random thoughts...so random,its not worth reading

was watching the season premiere of Gilmore Girls, when i got to watch the commercial of the new iPod... the nano iPod, which i believe is as light as a paper. whew!

and while reading my Nigella Lawson's book, i wonder what if i did take up culinary arts? hmmm
but hey, i still have time. i can take up culinary arts one day...i will

and i am currently in love with this songs...

And I
Know that he wont break my heart
And I
Know that we wont ever part
Its time, time for us to settle down
And I
Wanna be with him forever

I love you
And all of the things that you do
Oh baby please
I need you (I need you)
So believe me (I do)I do (oOoOOo)
Cause I love you (I love you)
And every lil thing baby (you do)
No no OoO whooOooa OooOo
They don't know how I feel
Cause I know this is real

and this..even though i couldn't relate to this song, i just love gwen

And after all the obstaclesI
t's good to see you now with someone else
And it's such a miracle that you and me are still good friends
After all that we've been throughI know we're cool

cool!

have a good one everyone!

mortals

i was crying the whole time when i watched Oprah's special on the Katrina victims.
i am no American, but i felt their pain.
i felt humanitty.
i remember Oprah saying, " you can smell death"
i watched as Julia Roberts, hugged and tried to comfort the refugees. and how a simple hug can make a difference.
and at these times, we owe it to our lives to help.

Taking chances

I am no relationship expert, but I do know what I have learned, and I think I have learned quite a few.

When relationships ends…

Some makes you obsessive.
Some makes you cry at three in the morning, 4 days after the break up.
Some makes you don’t eat your favorite sandwich, just because it’s his favorite too.
Some unleashes the bad side of you.
Some makes you make every song, your song.
Some makes you hate every couple you see.
And it could go on and on.

It takes time before you realize it’s not the end of the world. And there are more important things to be done.

I have been in those relationships; I have been through sad, hurtful break-ups. And I think that's why, a lot of us, have that post relationship im-so-scared-of-getting-hurt-again syndrome.

But looking back, I think I never had that.

The scared of getting hurt again part.
I am impulsive most of the time when it comes to matters of the heart.
Because I have always thought that you can never make precautionary measures,

falling in love is never pain-proof.

That it’s always a gamble.

You will never know, unless you’d be brave enough to know that it will surely hurt.

That’s why; I am so baffled, at why I am so scared now?
I am so scared, I cannot even admit to myself, that yes we are happy, I am very happy, and yes, it is possible to be this happy and at the same time have the most un-perfect relationship.

I am so scared to label our relationship, to label us. To label that this relationship is working out the way it should be and I could see a bit of the future.

I am so afraid to use the word might. Or even hope, because it feels like I’m pre-empting the future. I guess it’s because I have so much belief with fate. So much faith, that I am willing to deprive myself of the happiness the stability of our relationship gives. Just so I won’t be too assured, and later on suffer from the possibility that this might not still be it. Cause is there anyone, in a relationship right now, that wouldn’t want this to be it? And I hate that, that I am so careful about feeling that bliss. That feeling, which who knows I won’t be able to feel again, in this lifetime, with the same person or not.

I guess this one is just so important to me, I don’t want to gamble. I don’t want to take chances, and that I am so careful, that even if I know we are working hard for this relationship to be at its best happy state, I don’t really want to plan ahead. Even if Oprah says we have a good thing going on. It’s best if we take it one day at a time. Be patient and wait.

There’s no doubt that I have a great man with me. Journeying with me, making the most out of what we have and what have we have been through. He is doing his part at his best. He has been with me during the happiest and lowest points of my life, has been understanding and supportive, and most importantly, loves the best and the ugliest parts of me.

I am not scared of getting hurt. I am scared that I might give too much pressure in this relationship, the minute I say, this is it, and it will be doomed. I am so scared, that I will do something that will make this relationship not to be it. But will my being so careful help to prevent anything that may cause the relationship? I don’t think so. That’s why it’s so scary. Because, in the end, it may be not just about the two of you, but what was meant to be.

How does one know if the relationship they are in now is it? They say, you just know. In the middle of all this, I possibly know the answer. And I’m just so chicken to admit it and say it out loud.

What I do know now is what to answer when one day somebody would ask me, what makes Jog special? Jog is special because, he has taught me to know my battles, love with courage and unconditionally. And if only for that, I should worry no more.

allure, labor day weekend and james blake

all day yesterday, i was juts reading on allure, the mags sent to me by tita mai.(thanks!)
it wanted me to shop till i drop..sobra.thats how i spent labor day, ended it by watching laguna beach..hay..tinadyer

and here's my new crush...

james blake.





he won against nadal (not sure or was it noval), it was a sweet victory,coz he had been through a lot last year. he had a stroke, then his dad died of cancer. who could have thought that after a stroke, he could play again. tapos he won pa. god bless him.

i was chatting with jeline this morning, and she was asking me how jog and i are doing. considering we are miles apart.long distance eh. told her, we're good, its not perfect but we're happy.

but with the advantages of technology we are just windows away..

and another one where jog makes his best actor performance



thanks louise!

BLOG CRUSH

i have a blog crush..if there is such a thing.
i was blog hopping when i've come upon his blog.
nothing serious. just a crush.
he actually dropped by this blog once and left a message.
i think he's a great guy, artistic, and from what i've read he's a geek.
and he has a great gf. i should know, cause i read their blogs.(ah!clue!)
that's ok, i don't have plans.
even if he doesnt have someone,i am with someone.
so there, i was just crazy to realize, that yeah, i can consider him like ashton kutcher and jericho rosales. cause i'm totally crushing on this guy. hahaha

lemme know

hi everyone! i have been checking my stats, and it seems, i get visitors. so i just hope, you'd leave a post, or you can leave a message on my tag board. i'd like to know who you are...and i hope you wouldn't mind. and if you have also your web blog, you can leave the add so i could check it out as well. thanks!

Avada Kedavra

I finally finished book 6, and i baked some bread pudding just to get my mind off it.

Since book 4, JK Rowling havent written a happy ending Harry Potter, which is just so depressing. I might be overreacting, but hey, i havent cried like this since book 3 when harry met sirius. After reading book 6, i kept crying from chapter seven to thirty. I wouldnt want to spoil those who are planning to read the book, or those who are finishing it, so i wouldnt want to say anything beyond, It's a sad sad book. Although i liked how fast paced the book was, compared to the past books. And there were also things in book 6 that made me smile and lifted my heart, to which i could only refer as the love teams JK created.hahaha. And i'm not looking forward to book 7, but i'll read it still,just to know what happens, but if u ask me, i'm not that excited and giddy anymore. bwiset!

so there, i think i need to start reading the book jog gave me to help me move on. hope tommorow i will not remember anything about that book!

there are just some things money can't buy

haha! wala lang, that title just came to me, as i logged on here..

still not finished on the book, but i know i will be done soon.

been helping my tita to find a name for their baby girl. but i'm kinda holding back some names, thats because those names will be the future names of my kids. hehe. if ever i'll be having children. names with s, its because i think i have lots of them,this early ha, but i want to have kids when I'm thirty na...so there, and i want not just one name for a kid, but a maximum of 4. hahaha! kawawang bata...everyone's writing number one on their paper, but he/she will still be on her second name.i could just imagine! crazy huh?

we also bought dresses and cutesy stuff for the baby. grabe, i think i know a lot about babies more than ever! grabe, the things i learn, like breast feeding them every two hours, the things you should eat and not eat--ampalaya causes contraction, etc. hay! and my tita was telling me about her labor, and epidural! grabe! the things we women go through. they were also telling me, that when its my time, when i have baby, i should rather choose c-section, or if i'd prefer the other way around, better make sure they will give me the epidural immediately. hahaha

but before i worry about all that, i'd probably worry about getting a job first, when we get back to manila.

katrina

let's all offer a prayer for all those affected by this tragedy...

and i guess this is a reminder to all of us

inspire the uninspired

i cant remember where i got that line..it must have been from a movie..

oh well, i have been debating on updating this blog..there is nothing i could write about, that would interest you nor me.

well,yeah, i got another second hand book, Trading Up, and my most recent and one of my proudest purchases, NIGELLA LAWSON'S Nigella Bites, that i got for 15$. i'm so lucky to have that book,its not second Pegasus books in Berkeley is just on SALE! ha!

all in all i've been happy on all of my book purchases!

i have also almost bought this cute halter top from a store called Papaya, but I had to be more practical.asus.nah! knowing me,i was just converting and converting.hahaha

what else? we got to bath and body works,i was planning to hoard on my fav scent,but luck was not on my side. so i just settled to my second bests.

and just now, i remebered where i got that line, from Van Wilder, Party Liason!hahaha

so there, hope everyone's having a greet week..so far so good huh?

and btw, Book 6, for me is the fastest pacing book JK Rowling has ever written.

He’s just not into you

I’ve come to know the book when I watched an episode of Oprah. I believe the authors were writers from Sex and the City the series. Author 1 is a guy, and Author 2 is a woman. (I’m sorry; I’m just really bad with names) The book was about dating, so Oprah featured the book, and let the author talk to the women who particularly, for some reason painstakingly clings on to men they have dated, who are just not interested and how women don’t seem to notice. Even though that I am in a relationship right now, I found that episode educational.

I think we, women are generally so obsessive and very meticulous with dating and relationships. We always “decode” what men mean when they say things. Just like when he says, “I had a good time”, we immediately think of, is it good –wonderful? Just plain good? Or was he just being polite? We spend hours and hours with our girlfriends trying to figure out what they said and what they did. For all we know, good simply means good, period. I think this also goes with how men see us so complicated. Because men, usually tells it as it is. So when they say, “I had a good time” it only means one thing, he had a good time, period. There is NO code!!!

Another problem that I see is that, we always seem to find all the excuses for the men we date, the men we are with, or even just the potential date/partner. We always try to see their unreasonable actions good enough for us. When in fact, we should be treated the way we care, or even better. Like when they don’t return your calls, or when they don’t open the door for you, or when they just act natural, like jerks.

Author 1, was the most effective writer for such book because he’s giving the women the guys point of view, which we don’t usually get from our girlfriends. (Although not all, well, still there are some of us. no offense) Author 1 was telling the audience, if he doesn’t call after the first date, it simply means “he’s just not into you”. Because we women, always, when this happens puts the blame on our selves. Whether the lipstick we used on the date, our hips, or the way we walk, we always blame ourselves. We always see this as our failure, when in fact it is not. When a man you had a date with, doesn’t call back the next day, it doesn’t mean you’re not good enough, it simply means, just like what the authors of the book said, HE’S JUST NOT INTO YOU.

So, WHY? I can only think that we, women always have illusions every so often that this guy may just be busy he hasn’t called for a month already, or some are so patient that they wait and wait, until she sees the guy with another girl. Or are some of us just masochists? Is it because we have high standards or we just don’t know our worth?

I always tell this to friends and my sister, we have different tastes. Especially men in this case, We may be the most beautiful woman, may have the most silky straight hair, have the longest legs and the sexiest body ever, but we may not be the type of girl the guy we like is looking for.

So why waste your time on someone who will not appreciate YOU. When he does not call after the first date, be easy on yourself and know that there’s nothing wrong with you. Lastly, and the most important thing about dating, KNOW YOUR WORTH.

DISCLAIMER: I haven’t read the book, I’ve just watched the episode when they featured the book, so don’t take my word for it, maybe you can check out the book, if you need to. And some of the contents of this entry come from personal experiences, and just my thoughts. Thanks. And by the way, I don’t hate men, I may sound like I am with this entry, but I don’t. Thanks again.

world peace

congratulation to my dear sister for winning Ms. Behavioral Science 2005 at UST!

couldn't be more proud!!

on the streets of berkeley

i couldn't believe myself when my tito brought me near the UCBerkeley campus. Aside from SFO downtown, there is another place i could enjoy. The place was hip, due to all the college students wandering around, and hanging out at the Cafe's and Resto's. and so what could be a better place than a place where there are a lot of bookstores. as ive said before, take me to a bookstore, and i'd glady be lost in it.

I was debating on buying angels and demons, shopahalic takes manhattan and trading up at Cobys. And then the very kuripot me couldn't convince myself to spend 7.99$ plus tax on a paperback book. so i told myself, there's a lot of bookstores around the area,plus why would i let this pass? when i scored a 5$ The Rule of four copy in Costco and another 11$ both for The Wedding and The Notebook at Target. So i said, no, i'll look around.

There we're little stalls, actually,just tables on the sidewalks, mostly selling accesories. there was one man, who was making rings,keychains etc, from spoons! yes spoons! i was going to buy one,but i told myself, the plan of the day was for books. but when i passed by this other man,who was also selling silver accesories,i couldn't resist on buying a pair of hoops.it was actually not cheap (converting!!!) but i knew it was a good buy,since i've been looking around for hoops in manila, but i never found this kind, its thin and the hook was good. so there. and then i bought something for jog and i to wear. im not gonna say what it was, coz i know he passes by this blog sometimes..(kinda checking on me..haha)

and then we found MOE's, which was haven for used books. I found Shopaholic in Manhattan plus Angels and Demons, paperback and its half the retail price!!!ah! i got both!patience is really a virtue.. so i was all giddy, and excited about my fab finds.

and then, we ate dinner at in and out. i had cheeseburger and their fresh french fries,why fresh? it's from real potatoes, and they peel and cut on the day it is served. that's what they are known for. and its true,its good.

so today, im $20 poorer but 2 books and some silver richer!

why i love san francisco

1. victorian houses
2.good climate (though its really gets cold on some days during summer,i think its still good)
3. its the home of Ghiraldelli
5. chinatown
6. union square
7.cable car

thats all that i could think of right now..i still have SFO-downtown-hangover!

is she or is she not?

so i guess the rumors are not true..hmmm

music through YM

remembering Bo Bice in American Idol...

I Don't Want to Be by Gavin DeGraw, from the album "Chariot"

I don't need to be anything other than a prison guard's son
I don't need to be anything other than a specialist's son
I don't have to be anyone other than a birth of two souls in one
Part of where I'm going, is knowing where I'm coming from

I don't want to be anything other than what I've been trying to be lately
All I have to do is think of me and I have peace of mind
I
'm tired of looking 'round rooms wondering what I've got to doOr who
I'm supposed to beI don't want to be anything other than me
I'm surrounded by liars everywhere I turn
I'm surrounded by imposters everywhere I turn
I'm surrounded by an identity crisis everywhere I turnAm
I the only one who noticed?I can't be the only one who's learned

I don't want to be anything other than what I've been trying to be lately
All I have to do is think about me and I have peace of mind
I'm tired of looking 'round rooms wondering what I've got to doOr who I'm supposed to be
I don't want to be anything other than me
Can I have everyone's attention please?
If you're not like this and that, you're gonna have to leave
I came from the mountain, the crust of creation
My whole situation - made from clay to stone
And now I'm telling everybody

I don't want to be anything other than what I've been trying to be lately
All I have to do is think of me and I have peace of mind
I'm tired of looking 'round rooms wondering what I'm trying to doOr who
I'm supposed to beI don't want to be anything other than me
I don't want to be

and as of writing, my favorite is playing...She will be loved

wake up...its a beautiful morning...

definitely a good day!

when i almost gave up, and admitted to myself that I am no techie...I finally figured out the Wi-Fi of my laptop. (that is until i get home to manila,cause i'm sure my dad's gonna take over this amazing thing)

Hurray!!! Wireless unlimited internet access...

And i'm just hoping, if i am not asking for too much, that this has bluetooth installed.

so tonight, i'll be chatting with my mom, in this computer. yihee!

6 flags... but nothing beats ashton kutcher

we went to 6 flags today,with the heat,traffic and all. i just saw the rides. ( i wouldn't ride those alone,i have the perfect excuse right?) i was with my lola, my tito and lil cuz. so who would be beside me to cover my eyes with and scream like I've seen David Beckham?

but i actually had fun seeing the dolphins, as they splashed water on us. then there were seals, walruses (my first encounter), pink flamingos, a butterfly garden (so hot,or should i say it was humid inside),Nate feed the giraffe but was a little scared,we passed by the cheetah, and to my surprise there were elephants,and you could actually ride them.


but what really made my day was (of course aside from chatting with jog,ehem) watching GUESS WHO?



i remember A Lot like love was the last movie i saw in Manila, the last movie jog and i saw.

my favorite part of that movie was when he sang, "i'll be there for you,this five words i'll say is true"


so there, until i find more pictures of him in guess who, i will just have to be contented with this...

WOULDN'T IT BE NICE

Wouldn't it be nice if we were older
Then we wouldn't have to wait so long
And wouldn't it be nice to live together
In the kind of world where we belong

You know its gonna make it that much better
When we can say goodnight and stay together

Wouldn't it be nice if we could wake up
In the morning when the day is new
And after having spent the day together
Hold each other close the whole night through

Happy times together we've been spending
I wish that every kiss was neverending
Wouldn't it be nice

Maybe if we think and wish and hope and pray it might come true
Baby then there wouldn't be a single thing we couldn't do
We could be married
And then we'd be happy

Wouldn't it be nice

You know it seems the more we talk about it
It only makes it worse to live without it
But lets talk about it
Wouldn't it be nice

Good night my baby
Sleep tight my baby

"YOU LEARN"

It's been a month since I left home.

My dad's parting words were "You Learn". Somehow I've influenced my dad's music taste, as he also likes Alanis.(hehe)

So what have i learned?

I've learned that...

I Love my family so much

Not that i don't feel that when i was with them, but i never really knew how much love i have for them. Sure we all love our families, but as they say we sometimes don't appreciate the things and people that we have until we are seperated from them or worst when they are gone. So being miles away from my family,made me only realize that I'm still not fully independent. That I'm so attached to them, that i don't think i can manage to have a job overseas sometime in the future.(unless there would be a great need for me to)

true blu NOYPI

i think it's been obvious in my past entries, that i've got so much patriotism. Although they have some of the best priviledges, i still love being a Filipino.

I can live without music..or just a little

all the music that i get is from the radio car whenenver we go out, or MTV, which i don't really watch often cause i'd rather choose style network or food tv.

bend it (like beckham)(i like saying beckham every chance that i get.hehe)

that you just hav to bend the asparagus to remove the hard part,so you dont have to eat all the hard and stringy part

im the cheeziest of all cheezizum

I didn't know im this cheesy!
I'm missing boyfriend as well, of course, and he has been the kindest, most understanding bf in the planet! He has been patient with me, even if sometimes i get impatient and bratty on YM. He has been understanding and supportive of this whole set-up. and most importantly, there was never a day since i got here that i didn't felt loved by him.And baby, i'm not saying this just because you sent the harry potter book 6 and 11 minutes.hehe. i mean it. your the coolest! and i luv u! yihee!


for now,i guess thats just it.but i'm sure there's more for me to learn in the remaining months i'll be spending here. and to what are those i do not know, but this i'm sure...it will make me wiser.

50 FIRST DATES

i don't know anybody who watched this movie and didn't like it...

we rented the dvd, and so i remebered how i came to know this movie...Jog actually watched it na, then he said it was good, then we watched it at home. we were just starting out at that time..well..i didn't watched it on the theater cause i was not sure.but now, if its Adam Sandler, i wouldn't think twice about it.

forgetful lucy

The Hukilau was the place Where I first saw your face We liked each other right away But you didn´t remember me the very next day Forgetful Lucy Has got a nice caboosey I used to trick you into pulling your car over so we could chat But my favorite time was when you beat the shit out of Ula with a bat Then we drove up to see Dr. Keats And found out why Doug always has to change his sheets Forgetful Lucy Cracked her head like Gary Busey But I still love her so And I´ll never let her go Even if while I´m singing this song She´s wishing I had Jocko the walrus´ schlong Forgetful Lucy Her lips are so damn juicy How about another first kiss

love song

Whenever I´m alone with you, you make me feel Like I am home again Whenever I´m alone with you, you make me feel like I am whole again Whenever I´m alone with you, you make me feel Like I am young again Whenever I´m alone with you, you make me feel like I am fun again However far away, I will always love you, However long I stay, I will always love you, Whatever words I say, I will always love you, I will always love you Whenever I´m alone with you, You make me feel like I am free again, Whenever I´m alone with you, You make me feel like I am clean again However far away, I will always love you, However long I stay, I will always love you, Whatever words I say, I will always love you, I will always love you

LYRICS FROM: http://www.letrascanciones.org