Cleaning out my closet

While cleaning, I saw my second year report card. The only high school report card that I’m proud of. The lowest grade I got was 80, of course, from Math.

It gave back a lotta high school memories. From biology to boys. Jansport…Cattleya notebooks….beeper…

It also gave me the thought of if I only knew about…I should have…

Like, if I only took studying seriously I could have been one of those who had merit cards every after quarter. I should have not been pressured to have a boyfriend or had better judgment on whether I could deal with having a boyfriend or not.

I’m a person who does not like regretting things, but I must admit I do have some regrets on how I dealt with things when I was in high school. I see my sister, who had just graduated from high school and I see how she have been active on extra-curricular activities and that she’s going to study in the University she likes. I was very apprehensive to join school activities, I didn’t like being “pabibo” or being labeled as such.

Why do I regret?

I was not able to pass on ALL the universities I tried to get into. I remembered being one of the few who didn’t get into the course and school that they wanted. I remember the heartbreak I caused my parents and the disappointment I gave my younger sibs. I remember being so down, I thought of not going to college. The desperation and the emotional stress it gave my family and me.

And it doesn’t end with that. When I was able to enroll myself on a Computer School and took up a Computer engineering course, just when I thought I had it all figured out. I failed most of my major subjects. I knew what was wrong, besides not understanding Calculus; I knew this was not what I wanted. I was at a crossroads on whether to finish my course or go back to what I really want.

But I am blessed. I am blessed to have a supporting and loving family who was there to pick up the pieces with me. I am loved unconditionally, because never did I hear them blame me or say I am not good enough. Instead, they worried about how I felt and they tried to not make me worry about it. It was a tough experience but having a family like mine makes it not so painful.

So I transferred and shifted to the course I first loved, and started all over again.

On April 15, I am going to be one of the millions of Graduates of 2005. I have survived. Even if I have some regrets, I know that I will not be the person that I am today without all those wrong judgments and choices. It’s so cliché but the best lessons I’ve learned is from these experiences.

Lesson of this story: Never let anyone, even yourself, be defined by the mistakes you committed. Instead, gracefully pick up the pieces and continue to strive to be the best.

Gluttony

Yesterday, I was able to clean our room. Salamat. But I haven’t organized our desk and my cabinet. I still have today and tomorrow.

We did Stations of the cross last night and had a late night dinner at our favorite Wai Ying. If you love dimsum and Chinese food, Wai Ying’s the place to be.hehe The prices are reasonable and delicious. I love Hakaw, that’s shrimp dumpling, their siomai is great. Before I always have their roasted duck with rice, but the duck fat sometimes gets so rich for my palate. My brother loves their Asado rice, my sister always orders their Mixed Congee and my Dad loves their Soy Chicken Mami. If you’re wondering where this is, it’s in Binondo. It’s a small place but we always find it always packed with people who love eating as much as my family does.

My family loves dining out, well eating is really the best word. Our delicious finds ranges from the best bulalo to the best mango pudding. But really, our family eating and that usually makes up our family time.

Sosings – it’s a carinderia at Vito Cruz Manila. For those who know Cash and Carry might know this place where the best Filipino meals are served. They have the best Caldereta, that even if I don’t like spicy foods I appreciated it.

Becky’s Kitchen – I think a lot has discovered this shop. It’s also in Vito Cruz, they have the best Walnut Brownies, food for the gods, tarts, and they’ve got it. If you have a sweet tooth, you better head here. During Christmas, as early as November, orders pile up, it’s hard to make reservations and order ahead, you usually have to go there early in the morning to make sure you can get your goodies for they run out early.

Don Henrico’s – my family’s favorite is their Buffalo Chicken, when they started out it was Buffalo Chicken, but they’ve changed it, and I guess to give customers the choice cuts of the chicken they would like.

Shopwise’s Ensaymada –the yummiest and would you belive they sell this mini ensaymada’s for 49.50 for 6! My brother can finish the a whole box in a minute.

Sugar Cane Juice and Soy Milk – you know Tubo? We know this store in Ongpin that sells the Tubo juice. You could actually see it as they take the tubo in the machine (a juicer, I suppose) that takes out the juice and the tubo comes out flat. We buy and I think it’s the best soy milk, in Wai Ying. The soy milk has texture and I think that makes it yummier.

Hungry Pac and Kookie Corner- I’m not really a chocolate fan, but when my mom bought home a chocolate cake form cookie corner, I was a convert. It’s not too sweet, just has the right chocolatey flavor. Hungry Pac, also has their own yummy Chocolate cake you wouldn’t mind taking another slice.

Belgian Waffle – At Starbucks of course, my favorite syrup is caramel. Before I liked strawberry, but when my friend Jen ordered caramel, I found it to be the best partner of coffee. My dad loves chocolate of course, but what he loves the best is the whipped cream.

Talaba- when I was growing up, we would go to cavite and have fresh talaba. Oysters, if you don’t know talaba. Oysters could actually give you a bad stomach once not eaten fresh or served right. It’s best to eat it with vinegar, as it slightly cooks it. I love oysters. And just last year, as we discovered Market Market, we also discovered Marina at their food court. They serve fresh oysters, and a bucket is only P150. My sister and I could finish a bucket for dinner.

Actually, these are just a few of my family’s food favorites. I might have forgotten to write the others. But really, having to share good food and conversation that makes these special to my family and me.

tap on my window, knock on my door,wanna make you feel beautiful....

i haven't gone to my ojt. if there's one thing i've progressed, it's my reading five people you meet in heaven..i'm reading the "second person eddie meets in heaven"

i'm lost..i just saw my old wallet, being used by my brother...without PERMISSION...Is that so hard to do???? i know that's where most of siblings fight like toddlers. arrgh!

anyways, we'll be spending this week at home. and i think it's a great idea, since most people will go out of town and the best places to go to this week will be crowded of the whole city's population..so, why waste time and money when you will not be able to relax and enjoy?

i'm planning to declutter our room, organize my cabinet and throw the things that i won't be needing next school year, since this is the last! (hurray!) i'm planning to change sheets, make labels for my books,keep nov-dec issues of my magazines,maybe bake some cake, have a friends marathon,and have siesta! haaaaaaaaay!

and, catch up on my reading pala! i hope my sister will be able to buy me chalk march issue. i can't wait for the april issue of 17, Anne and Paolo will be on the cover..hehe. i think i'll never ever grow up on that part...

hope everyone will have a peaceful and fun week! wherever you're planning to go...
be safe everyone!!

happy birthday to me!

thanks for everyone who remembered!

alam niyo naman na i take note of those who greet me on my birthday. hehe. kababawan. salamat! your greetings made this day more special.

jog came over and gave a me a green v-necked blouse plus a kiss! hehehe

later, my mom ordered food for dinner and basically my birthday was spent here lang sa house. it was my choice, and besides, the important people in my life were present. except for tonet, who couldn't make it because her it's also her cousin's graduation.

i was not able to hear mass, but i know HE knows how grateful i am to spend another year with my family and friends. life has been good to me, if it has given me tough situations, it has also showered me with blessings like a loving family,friends who take me for me,a great guy for a bf,happiness,love,humility,good health and peace. also the material things that also matter to me (hehe) but not as much as the blessings i've mentioned.

and my wishes: i want a lot of things i want to happen this year...

• i wish to be able to read more books on my to read list
• i wish for new and more shoes and bags if its not too much...hehe
• i wish for continued happiness
• i wish for peace..hehe world peace
• i wish for enlightenment...for me to be able to decide on which path to take
• i wish for my family and friends' good health

CHEERS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

f.r.i.e.n.d.s

I don’t know why, but I might be known in High school as the girl who had a lot of friends. no, not the type who was friends with everyone. I had new set of Friends almost every year, but those who I’ve treasured are those who I still see every now and then. And I think it’s a good way of emotional exercise (if there is such a thing) to keep in touch with your friends, esp. your high school friends.

I got an unexpected text from my good friend Joy, we were supposed to see each other in our friend’s despida, but because of my thesis I wasn’t able to come. Here’s her text : Hi kaye! Kagagaling ko lang sa party ni romi, ewan ko ba bakit kita naisip kanina pa.hay, I juz realize some things kc yung situation k andami kong naging close nung HS but only a few talaga yung tingin ko na magsstay.kaye, alam ko na hindi nman tayo kabonded lately pro ewan ikaw yung naisiip ko na 1friend from HS na gsto ko makasama for a long tym.pls stay kaye.i wana share my life with you..andrama noh..wala lang..J mahal kita.

And no, she’s not lesbian. Her text may just sound like that. hehe but really, I appreciated that Joy sees me like that. When friends like joy and actually all my HS friends (they are the best), it makes me feel that at least I’ve done well. And makes me want to pay it forward. And this entry is for my friends who have accepted me as the crazy little woman that I am.

To Nina – who keeps us all laughing. Who never runs out of her funny antics and punch lines. The friend I had to share the whole summer before college with on the phone, talking about pancit canton and not having a school.

To Jen – who inspires me to be the best person. Who taught me the art of being nice to people who aren’t not so nice and you don’t like. And I wouldn’t forget the time when I thought the whole world will judge me, the first thing that she said was “so,how are you?”

To Florida- the one that insipires all of us and makes us all say “wow” and “amazing”. With all that she has achieved. She taught us that perseverance and hard work pays off.

To Vanessa – the one who’s always demanding with gimiks, the one who never fails to amaze us with her sometimes deadma reaction. And the one who’s giving us the first baby of the barkada.

To Dang – not much to say about dang, aside from always not being able to give us gifts on Christmas, she really does not belong in the group. hehe joke lang dang!

To Gian- my best friend of almost 8 years, she’s just the best when it comes to hearing me out and laughing at my stupid jokes. The best friend everyone would wish to have.

To Anne- the girl who always smiles even when there’s no reason. The girl with the shampoo commercial hair. Anne has been always matiyaga to plan out our get togethers and drives for us in our gimiks

To Romi- who has been a part of my life since Grade 6, we might have lost touch bt just like gian, we could pick it off from where we left it. I know that even if we have not been able to communicate lately, I know she considers me a friend and so do i.

To joy- who inspired me to write all this, if you’ll be able to read this, im sorry I wrote ur message here without your permission. And be assured that I’ll always be here no matter what.

To Pam- the bestfriend I thought I lost. and now the mommy of my inaanak aiken. She has been a friend for 7 years now, and when she said that she’s getting me as her first born’s god mother, I was touched. That made me realize how much she still values our friendship.

To Jho – the funniest gal I’ve ever met, next to Niña of course. She speaks her mind, and tells you as it is. The kind of an honest friend you sometimes don’t want to have.


College buddies:

To Tonet- my tiborcia jowa. I love you for being the kind, understanding, and supportive friend that you are to me. I thank you for your friendship and goodness you’ve shared with my bf and me. My days in EAC were not wasted because of your company.

To Larcy- I know I may sometimes forget that you are the first friend I had in EAC. But I hope you know that I’ll always be grateful for the friendship we have and if there’s one person I know who will listen when I talk, and only give advice when I ask to, its you. So thank you for being the audience I’ve always wanted to have.

To Jeline- whom I only got to be close lately, thanks to thesis. Thanks for the don’t call just text help and only a few people have gained my respect and one of those is you. Thanks for the friendship. You will not be forgotten.

To Gaiety- ang babaeng N.R. I’m happy that we’ve been able to get close before this year ended and I treasure the moments we had, specially when we got to talk. Also, thanks for listening to my yakking din.

To Froilan- the only rose among the thorns.. Froilan is the kind of person you would want to be on your side..mahirap kaaway si froilan that’s why I’m lucky to be her friend! I will miss you as soon as school starts for you and work for me!


And I would just want to end this entry by again, thanking everyone who’s been part of my life. For the memories and things you’ve taught me. I wouldn’t be who I am today if our paths didn’t crossed.

I can only wish for each and everyone’s happiness, and i hope we can keep the friendship that we share...

when older doesn't mean wiser..

so, my birthday's coming up. it would be a very happy event if my family and friends will share the day with me.

i've been not celebrating my birthday for two years now, aside from my being kuripot, nobody that i know really exerted effort for me on my birthday.aside from greeting, although greetings are good enough for me, no one has ever made me feel extra special on this extra special day. no i'm not asking you to pity me. this past two years have been not a "happy" birthday. even if i choose to be happy, i think its natural that i feel sad that this happens/ that i feel this way on my birthday.

so anyway, enough of the drama... i just hope this year would be different from the other two years.

i don't want to say how old i am, and if you know, please don't say it to me... i already know so much.

with that number, i should be working like all of my highschool batchmates, and if i was working, i should have all the money i need and buy all the shoes that i would want and can afford. i could have shared paying the bills, i could be paying for my cellphone bill, and maybe i could afford that much needed and deserved summer getaway.

i should be, but i'm not. and i guess it would be too late to have regrets and blame it on my bad judgement. but hey, i'm happy and i've learned from those things. and i think that's what's important. although what i've learned doesn't really make me "wiser", i know there's so much for me to learn. but definitely i choose better now.i hope.:)

i have two other friends who's celebrating their bdays this month, actually, this is a belated happy birthday to my two best pals, Pam and Jenny!!! i hope both of you had a great day yesterday! cheers!

hitch

i know...everybody has seen it.

it was only last night that jog and i watched the movie. and it was funny and educational.

i was telling jog that in the heirarchy of fictional romantic men, Noah (the notebook) tops the list, Dr.Hitches is next on that list..hehehe

we had dinner at the foodcourt of sm manila. my friends and i have been raving about Magic Wok for over a week now. and i told them, jog would love their food. and for those who loves rice toppings, i would definitely recommend for you to try Magic Wok.

Lemme write!

Just when I have the inspiration to write again, surf maxx wouldn’t cooperate. Again, just as I was about to write an error message popped so I decided to write it on word muna, And when I have been able to write 2 paragraphs straight, our pc shuts down. And I haven’t saved it! Syet.

Last week has been a tough week, aside from my emotional drama, our thesis was due for defense. It was on a Monday, March 7 when we had to defend our study. And just when we all thought we were doing the right thing, just because it was not the traditional thesis, like what 4th years do every year in our school, one of the panelists said, we had to do it again. And yes, I cursed him to hell after that. We’ve been through all-nighters for a week for that thesis, just because they couldn’t understand T-test and our statistical data, it was wrong? If a statistician was present or a teacher from the Math department was there, it could have been a different story. But anyways, god is good and so, Mrs. Bionesta (our savior) said we just had to make minor revisions and it will all be good. And as of this writing, I have to make a dedication and we are to have it book bind. Salamat.

This week, is finals week. By the way, Nat Sci 2 is giving me sleepless nights. I’m so scared I might not be able to graduate because of that subject. Finals week for most of my school mates but its OJT cramming for me. I have to make up 30 hours for print and 45 hours for radio. Wish me luck.

I was able to unwind last Friday with good friends and the man who relaxes me…I’m loving love moves now both Nina and MYMP’s version, but Jlo’s new single is hot!

I haven’t progressed on The five People you meet in heaven, haven’t had the time. Hope after this week, I’ll be able to find time. Jog finished Catcher in the Rye na, when in fact we both started reading the books at the same time. I’ve created a monster! Hehe

So there, hope everyone’s doing well!

when it all falls down

its been a while since i last wrote..a lotta things happened, up until last night when i felt, ugh...this is too much..

i'd rather not go into details but it reminds me of the time in highschool, when my "friends" all got mad at me, and they turned my bestfriend into their side and got mad at me for reasons that i lied to her daw and i didnt tell it to her face whenever i get tampo, or when she gets tampo always and i couldnt understand why she gets like that.

its frustrating and i get hurt when people i consider friends do things like this. na parang, our friendship is defined with the time we spent together and when i call them, yun lang ba? i mean even if we don't talk, my bestfriend gian lives far north, its just recently they got a phone line again and a cellphone, and now that we could actually talk, she has work na. but i dont get mad that we dont have time together, or she does not have the time, the beauty of our friendship is when we get together, it feels like its not been years since we last talked. we could pick it up where we left it..

another thing, its hurtful when you think your friend should know you better, and yet, when shit happens and you are in the that shitty sitation the blame is on you, before you conclude or blame it to someone else, a friend would think "she cannot possibly do a thing like this"

i think what hurts the most is when FRIENDS do this to you. i don't have to say ive been a good friend, i know im not perfect but i know i wouldnt do something like this to a friend.

and when such a thing like this happens to the people you love, it's bad that they seem to blame it on you.

basta, today, i learned the real meaning of family and friends.

and if ive been thankful and proud of my boyfriend, much more now.

this shall all past, and i hope things would get better for everyone.

P.S.

this picture was taken at Dang's bday last year. all of us with the new members.hehe

this is my second and last attempt on posting the pictures.!hay naku. inaantok na ako! the medications i'm taking for my skin asthma makes me sleepy sobra!

here are the pics from vane's wedding.

me and the bf not looking

jc,magan,anne,jho& nina -mga taksil,they took pics without me

the side of the table,which we claim the Prettiest side

the newlyweds

nina,jc,joy,dang,jen -the otha side

the only pic where all of us we're looking -taken by jen

Fab 5

Just watched their holiday episode wherein they visited and invited some of those who they made-over and see how they kept it together since the make over.

Among the finalists, Adam and his wife was chosen the best kept and I couldn’t agree more.

Their house – their living room, kitchen and living room seems to be the same way the 5 left it. It’s touching to see how much they learned
And maintained the make over. It’s nice to see men listening and keeping advices from gays.


Keeping it together

Speaking of which, we managed (my thesis group) to submit our Chapters 1-3 today. There are just minor revisions. The clock is ticking… February na later! OMG! –haha cant believe im using that word.

Jobs

This morning my lolo texted me about a job fair for INFONXX (not sure) at the RCBC this week. I know it’s a call center. I’m just not sure if I’m going to go there since I still have 2 internships, thesis, and 1 minor subject which I never thought would be this much of a problem to me.

So, even if I want to work and apply for work this early, it would be a much wiser choice to keep my priorities on graduating on March, and give the job hunting a little less pressure on me.

things i'm looking forward to this week

• thesis -well it has been all thesis for these past few weeks, like right now, Jeline my thesis mate had just emailed me our thesis and i have to edit and save it for tommorows the deadline of chapters 1-3.
• OJT - well, just writing about it pressures me...i have to accomplish that since its already February and we have so little time left to finish all these requirements! i have 120 hours of OJT left.
• other graduating requirements - i have to at least get some of it crossed out on my to do list!!
• make time for the bf - i know this will be a hell of a week, maybe the only time i'll be having to have with him is on saturday...that is if i'll be free
• baking- finally, my father arranged the oven. mag-sawa lahat ng kilala ko because i'll be baking all week! hahaha!
• catch up on my reading - i've bought catcher in the rye at the start of this month/year and i have'nt progressed...it was kinda too rebelious for me...
• keep writing - i've deprived myself of writing, for a long time. something held back my love for writing blahs, (that story should be in a different entry) but i think i've got it back...

firsts

well, last thursday, i had to meet up with my gurl Jen and buy gifts for our friend Vanessa who's going to get married the next day. yah, i know. But really for me, it was a brave decision for Vanessa and Niño to get married at their early 20's. i mean today, the older the better. Everyone does not like to gamble and take on the responsiblities this early. (that includes me)
and so, knowing Vanessa who's headstrong and stands up for what she wants, i know they could get through this...

Imagine the two of us, buying gifts for a wedding! we had no idea. grabe! we we're gigling all the throughout the gift buying. I had to not really abandon, but leave early our thesis session. Most of our working friends had to take a leave, and some had to be absent to attend her wedding. Jen and I we're saying that she had to go through this for us din when our time comes!!!! and i was telling Jen, no more baby shower for her!!! expensive na! i'm still not working!!! haha

and so the day has come, January 28, 2004

Transpo was not really a problem since my ever dependable boyfriend was willing to come and drive for us-- Jen and Niña to the wedding. when we we're about to leave, the car wouldnt start...i was a little bit calm, and buti na lang our kapitbahay is an auto shop. they helped us, so yun we took Nagtahan and Espana, although Vanessa textd us instead of Nagtahan, we should take Sta. Mesa, but it was too late since we're reaching Espana na. Buti na lang di masyado traffic, by the way, we have to be out of the streets by 3pm kasi color coding.hehe The only problem left was, we didnt know where West Ave was... we took Timog Ave instead and we we're lost we ended up in Commonwealth..hay naku..we we're all patient naman since nobody knew the directions, we we're just worried, we wanted to on time for the rites.

We arrived there, the place was packed with a lot of older (yes, the lola and lolo kind) of people. we and niño's friends lang we're the young ones. ang naabutan na lang namin was, "Blue plates po sa atin". hahaha

It was a civil wedding, and so i thought there wouldnt be those wedding rituals like the cutting of the cake, the doves and the garter and bouquet catching.

So the host, who was for me very impatient and demanding. Started to get everyone's attention for the cutting of the cake, we got the wishes on the cake -mine said something about the career chuva. followed by the garter catching, then, "all the single ladies please come forward for the catching of the bouquet (is that the way you call it ba?), i really did not want to participate since, i was with the boyfriend, it would be too awkward. but then the bf, said "Sige na,ok lang, nakakhiya,ikaw lang sa mga barkada mo matitira sa table. he's right, and i was thinking what are the chances?

and so, we all lined up there and as vanessa threw the bouquet, it landed on me.. no intentions, it hitted my head then my chest then it fell in front of me. i protested it wasn't for me and besides, it would be akward to participate in the garter thing since some other guy got it--i mean a friend of niño, some other guy --not jog. so there, i was kill joy.

although he was telling me it was ok, i still didnt want to do it.

afterwards, he joked about me getting the bouquet. "Hala ka!" It kinda occured to me that yes, catching the bouquet means "you're next", but hey! i didn't catched it, it landed on me. besides it's not a wedding tradition who would decide when i'll get married. what am i saying?? the last sentence made me wide eyed!

we then headed to manila, we dropped off Anne, Magaan,Jho,Niña and JC. then since Tonet and the my other friends are shooting their short film in Malate, we decided to drop by. and just when i was about to txt tonet, she already sensed it. the text read

:halur! dito kami rothman hotel,rm 314,akyat na lang kayo.ingat!

hahaha that's tonet!

and after the chikahan and some yosi break for my beau, we finally got to catch MEET THE FOCKERS at Rob.Place. It was so hilarious! i know, everyone already watched it na. whatever. hehehe. it was so funny, i was irritated to with the guy behind us, who was laughing so hard it was disturbing na and was telling the whole movie na! kainis! i just hate it when people do that! i mean, if you've watched it before na, keep it to yourself! don't steal our chance to have a good laugh. if by chance we didn't get the punch lines and you did, good for you, don't mind us. it's not your money we spent on this one! he kept when jog said "tsong, pakihinaan" but it was too late. we almost didnt enjoy the movie!!! i hope he reads this! hehehe ok lang sana the laugh, but he was laughing so loud i cud not hear the next lines the actors was saying. grrrrr

kaya nga sometimes, although this thought might be discriminating, pero, di ba, its better to watch in Makati or Alabang and pay 100+ --you'll get your money's worth with the audience you'll be sharing the movie with. Instead of paying a little less than that and be with those kind of people who talk during the movie, laugh so loud, and talk about the movie all together! hay!

assh-hole! hahaha! ben stiller's the best! hehehe

so anyway, those we're the firsts for me this week. and boy was it hell. from thesis, to graduation requirements, to weddings.

**this entry could have been much more better with pics, but my dad's cradle for his phone is not here.damot! hehehe

my sister my enemy



I wrote that when i was in third grade. An essay, actually it was more of an attempt to make an essay. It was that early, i was 9, that i wanted to write. Or actually thought i could write.

You see, Buding as we all call her,(Alexis to her friends) is 5 years younger than I am. When she was born, i wasnt really crazy about her. though i wasn't jealous, let me make that clear, i was just used to being myself and being the only kid around the house. Although i remember joining her in her crib drinking milk, still form the bottle and kinda play with her. I remember rescuing her after her yaya left her in the room sleeping and got locked. I had to climb on top of the door and jump from above the little hole my Tito made for me to get inside.

I was used to playing alone, having imaginary friends, being the first grandchild on both sides and being the only pamangkin my aunts and uncles are fond of. So when we we're growing up, and she can play with me na, I wasn't crazy-happy at all. I should say, we didn't click.

But now, that I'm on my 20's (and would still want to remain that age even after 10 years) and she's turning 17, we've actually grown closer together. Thankfully. Our parents couldnt be any happier.

We're actually not only roomates, we're currently bedmates due to the very cold weather. Actually, it started during the rainy season, there's a leak from the roof on our room, and sakto sa bed niya. There was this time, it rained so hard her bed was soaked and we needed mga pails para masalo yung tulo ng water. Of course she couldn't sleep there, and we ended up to sleep together until now.

It's actually fun, although sometimes we still get into each other's nerves. But it will always end up her making kwento about her school and the things she did that day, her teasing me on the things i do, on me being gullible and me being a nag to our little brother and my boyfriend. Or me trying to please her (all of us in the family are takot to her), me making kwento, me asking her to teach me on my NatSci subject.

I never told her this, but i hope this makes up for it.

I appreciate her and the things she does specially for me, and I'm proud of her dancing and being a cheerleader (although there was a time i teased her for that). I'm proud that she's matured and sometimes she acts like the "ate". I know there's a whole world out there for her to explore and conquer.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BUDING!

trauma

my sister got into a real tragic incident yesterday. she went home shaking, and crying while telling me the details.

on her way home,[ from her school(also my former school) to our house, it will just be two rides away] on the jeepney she rode in Taft, i cannot even continue to write, i'm more traumatized by the whole incident than her...i cant write anymore..she got hold-up.tinutukan sya ng balisong, and the worst part, not only tinutok, tinurok pa yun on her sides para maramdaman niya talaga yung balisong. before itutok sa kanya, pinakita pa talaga sa kanya. they we're 3. and accor to my sister, mga adik. the f's and the p's are not even enough cursing for them!!

i felt bad being the eldest, and my school right now is so near lang, i mean we should have been going home together, and maybe this could not have happend. and i'm so terrified for my sister and the trauma she has now, if only i could take the trauma for me na lang. although i'm thankful nothing else had happend to her but every chance that i have to pray at night i always ask for the safety of my family. no im not blaming God, its how unsafe Manila is.

there we're no policemen. could you imagine, there are 2 other schools near my sister's school, and there's a big sign pa na WAG MAG CELLPHONE MAG INGAT SA MAGNANAKAW, my sister was not using her phone. im sure kaya may sign na ganun kasi there have been incidents na, and yet there we're no policemen, 2 station ng police meron in that area, both in U.N.

i dont want to dwell on that na. i want it erased from my memory.

i hope nothing like this happens to you, or anyone form your family.

god bless us all.

and hey! how could i forget to write, LOUISE gave me the nickname "kikaye"


that's me the fatso with my bitch


he can can me anything he wants, i call him the "grade 2 first communion kid" alex&me


the "toys R us couple"


i occupied the whole space!


alexxx as "Chito Miranda" hehe gwaping eh!


the pic taken by chilli, who i realized does not have a picture with me or picture taken that night
louise and the real fatso -Al King

Catching up

My Saturday started with my dentist texting me about porcelain jackets, that ive texted her about last night, because someone I know needs it and is kinda canvassing around how much it would really cost. Then, my bestfriend Gian followed, asking if I had class or anything I had to do. I immediately replied, no im at home sleeping, no classes for me today. I knew she would come over,since its been ages since we’ve last saw each other, plus she works just 20 mins away..Makati..so, I was waiting for the doorbell, when my mom calls, and tells me to get ready and she’ll buy me an OVEN. Yes, we don’t have that. I’ve been cooking for my family since high school with a gas stove. I don’t even know what do they really call that. All I know is that, since I learned baking when I was on 4th year high school, I wanted to bake and bake. And I know I’m good at it.

So, we had brunch at ToHo in Binondo. Then, we went to this appliance store in Binondo, where as my mom always finds the best bargains, even on appliances, they had exactly what I wanted, well not actually, but close enough. A 4-burner gas range, with an oven roaster that could not only bake but as the lady who sold it to us said, it could roast a LECHON! Wow! But the only set back was, we couldn’t take it home yet, cause they don’t have stocks, and it would be delivered Monday. Oh well, I wanted to have the best, so all right, what’s so bad about having it on Monday instead. I’ve wanted that for years.

Gian and I did the catching up, she seems to enjoy her job right now, as to it was all she talked about. I’m happy for her, and I just hope it would bore her eventually and may it bring her back to school.

Later, Louise texted me that they we’re hanging out in glorietta, and so I wanted to see them. The last time we saw each other was when we watched x-men 2, I think…basta I miss them and wanted to see how they all are, now that all of them are working na. kainggit. I’m glad to know that nothing has changed, Alex was still the cheek-pinching-8-year-old. Nahawa na si Louise sa toy craziness ni Alexxx, but still the animated Louise I met. And Al-king who gained so much weight, I don’t believe its holiday weight, still looked good and just says the right punch lines on me. And Chilley, who also gained weight but it looks good on him and should keep it, made me realize he might be just right for my high school kumare Jenny.

We watched Kung- Fu hustle which was “gad-dam-funny” (I want to quote Al-King) and everybody who watched it before me and said it was soooo funny was right. It was hilarious, and although I’m a Matrix fan, the Kung Fu scenes was for me their way of saying we are the originals!

All night, Alexxx and Al-King we’re teasing me about my arms, my belly, and my cheek-fats! Hehehe But its fine for me, I enjoy their company. I know they’ll be reading this, so, thanks guys for the fun Saturday night. Sa uulitin!

**super late entry

hi!

inaasar kasi ako ni louise..update daw yung last post ko...palpak nga eh..

yesterday, we we're supposed to watch oceans 12, kaya lng mejo late na kami, so we moved the plan on friday. everyone in school, are having their midterms exams, me? My only exam would be Nat.Sci and its scheduled on Saturday, 830 am. so goodluck to me.

finally, finished Da Vinci Code. the first few chapters really bored me, it surprised me with the revelations on the first few chapters of the book. after those revelations, it got me hooked. made it my before sleeping ritual and finished the book. haaaaay! it made me look at our last supper, and it gives me goosebumps everytime i remember those said in the book. although it didnt shook my beliefs, i repeatedly told myself it is fiction. so there, thanks to Dan Brown.

i bought, J.D. Salinger's The Cather in the Rye. i was supposed to buy 11 minutes but National Bookstore, Robinson's Manila doesnt have them (which reminds me to visit their site for my Laking National card). Paulo Coleho's books are gone by the second.i've just read the first 2 pages of the book, and planning to read more tonight. i should have bought eleven minutes the same time i bought Da Vinci last December!

my christmas money is slowly blown by the wind...

btw, yesterday, when i bought the book, jog asked me about my National Bookstore points, i actually dont really pay much attention to that, knowing these kind of rewards promo take up too much time and money before you can really earn and get something out of it..(but hey! i believed in Starbucks planner promo, and i did get my planner) but to my surprise, i have P110.00!!! and if that's true, i could maybe just add 100+ if they would have 11 minutes na! yey!!

so there..

i havent posted in a long while na pala...

i will post again later, and share with you the best buys i love!

take care!

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