forget the present such that they live in either the present or the future… That they live as if they never die and thou they had never lived.
I’ve been praying for answers and now I know why and I understand. That’s what my dad has been telling me…Live by the day. Because you cannot redo the past, you only live once and you don’t know what will happen next. So for the next few days I must remember what I wrote here and try to relax and enjoy the ride.
Peace!
My dude-pare-tol’s birthday
We just had dinner and celebrated it with his family. I didn’t gave him any gift, just the same as last year. V. bad, I know. But I’m just so happy to be spending his birthday again, together.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOG!!!!!!!!!!! I love you!
On other birthdays
My good friend Joy turned a year older this month too. Her birthday reunited the best people I know, my high school buddies. We all missed high school life, all night we kept on talking about our kalokohans, our teachers, our classmates and the boyfriends who didn’t exist at that time could not do anything but to laugh also. Kahit hindi sila maka-relate. It was so nice to see them all again, and know that there are still some things that do not change.
the gang
Crossroads
I believe I’m in that time of my life wherein I wanna do a lot of things but I know better that I cannot afford to make mistakes that could jeopardize my future. I’m very careful making Plan A that could still accommodate Plan B, just in case.
I belong to the generation who wants to do a lot of things at the same time. We are over achievers, never settling for anything less. We want to be a photographer at the same time be the subject, we want to the have the cake and eat it.
We will never be contented in just being successful or being the best, we want to be successful, be the best and happy with what we are doing. We will not exchange our happiness over success.
I’m in a place right now that I really just want to take a step at a time, but that decision needs a lot of courage and support. I need to know that even if I screw up, there would be still people who would love and support me. I just need to know.
There are things in life that I’m still afraid to know, to discover. I’m still a kid who wants to believe and hopes there is really a Santa. Whenever I’m pressured or when I feel bad I run away from negative thoughts and memories. Yes, I’m still immature like that.
I am still a kid. I will always be.




Full circle