moving forward?
Why does it seem that everytime i tell close friends that I am going some place this month they are all "Whoa! Good for you!"
And these past few days that I've been catching up with friends, trying to make up for the lost time, and trying to spend the time i have left, they all seem to be happy and they say it's great news.
It is. really. but first everyone should know that its not for vacation but for a family emergency's sake. it seems like, everyone thinks that it would be fun fun fun! lalalala! opportunity! i mean, Im going there to help my Tita. Although, yah, its an opportunity to travel, travel alone and be in the place i love since the first time i saw it. but hey its not all wows and ahhs!
a friend was telling me, that i could get a job, and apply for a working visa maybe stay there for good and im like, wait! i am not going there for employment.
i know, it's an opportunity and who knows, but my main purpose and only goal is to help my dear tita, who has been good to me and my family. yes, maybe if an opportunity rises, well, why not? i know a lot of people who'd do anything to be given a chance to work there. but if it will defeat my purpose, i wouldn't think twice in dropping it.
and has anyone thought of the family i'll be leaving here?
i know, this is not the country some of us would choose to be part of right now with all the crises were in. but i don't think leaving the country is the solution. i don't think that moving forward means moving forward to a different place, a different country.
i mean, it's not so bad. i may sound so patriotic but what's so bad about that?
and i remember the paper i submitted to my teacher in ENGCOM1, about the SONA of former President Estrada, he wrote a note saying..."What have you done lately?"
because in my paper i wrote that although, He had so many plans undone, he should not be solely blamed for our country's situation.
so, i might be leaving Manila for a while, but I am definitely coming back to my home..
Friday, June 03, 2005
Monday, May 30, 2005
Im still alive
I totally forgot! Its Kikaye’s 1st birthday this month!!!! Its been a year of blah blah and fun of making myself heard or should I say read. thanks for all those who take their time to drop by and catch up with me.
There’s not much going on that is worth writing, so I have been absent in my own sanctuary.
In the past two weeks, there was a chance or a thought I should say of employment. But I was rejected having not being able to answer what the interviewer wanted to hear. Or should I say what she wanted to get or maybe she didn’t hear what she always does.
At the same time, the plans of me going to help a relative became clearer and sooner.
I think what had happened was just meant to be.
I am looking forward on this trip, being able to help and the thought of traveling alone for the first time is a good thing but I couldn’t help but think of all the things, places and specially people that I am going to miss.
I will not be able to cook dinner anymore for my family every night. I might miss the chance of helping my sister plan for her debut, although I already thought of just emailing and chatting with her to make the necessary arrangements. Princess might not remember me anymore when I get back 6 months later. Soap operas every night after dinner and during dinner.
I will miss birthdays of friends: Nina, Gian, Anne, Mira and of course Jog’s. It could have been his second birthday together but as fate would have it, we have to celebrate it miles apart.
I am going to miss everything about our house, and my bumming around. Its just some of the things that I’m going to miss.
Yesterday, Jog took me to Roxas Boulevard. We ate siomai, squid balls, balut, dirty ice cream, fries and Mc Float. Just one of the most creative dates Jog has taken me to, he also wrote me a poem. It was funny, mayabang but heartfelt. It was the assurance I needed.
I am blessed with a loving family, reliable and trustworthy friends, and a boyfriend who is caring, funny, honest, mushy at times and crazy. I always say this, but I am the luckiest girl. I may sound arrogant but I guess I’m just grateful.
Tuesday, May 17, 2005
PJP II
I recieved this from email...
Friends,
In less than 24 hours more than 2,000 people from all over the world have
signed the petition to proclaim that Pope John Paul II should be known
henceforth and forever as John Paul the Great. Not bad. But we need many
more.
We need a million names. So, it will take more than the faithful readers
of the Friday Fax to make this happen.
Each of you who read this message must send this to all of your family and
friends. And each of them must send it to their family and friends.
If you run an email report, send this out to your readers. If you have a
radio show, mention this on air. We can generate a million signatures and
these millions names will make a global splash.
Direct your family, friends, colleagues, strangers to PJPthegreat
and have them sign the petition. Then have them send their own alert to
their family and friends to get them to sign.
Do it now, friends.
Best regards,
Austin Ruse
President
C-FAM
PS Remember, the title "Great" is not bestowed by the Church. It is
bestowed by the people, by public acclamation, and by historical use.
Let's start this right now!
Friday, May 13, 2005
CHEAP THRILLS
All Under P100
All Under P100
- V-cut and Piattos Cheese flavor chips
- Pancakes with Pancake syrup
- Belgian Waffle with whipped cream and caramel sauce
- Jell-o
- Sarsi
- Mc Float
- Jungle sundae Cone (the new stalls at the mall)
- Plato Wraps
- Palmolive Naturals Shampoo (violet)
- Hello Panda
- Catching an episode of Desperate Housewives! (Soon!)
- Cheese Whiz with Pandesal
- Passing through Quirino Highway, being able to stare at Borgy Manotoc’s Blue Soda’s billboard. (big grin on my face)
- Watching Entertainment Tonight (gossip!)
- Slouching on my mom’s new comfy chair!
Yey!
And I found this in one of my files.. I got this 2 years ago from an email.
Think about them one at a time BEFORE going on to the next one.........
IT DOES MAKE YOU FEEL GOOD specially the thought at the end.
1.Falling in love.
2. Laughing so hard your face hurts.
3. A hot shower.
4. No lines at the supermarket
5. A special glance.
6. Getting mail
7. Taking a drive on a pretty road.
8. Hearing your favorite song on the radio.
9. Lying in bed listening to the rain outside.
10. Hot towels fresh out of the dryer.
11. Finding the sweater you want is on sale for half price.
12. Chocolate milkshake. (or vanilla!) (or strawberry)
13. A long distance phone call.
14. A bubble bath.
15. Giggling.
16. A good conversation.
17. The beach
18. Finding a 20 note in your coat from last winter.
19. Laughing at yourself.
20. Midnight phone calls that last for hours.
21. Running through sprinklers.
22. Laughing for absolutely no reason at all.
23. Having someone tell you that you're beautiful.
24. Laughing at an inside joke.
25. Friends.
26. Accidentally overhearing someone say something nice about you.
27. Waking up and realizing you still have a few hours left to sleep.
28. Your first kiss (either the very first or with a new partner).
29. Making new friends or spending time with old ones.
30. Playing with a new puppy.
31. Having someone play with your hair.
32. Sweet dreams.
33. Hot chocolate.
34. Road trips with friends.
35. Swinging on swings.
36. Wrapping presents under the Christmas tree while eating cookies and drinking your
favorite tipple.
37. Song lyrics printed inside your new CD so you can sing along without feeling stupid.
38. Going to a really good concert.
39. Making eye contact with a cute stranger
40. Winning a really competitive game.
41. Making chocolate chip cookies.
42. Having your friends send you homemade cookies.
43. Spending time with close friends.
44. Seeing smiles and hearing laughter from your friends.
45. Holding hands with someone you care about.
46. Running into an old friend and realizing that some things (good or bad)
47. Riding the best roller coasters over and over.
48. Watching the expression on someone's face as they open a much desired present from you.
49. Watching the sunrise.
50. Getting out of bed every morning and being grateful for another beautiful day.
2. Laughing so hard your face hurts.
3. A hot shower.
4. No lines at the supermarket
5. A special glance.
6. Getting mail
7. Taking a drive on a pretty road.
8. Hearing your favorite song on the radio.
9. Lying in bed listening to the rain outside.
10. Hot towels fresh out of the dryer.
11. Finding the sweater you want is on sale for half price.
12. Chocolate milkshake. (or vanilla!) (or strawberry)
13. A long distance phone call.
14. A bubble bath.
15. Giggling.
16. A good conversation.
17. The beach
18. Finding a 20 note in your coat from last winter.
19. Laughing at yourself.
20. Midnight phone calls that last for hours.
21. Running through sprinklers.
22. Laughing for absolutely no reason at all.
23. Having someone tell you that you're beautiful.
24. Laughing at an inside joke.
25. Friends.
26. Accidentally overhearing someone say something nice about you.
27. Waking up and realizing you still have a few hours left to sleep.
28. Your first kiss (either the very first or with a new partner).
29. Making new friends or spending time with old ones.
30. Playing with a new puppy.
31. Having someone play with your hair.
32. Sweet dreams.
33. Hot chocolate.
34. Road trips with friends.
35. Swinging on swings.
36. Wrapping presents under the Christmas tree while eating cookies and drinking your
favorite tipple.
37. Song lyrics printed inside your new CD so you can sing along without feeling stupid.
38. Going to a really good concert.
39. Making eye contact with a cute stranger
40. Winning a really competitive game.
41. Making chocolate chip cookies.
42. Having your friends send you homemade cookies.
43. Spending time with close friends.
44. Seeing smiles and hearing laughter from your friends.
45. Holding hands with someone you care about.
46. Running into an old friend and realizing that some things (good or bad)
47. Riding the best roller coasters over and over.
48. Watching the expression on someone's face as they open a much desired present from you.
49. Watching the sunrise.
50. Getting out of bed every morning and being grateful for another beautiful day.
Just spreading some love!
The best things in life are free!
Have a nice one!
Monday, May 09, 2005
HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY
During sunday school, a small boy was told that its God who makes bad people good. "I know" said the little boy. "But mothers help a lot, too." - that's from Lucy Torres' column today.
To my Lola Tess and Lola Letty, thank you for giving us (Alexis, Dondi and I) loving parents.
To my Mom, who has always been the kindest, most loving, and cool Mom I've known.
To my Lola Angeling, for raising our super kulit Lolo Tony.
To my Tita Leng, for giving us Nathan.
To Tita Baby, for raising 5 kids and her grandchildren.
To Wena, for giving the cuties Sir, Lady and Princess.
To my friends mom's, if not for them i may not have the most dependable and honest friends.
Tita Lai, Tita Sally and Tita Ellen.
For my my friends
Cheese, Pam, Lei, Hannah and Vanessa, the new generation of mothers, for giving me inaanaks, Caley, Aiken, Kalel and Nynna.
HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!!!
It is indeed the toughest job, but all of you have been good at it!
During sunday school, a small boy was told that its God who makes bad people good. "I know" said the little boy. "But mothers help a lot, too." - that's from Lucy Torres' column today.
To my Lola Tess and Lola Letty, thank you for giving us (Alexis, Dondi and I) loving parents.
To my Mom, who has always been the kindest, most loving, and cool Mom I've known.
To my Lola Angeling, for raising our super kulit Lolo Tony.
To my Tita Leng, for giving us Nathan.
To Tita Baby, for raising 5 kids and her grandchildren.
To Wena, for giving the cuties Sir, Lady and Princess.
To my friends mom's, if not for them i may not have the most dependable and honest friends.
Tita Lai, Tita Sally and Tita Ellen.
For my my friends
Cheese, Pam, Lei, Hannah and Vanessa, the new generation of mothers, for giving me inaanaks, Caley, Aiken, Kalel and Nynna.
HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!!!
It is indeed the toughest job, but all of you have been good at it!
Friday, May 06, 2005
So sue me!
I hate being clingy.
I hate being needy, whiney, and overly sensitive.
And that’s what I’m just beginning to be.
And I just hate it.
I cannot believe I’ve said HATE again.
And if I continue being like this, I might end up like what a lot people hate.
And if don’t get back to my old self A.S.A.P, I would be single all over again. (the bf’s kinda losing his patience on me, although he has not said yet, I just know, women intuition)
And just when I’m working on it, PLDT Vibe is making me back to the bwiset mode. Don’t you just love it?
I’m still jobless, and everyday becomes a routine of boredom and Bum-ness, if there is a word.
And that may be just the reason why I’m all this grumpy. The only thing I’ve accomplished this far, is baking cookies and making leche flan. Which was all a success by the way.
Another thing that makes me cranky is the weather. I don’t need exclamation points for that, don’t I? And I don’t have to tell you it’s HOT. Unless you’re in an air-conditioned office or the luxury of having one at home, well you may not be able to relate to that.
And just when I’ve gathered all my thoughts, this PC would hang. Of course! That would be the icing on my cake.
So far, as you could see, this week’s not been good for me. Except for Monday when we had our CSI Miami marathon and Yellow Cab pizza. That was a good day.
So there, I just want to spread the giddiness and good fortune I’ve been having.
Thursday, May 05, 2005
Monday, May 02, 2005
ink blots
i read my sunday newspaper, only to be inspired and realizing what really made me not want to write again. you see, ive been writing since Formal Theme's were required at school for English class. all i wanted to do was to write, compose essays, jot down random thoughts, doodle,thats all i do---except for poetry.i can't do poetry. writing was the only thing i knew i was good at to say the least.
until two years ago, i stopped writing and never had the apppetite to do so. i met this really great writer. when i read his compostions, i knew i couldn't be as good as him. instead of being inspired, i was discouraged.
i just wanted to write. i didn't want to be edited. i know i have great thoughts to share and be criticized for.
But there's fate and a little help from someone who believed in me.
that someone, although not really knowing my passion to write helped me be back on my pen and paper. i remember writing continuously one night, with a blank mind and words just kept my hand writing it all out. that's when i knew i got it back.
he didn't know anything. there was nothing special that he did,he just believed in me and in everything that i did.
and with all that drama, comes my blog and 10+ notebooks, filled with my thoughts and my heart.
forgiveness
i think i haven't. and i'm giving myself time, to get all the bitterness and pain out. i need time, this has been happening to me 4 times in 22 years. something must be really wrong with me, or i'm just destined to meet these kind of people and make me learn the same lesson over and over again. it's like math!
CURRENT CRAVING: chocolate!!!!!
i read my sunday newspaper, only to be inspired and realizing what really made me not want to write again. you see, ive been writing since Formal Theme's were required at school for English class. all i wanted to do was to write, compose essays, jot down random thoughts, doodle,thats all i do---except for poetry.i can't do poetry. writing was the only thing i knew i was good at to say the least.
until two years ago, i stopped writing and never had the apppetite to do so. i met this really great writer. when i read his compostions, i knew i couldn't be as good as him. instead of being inspired, i was discouraged.
i just wanted to write. i didn't want to be edited. i know i have great thoughts to share and be criticized for.
But there's fate and a little help from someone who believed in me.
that someone, although not really knowing my passion to write helped me be back on my pen and paper. i remember writing continuously one night, with a blank mind and words just kept my hand writing it all out. that's when i knew i got it back.
he didn't know anything. there was nothing special that he did,he just believed in me and in everything that i did.
and with all that drama, comes my blog and 10+ notebooks, filled with my thoughts and my heart.
forgiveness
i think i haven't. and i'm giving myself time, to get all the bitterness and pain out. i need time, this has been happening to me 4 times in 22 years. something must be really wrong with me, or i'm just destined to meet these kind of people and make me learn the same lesson over and over again. it's like math!
CURRENT CRAVING: chocolate!!!!!
Saturday, April 30, 2005
Googlism for: kaye
kaye is a punter of screenarts
kaye is available for online support and help every
kaye is professor x (HAHA!)
kaye is professor to his x (HAHA!)
kaye is revving up for adventure
kaye is missing last seen in ny reward of no reward
kaye is a flower herself
kaye is a fabulous cd
kaye is a world authority on career (I WISH!)
kaye is available for online support and help every thursday evening at talk city
kaye is the subject of several emails i receive a week asking about property investment techniques and real estate investing seminars in Australia (WOW!)
kaye is comming back soon
kaye is revving up for adventure soap dish magazine
kaye is of counsel with the firm and a member of the firm's science & technology
kaye is keeping one of florida's oldest native crafts alive (COOL!)
kaye is a giving and loving person
kaye is a trainer dealing with bereavement and long
kaye is still on her own exciting journey of enlightenment (ahuh!)
kaye is a secluded
kaye is your partner in success
kaye is an associate in the health law department of mcdermott
kaye is an associate in the corporate department of mcdermott
kaye is an advanced reflexologist and bach flower remedies prctitioner covering the manchester
kaye is also a classical flutist (I’M NOT! HAHA!)
kaye is an unabashed fan of the great american songbook
kaye is the kewlest; mark
kaye is board certified in general psychiatry
kaye is a native of monmouth county
kaye is again doing the thing he loves (actually, it’s a SHE)
kaye is also adjunct professor in the faculty of education
kaye is either a visionary artist on a fearless crusade against hollywood's dumbed
kaye is an experienced public defender
kaye is an attorney residing in new york city (cool!)
kaye is finding success through its brand name
kaye is signed by educational pictures to be featured in two
kaye is the director of olin (what’s olin?)
kaye is responsible for the research and data analysis programs in the office of earth science ( I hardly passed Natural Sciences!)
kaye is indistinguishable from the words that have become in our own time "key" and "quay" and evidence from other countries suggests
kaye is described as the glue that holds the stark/billings extension office together ( I am!)
kaye is a medical oncologist
kaye is always
kaye is a world authority on career development
kaye is the most senior world tang soo do association instructor in the state college area
kaye is quick to point out
kaye is best known to abc daytime fans as irresistible poet patrick thornhart of "one life to live (interesting!)
kaye is a master at turning learning tasks into easy games
kaye is an experienced archival researcher and historian of two cultures
kaye is the only artist in her whole family and tq is the only non
kaye is a member of the board of directors for prime wood
kaye is also a contributing editor for picture framing magazine
kaye is an associate in the litigation department
kaye is not completely alone (true)
kaye is often weighted down by the ham
kaye is pleased to announce the release of version 2
kaye is no newcomer to success (inspiring)
kaye is a psychologist with a license to practice in north carolina
kaye is investigating firewalls
kaye is a primary school teacher from bunbury who has a unique way of bringing life and excitement into her classroom each day
kaye is also finely attuned to 'eddying inconstancy of lawrence's reactions to dostoyevsky
kaye is a one man "tongue
kaye is a highly regarded vocal instructor (in another lifetime, I guess…hehe)
kaye is widely exhibited in the new york (wow! To myself!)
kaye is given a surprise birthday party and learns that terry got the role she wanted (its ok, you cant have everything once)
kaye is not a pop
kaye is a "forty
kaye is
kaye is putting together her book of memoirs (soon!)
kaye is the only local entertainer to perform in every major venue in houston
kaye is askance at the thoughts
kaye is a private
kaye is a paid secretary
kaye is an international feng shui expert with her company environmental balance
kaye is a dynamic keynote speaker whose presentations
kaye is a really bad aimer
kaye is known for its truly hospitable
kaye is a writer
kaye is the author of the two all
kaye is best known as the guitar player for patti smith
kaye is one of those true rarities in the upper levels of professional golf (I cant be a flutist and play golf and be good at those at the same time right? hehehe)
kaye is a registered teacher and an experienced consultant (keyword: teacher)
kaye is managing editor of u&lc (keyword: editor)
kaye is always delightful
kaye is the originator of the popular "lovequilt connection"
kaye is an it strategy consultant and author
kaye is using psychophysiological techniques to measure the timing of brain activity to look at the relationship between emotions and brain function in
kaye is the only female on the team at deep sky
kaye is the manager of water treatment and distribution operations for tmwa
kaye is a native texan and lives in the dallas area with her partner of seventeen years and two dogs
kaye is like so many other black gospel stars in america in that her enormous talents are appreciated and revered in places like paris
kaye is the most versatile voice talent i have ever used
kaye is now both a musician and a band
kaye is a dedicated professional with an exhilarating difference
kaye is working on a new format for the character
kaye is honored to play a small part in helping him grow his dream
kaye is not the place for you (ha!)
kaye is an accomplished artist with a bachelor of science degree in art and elementary education from dickinson state university
try it! www.googlism.com
Friday, April 29, 2005
my thoughts
Constantine should have not been voted out of the American Idol. It's a shame!
Alright! i fancy him, but hey he has talent and he should have been a part of the final 3. kung si Jasmine Trias nga eh!! arrgh!
anyway, ive finished Gossip Girl and Bergdorf Blondes. Berdorf, was hilarious. Better than Candace Bushnell's Four Blondes. Although i kinda predicted the love story part, but still it was funny and fast paced. I couldn't put that book down.
Gossip Girl was ok. I could have appreciated it more if i read that when i was in Highschool though...
i'm officially a B-U-M.
and my daily routine is as boring as it could get. i wake up, eat, read/watch or sleep. cook dinner, watch, internet or sleep.
*sigh*
please help!
Constantine should have not been voted out of the American Idol. It's a shame!
Alright! i fancy him, but hey he has talent and he should have been a part of the final 3. kung si Jasmine Trias nga eh!! arrgh!
anyway, ive finished Gossip Girl and Bergdorf Blondes. Berdorf, was hilarious. Better than Candace Bushnell's Four Blondes. Although i kinda predicted the love story part, but still it was funny and fast paced. I couldn't put that book down.
Gossip Girl was ok. I could have appreciated it more if i read that when i was in Highschool though...
i'm officially a B-U-M.
and my daily routine is as boring as it could get. i wake up, eat, read/watch or sleep. cook dinner, watch, internet or sleep.
*sigh*
please help!
Friday, April 22, 2005
American Idol
Just watched the eliminations, and I cannot believe that America voted Anwar off the competition. He may not have the charms of Constantine, but definitely he should not have been the one eliminated tonight.
Oh, well. That’s life.
To work or not to work
I’ve been contemplating on working or have a little more vacation before working. Really, I want to work. But I got a lot of unsolicited advice that I should take a little time off before working. It makes sense, since working may mean no sem breaks and summer breaks. But I’m also really excited to work and, ok, I admit that earning my own money is the real motivation here. I know this should not be the reason why I want to work, and I know I might regret or get sawa agad. But hey! I can’t help but think that I will be able to afford some of my luho.
And there is one field I want and would really love to pursue. I’m just chicken to submit my resume and sample works. I may not be good enough kasi… and this is something I’ve been unconsciously into for years now. And because I love this so much, I know that if they reject me, I may not want to continue doing this, and I’d be scarred for life.
So there, I might just be contented keeping this blog and be unedited for all I care!
Not much done this week. Much more today! Might try to clean up my desk later after cooking dinner.
Ciao!
Tuesday, April 19, 2005
My Sassy Girl
Its funny how I’ve come to know this film. It was through Don, my boyfriend’s friend who knew about this movie. Don had a DVD copy, the three of them, Bobot, Jog and Don watched it one lazy afternoon. And their definition of fate changed.
As my boyfriend says it “hinawakan ako ng movie na yan”. Jog couldn’t stop talking about it, and he kept on saying I’ll borrow the CD para mapanood mo. So I told myself, it must be really good. And one time on the phone, I heard Bobot trying hard to speak Korean.
Last Night, I was able to watch it. Finally. It’s a Korean movie based on the stories written by Kim Sik Ho on the internet. And as always, I cried. The movie was simple, it was moving and if you’re in a good relationship it will make you thank the heavens you are in that relationship.
For the hopeless romantics, and those who just simply love to watch movies, this movie will definitely be in your Favorite Movies List.
I wrote my bf a new testimonial, all because of this movie. I was inspired and I know those who have watched it also has been moved by this beautiful love story.
I’d like to close this entry by quoting the old man in the movie who gave me, Jog, Bobot and Don a new definition of fate…
“Fate is making a bridge of chance for your love”
good day
Aside from having a good sleep after a good movie, it was a good day.
I went to school to return my toga, and I went home with two good books with for the price I still cannot believe.
I’ve been wanting to buy Bergdorf Blondes, I knew reading this will lift up my spirits. P339 was a pretty ok price for the book, I had E-purse worth P120 from Laking National so I said, Why not?
Then the cashier said I only need to add P140, I couldn’t be any happier. Books are on sale pala in NATIONAL BOOKSTORE!!!!! 20% off! On all imported books!! I believe Angels and Demons are on Sale, so as Five People you meet in heaven, Da Vinci Code and lotsa more. I think Paolo Coelho too. So for all yah bookworms, head to National its only until May 1.
P226 na lang ang Bergdorf! I also bought Gossip Girl for P195. That’s why it’s a good day!
Saturday, April 16, 2005
batch 2005
430 AM my phone rings, it's jeline doing her wake up call. i looked at my clock and i can't believe i'm waking up this early. had to wake my whole family up.
5 AM had to iron my skirt and toga.
530 AM still in the house, waiting for my hair to dry. assembly time is 6, and we're all still not prepared.
610 AM we arrived just in time. jeline was already waiting inside, it was just the two of us pa lang.
i wanted to wear my lavander shoes, but it was said in our practice that it should be black, closed shoes! aaaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrgh! fashion dilemma.
here are our pictures
430 AM my phone rings, it's jeline doing her wake up call. i looked at my clock and i can't believe i'm waking up this early. had to wake my whole family up.
5 AM had to iron my skirt and toga.
530 AM still in the house, waiting for my hair to dry. assembly time is 6, and we're all still not prepared.
610 AM we arrived just in time. jeline was already waiting inside, it was just the two of us pa lang.
i wanted to wear my lavander shoes, but it was said in our practice that it should be black, closed shoes! aaaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrgh! fashion dilemma.
here are our pictures
FINAL FOUR
ME AND MY JOWA
JUST BEFORE MARCHING
Sunday, April 10, 2005
ANECDOTE
One lazy hot afternoon my boyfriend and I spent almost three hours on the phone like a high school couple. It’s surprising that even if we talk on a daily basis, we still have so much to talk about. This one that I’m going to share with you still make me laugh when I think about it.
We were talking about these girls that they’ve met and usually hangs out with them in Alabang. So I was teasing him which one was his crush. (names are changed)
JOG: dun nakilala ni Bobot si Denice.
KAYE : ah, dun ba ?!
JOG: oo, at saka yung isa si Maureen na mejo date din ni Anton
KAYE: ah, yung crush mo
JOG: HELLOOO? Siya ang may crush sa akin!
Hahaha. It may not be so funny to you, but if you just heard how my boyfriend
Said hello like a girl, it is damn funny for me!
Saturday, April 02, 2005
Enjoy your shoes
I love shoes. Who girl doesn’t? I especially love tsinelas. And its just recently that I’ve realized that on every birthday or so, if there’s something I ask for its for shoes.
On my first year in college I begged my mom to buy me Birkenstocks, the white and blue one. Then on my 18th birthday, I couldn’t resist to ask for these oh-so-comfy Bass thongs. Then there was the Nike Presto craze, I had searched and searched for the perfect one. Just before my birthday, I got the black leather ones and a surprise human traffic encounter (that’s another story). Then Last year it was Happy Feet, and this year it has got to be Haviannas. I know the craze started last year, but I was contemplating on how much it cost! And my metro sexual boyfriend who has been sssshhhing the idea (of buying so expensive rubber slippers), bought us the cheaper, also comfortable, locally made BEACHWALK as an alternative. I love it, and its black. It’s great on torn jeans and stuff but I knew my heart could not rest without having my pair of Haviannas.
Shoe conquest
And so, on a spontaneous afternoon, with my boyfriend and our friend Don, I hoped Rustan’s U still has a size 6, baby blue (the color I was planning to have, I have enough pink) Haviannas. As I saw the little stall they have for Haviannas and a note that said they do not accept reservations due to the high demand of the made in Brazil slippers, I knew this would not be a glorious I-finally-have-it moment. Not to mention the crowd of women, hoping and fighting for their own pair. It took me tons of trying all the color and style and we went back to Rustan’s twice before I made the decision of my life.
First problem: after all the trying and the struggle to have the chance to try that pair that another woman holds, when I decided on which pair I liked, they did not have size 7-8, which I thought was a better fit than the size 5-6. And when I almost wanted this pair, the color, the design, and the size, it was their last pair. Which I just found out, men don’t get. Well, jog and don we’re really good shopping partners, but they we’re of course, MEN. So they couldn’t understand that the LAST PAIR means, it was the pair everybody had tried on and are usually some sorta worn out and unclean. A pair nobody would want and a pair nobody would spend their money on. So, when I told them I liked this pair, and I’m not getting it because it’s the last pair, both hollered at me saying “ANO NAMAN NGAYON?” which made me laughed and realized why some men don’t have nice pair of shoes. But Don said, the rubber shoes he was wearing was a former “last pair” and it turns out to be ok. So, yah they talked me out of it.
The runners up
Jog wanted me to have the blue and orange Hawaiian printed pair, he said it was really summer looking (I know, my boyfriend’s gay) but I thought and Don thought it’s too girly, and just for once I wanted not to be so girly. Don also thought I’m nuts and those other women also for spending almost a thousand on a pair of “tsinelas”. He wished his girlfriend Adine wouldn’t find out about it and wouldn’t think of buying.
I also tried on the baby blue pair I planned to buy. But it was their last pair.
Then there was this two toned blue and purple pair, that I thought was cool and so did Don.
I almost didn’t have that pair, when the lady said it was their last pair, but I asked my boyfriend to ooze that lady his charm and ask if they still have another pair since mine was the display. The lady, who was not so nice to me, said she’d try and look. And after a few minute she got the pair for me.
I went out of U feeling happy and accomplished. The two we’re teasing me like high school boys and my boyfriend made it more perfect when he gave me a kiss on the cheek.
Monday, March 28, 2005
Cleaning out my closet
While cleaning, I saw my second year report card. The only high school report card that I’m proud of. The lowest grade I got was 80, of course, from Math.
It gave back a lotta high school memories. From biology to boys. Jansport…Cattleya notebooks….beeper…
It also gave me the thought of if I only knew about…I should have…
Like, if I only took studying seriously I could have been one of those who had merit cards every after quarter. I should have not been pressured to have a boyfriend or had better judgment on whether I could deal with having a boyfriend or not.
I’m a person who does not like regretting things, but I must admit I do have some regrets on how I dealt with things when I was in high school. I see my sister, who had just graduated from high school and I see how she have been active on extra-curricular activities and that she’s going to study in the University she likes. I was very apprehensive to join school activities, I didn’t like being “pabibo” or being labeled as such.
Why do I regret?
I was not able to pass on ALL the universities I tried to get into. I remembered being one of the few who didn’t get into the course and school that they wanted. I remember the heartbreak I caused my parents and the disappointment I gave my younger sibs. I remember being so down, I thought of not going to college. The desperation and the emotional stress it gave my family and me.
And it doesn’t end with that. When I was able to enroll myself on a Computer School and took up a Computer engineering course, just when I thought I had it all figured out. I failed most of my major subjects. I knew what was wrong, besides not understanding Calculus; I knew this was not what I wanted. I was at a crossroads on whether to finish my course or go back to what I really want.
But I am blessed. I am blessed to have a supporting and loving family who was there to pick up the pieces with me. I am loved unconditionally, because never did I hear them blame me or say I am not good enough. Instead, they worried about how I felt and they tried to not make me worry about it. It was a tough experience but having a family like mine makes it not so painful.
So I transferred and shifted to the course I first loved, and started all over again.
On April 15, I am going to be one of the millions of Graduates of 2005. I have survived. Even if I have some regrets, I know that I will not be the person that I am today without all those wrong judgments and choices. It’s so cliché but the best lessons I’ve learned is from these experiences.
Lesson of this story: Never let anyone, even yourself, be defined by the mistakes you committed. Instead, gracefully pick up the pieces and continue to strive to be the best.
Saturday, March 26, 2005
Gluttony
Yesterday, I was able to clean our room. Salamat. But I haven’t organized our desk and my cabinet. I still have today and tomorrow.
We did Stations of the cross last night and had a late night dinner at our favorite Wai Ying. If you love dimsum and Chinese food, Wai Ying’s the place to be.hehe The prices are reasonable and delicious. I love Hakaw, that’s shrimp dumpling, their siomai is great. Before I always have their roasted duck with rice, but the duck fat sometimes gets so rich for my palate. My brother loves their Asado rice, my sister always orders their Mixed Congee and my Dad loves their Soy Chicken Mami. If you’re wondering where this is, it’s in Binondo. It’s a small place but we always find it always packed with people who love eating as much as my family does.
My family loves dining out, well eating is really the best word. Our delicious finds ranges from the best bulalo to the best mango pudding. But really, our family eating and that usually makes up our family time.
Sosings – it’s a carinderia at Vito Cruz Manila. For those who know Cash and Carry might know this place where the best Filipino meals are served. They have the best Caldereta, that even if I don’t like spicy foods I appreciated it.
Becky’s Kitchen – I think a lot has discovered this shop. It’s also in Vito Cruz, they have the best Walnut Brownies, food for the gods, tarts, and they’ve got it. If you have a sweet tooth, you better head here. During Christmas, as early as November, orders pile up, it’s hard to make reservations and order ahead, you usually have to go there early in the morning to make sure you can get your goodies for they run out early.
Don Henrico’s – my family’s favorite is their Buffalo Chicken, when they started out it was Buffalo Chicken, but they’ve changed it, and I guess to give customers the choice cuts of the chicken they would like.
Shopwise’s Ensaymada –the yummiest and would you belive they sell this mini ensaymada’s for 49.50 for 6! My brother can finish the a whole box in a minute.
Sugar Cane Juice and Soy Milk – you know Tubo? We know this store in Ongpin that sells the Tubo juice. You could actually see it as they take the tubo in the machine (a juicer, I suppose) that takes out the juice and the tubo comes out flat. We buy and I think it’s the best soy milk, in Wai Ying. The soy milk has texture and I think that makes it yummier.
Hungry Pac and Kookie Corner- I’m not really a chocolate fan, but when my mom bought home a chocolate cake form cookie corner, I was a convert. It’s not too sweet, just has the right chocolatey flavor. Hungry Pac, also has their own yummy Chocolate cake you wouldn’t mind taking another slice.
Belgian Waffle – At Starbucks of course, my favorite syrup is caramel. Before I liked strawberry, but when my friend Jen ordered caramel, I found it to be the best partner of coffee. My dad loves chocolate of course, but what he loves the best is the whipped cream.
Talaba- when I was growing up, we would go to cavite and have fresh talaba. Oysters, if you don’t know talaba. Oysters could actually give you a bad stomach once not eaten fresh or served right. It’s best to eat it with vinegar, as it slightly cooks it. I love oysters. And just last year, as we discovered Market Market, we also discovered Marina at their food court. They serve fresh oysters, and a bucket is only P150. My sister and I could finish a bucket for dinner.
Actually, these are just a few of my family’s food favorites. I might have forgotten to write the others. But really, having to share good food and conversation that makes these special to my family and me.
Yesterday, I was able to clean our room. Salamat. But I haven’t organized our desk and my cabinet. I still have today and tomorrow.
We did Stations of the cross last night and had a late night dinner at our favorite Wai Ying. If you love dimsum and Chinese food, Wai Ying’s the place to be.hehe The prices are reasonable and delicious. I love Hakaw, that’s shrimp dumpling, their siomai is great. Before I always have their roasted duck with rice, but the duck fat sometimes gets so rich for my palate. My brother loves their Asado rice, my sister always orders their Mixed Congee and my Dad loves their Soy Chicken Mami. If you’re wondering where this is, it’s in Binondo. It’s a small place but we always find it always packed with people who love eating as much as my family does.
My family loves dining out, well eating is really the best word. Our delicious finds ranges from the best bulalo to the best mango pudding. But really, our family eating and that usually makes up our family time.
Sosings – it’s a carinderia at Vito Cruz Manila. For those who know Cash and Carry might know this place where the best Filipino meals are served. They have the best Caldereta, that even if I don’t like spicy foods I appreciated it.
Becky’s Kitchen – I think a lot has discovered this shop. It’s also in Vito Cruz, they have the best Walnut Brownies, food for the gods, tarts, and they’ve got it. If you have a sweet tooth, you better head here. During Christmas, as early as November, orders pile up, it’s hard to make reservations and order ahead, you usually have to go there early in the morning to make sure you can get your goodies for they run out early.
Don Henrico’s – my family’s favorite is their Buffalo Chicken, when they started out it was Buffalo Chicken, but they’ve changed it, and I guess to give customers the choice cuts of the chicken they would like.
Shopwise’s Ensaymada –the yummiest and would you belive they sell this mini ensaymada’s for 49.50 for 6! My brother can finish the a whole box in a minute.
Sugar Cane Juice and Soy Milk – you know Tubo? We know this store in Ongpin that sells the Tubo juice. You could actually see it as they take the tubo in the machine (a juicer, I suppose) that takes out the juice and the tubo comes out flat. We buy and I think it’s the best soy milk, in Wai Ying. The soy milk has texture and I think that makes it yummier.
Hungry Pac and Kookie Corner- I’m not really a chocolate fan, but when my mom bought home a chocolate cake form cookie corner, I was a convert. It’s not too sweet, just has the right chocolatey flavor. Hungry Pac, also has their own yummy Chocolate cake you wouldn’t mind taking another slice.
Belgian Waffle – At Starbucks of course, my favorite syrup is caramel. Before I liked strawberry, but when my friend Jen ordered caramel, I found it to be the best partner of coffee. My dad loves chocolate of course, but what he loves the best is the whipped cream.
Talaba- when I was growing up, we would go to cavite and have fresh talaba. Oysters, if you don’t know talaba. Oysters could actually give you a bad stomach once not eaten fresh or served right. It’s best to eat it with vinegar, as it slightly cooks it. I love oysters. And just last year, as we discovered Market Market, we also discovered Marina at their food court. They serve fresh oysters, and a bucket is only P150. My sister and I could finish a bucket for dinner.
Actually, these are just a few of my family’s food favorites. I might have forgotten to write the others. But really, having to share good food and conversation that makes these special to my family and me.
Thursday, March 24, 2005
tap on my window, knock on my door,wanna make you feel beautiful....
i haven't gone to my ojt. if there's one thing i've progressed, it's my reading five people you meet in heaven..i'm reading the "second person eddie meets in heaven"
i'm lost..i just saw my old wallet, being used by my brother...without PERMISSION...Is that so hard to do???? i know that's where most of siblings fight like toddlers. arrgh!
anyways, we'll be spending this week at home. and i think it's a great idea, since most people will go out of town and the best places to go to this week will be crowded of the whole city's population..so, why waste time and money when you will not be able to relax and enjoy?
i'm planning to declutter our room, organize my cabinet and throw the things that i won't be needing next school year, since this is the last! (hurray!) i'm planning to change sheets, make labels for my books,keep nov-dec issues of my magazines,maybe bake some cake, have a friends marathon,and have siesta! haaaaaaaaay!
and, catch up on my reading pala! i hope my sister will be able to buy me chalk march issue. i can't wait for the april issue of 17, Anne and Paolo will be on the cover..hehe. i think i'll never ever grow up on that part...
hope everyone will have a peaceful and fun week! wherever you're planning to go...
be safe everyone!!
i haven't gone to my ojt. if there's one thing i've progressed, it's my reading five people you meet in heaven..i'm reading the "second person eddie meets in heaven"
i'm lost..i just saw my old wallet, being used by my brother...without PERMISSION...Is that so hard to do???? i know that's where most of siblings fight like toddlers. arrgh!
anyways, we'll be spending this week at home. and i think it's a great idea, since most people will go out of town and the best places to go to this week will be crowded of the whole city's population..so, why waste time and money when you will not be able to relax and enjoy?
i'm planning to declutter our room, organize my cabinet and throw the things that i won't be needing next school year, since this is the last! (hurray!) i'm planning to change sheets, make labels for my books,keep nov-dec issues of my magazines,maybe bake some cake, have a friends marathon,and have siesta! haaaaaaaaay!
and, catch up on my reading pala! i hope my sister will be able to buy me chalk march issue. i can't wait for the april issue of 17, Anne and Paolo will be on the cover..hehe. i think i'll never ever grow up on that part...
hope everyone will have a peaceful and fun week! wherever you're planning to go...
be safe everyone!!
Tuesday, March 22, 2005
happy birthday to me!
thanks for everyone who remembered!
alam niyo naman na i take note of those who greet me on my birthday. hehe. kababawan. salamat! your greetings made this day more special.
jog came over and gave a me a green v-necked blouse plus a kiss! hehehe
later, my mom ordered food for dinner and basically my birthday was spent here lang sa house. it was my choice, and besides, the important people in my life were present. except for tonet, who couldn't make it because her it's also her cousin's graduation.
i was not able to hear mass, but i know HE knows how grateful i am to spend another year with my family and friends. life has been good to me, if it has given me tough situations, it has also showered me with blessings like a loving family,friends who take me for me,a great guy for a bf,happiness,love,humility,good health and peace. also the material things that also matter to me (hehe) but not as much as the blessings i've mentioned.
and my wishes: i want a lot of things i want to happen this year...
thanks for everyone who remembered!
alam niyo naman na i take note of those who greet me on my birthday. hehe. kababawan. salamat! your greetings made this day more special.
jog came over and gave a me a green v-necked blouse plus a kiss! hehehe
later, my mom ordered food for dinner and basically my birthday was spent here lang sa house. it was my choice, and besides, the important people in my life were present. except for tonet, who couldn't make it because her it's also her cousin's graduation.
i was not able to hear mass, but i know HE knows how grateful i am to spend another year with my family and friends. life has been good to me, if it has given me tough situations, it has also showered me with blessings like a loving family,friends who take me for me,a great guy for a bf,happiness,love,humility,good health and peace. also the material things that also matter to me (hehe) but not as much as the blessings i've mentioned.
and my wishes: i want a lot of things i want to happen this year...
- i wish to be able to read more books on my to read list
- i wish for new and more shoes and bags if its not too much...hehe
- i wish for continued happiness
- i wish for peace..hehe world peace
- i wish for enlightenment...for me to be able to decide on which path to take
- i wish for my family and friends' good health
CHEERS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Monday, March 21, 2005
f.r.i.e.n.d.s
I don’t know why, but I might be known in High school as the girl who had a lot of friends. no, not the type who was friends with everyone. I had new set of Friends almost every year, but those who I’ve treasured are those who I still see every now and then. And I think it’s a good way of emotional exercise (if there is such a thing) to keep in touch with your friends, esp. your high school friends.
I got an unexpected text from my good friend Joy, we were supposed to see each other in our friend’s despida, but because of my thesis I wasn’t able to come. Here’s her text : Hi kaye! Kagagaling ko lang sa party ni romi, ewan ko ba bakit kita naisip kanina pa.hay, I juz realize some things kc yung situation k andami kong naging close nung HS but only a few talaga yung tingin ko na magsstay.kaye, alam ko na hindi nman tayo kabonded lately pro ewan ikaw yung naisiip ko na 1friend from HS na gsto ko makasama for a long tym.pls stay kaye.i wana share my life with you..andrama noh..wala lang..J mahal kita.
And no, she’s not lesbian. Her text may just sound like that. hehe but really, I appreciated that Joy sees me like that. When friends like joy and actually all my HS friends (they are the best), it makes me feel that at least I’ve done well. And makes me want to pay it forward. And this entry is for my friends who have accepted me as the crazy little woman that I am.
To Nina – who keeps us all laughing. Who never runs out of her funny antics and punch lines. The friend I had to share the whole summer before college with on the phone, talking about pancit canton and not having a school.
To Jen – who inspires me to be the best person. Who taught me the art of being nice to people who aren’t not so nice and you don’t like. And I wouldn’t forget the time when I thought the whole world will judge me, the first thing that she said was “so,how are you?”
To Florida- the one that insipires all of us and makes us all say “wow” and “amazing”. With all that she has achieved. She taught us that perseverance and hard work pays off.
To Vanessa – the one who’s always demanding with gimiks, the one who never fails to amaze us with her sometimes deadma reaction. And the one who’s giving us the first baby of the barkada.
To Dang – not much to say about dang, aside from always not being able to give us gifts on Christmas, she really does not belong in the group. hehe joke lang dang!
To Gian- my best friend of almost 8 years, she’s just the best when it comes to hearing me out and laughing at my stupid jokes. The best friend everyone would wish to have.
To Anne- the girl who always smiles even when there’s no reason. The girl with the shampoo commercial hair. Anne has been always matiyaga to plan out our get togethers and drives for us in our gimiks
To Romi- who has been a part of my life since Grade 6, we might have lost touch bt just like gian, we could pick it off from where we left it. I know that even if we have not been able to communicate lately, I know she considers me a friend and so do i.
To joy- who inspired me to write all this, if you’ll be able to read this, im sorry I wrote ur message here without your permission. And be assured that I’ll always be here no matter what.
To Pam- the bestfriend I thought I lost. and now the mommy of my inaanak aiken. She has been a friend for 7 years now, and when she said that she’s getting me as her first born’s god mother, I was touched. That made me realize how much she still values our friendship.
To Jho – the funniest gal I’ve ever met, next to Niña of course. She speaks her mind, and tells you as it is. The kind of an honest friend you sometimes don’t want to have.
College buddies:
To Tonet- my tiborcia jowa. I love you for being the kind, understanding, and supportive friend that you are to me. I thank you for your friendship and goodness you’ve shared with my bf and me. My days in EAC were not wasted because of your company.
To Larcy- I know I may sometimes forget that you are the first friend I had in EAC. But I hope you know that I’ll always be grateful for the friendship we have and if there’s one person I know who will listen when I talk, and only give advice when I ask to, its you. So thank you for being the audience I’ve always wanted to have.
To Jeline- whom I only got to be close lately, thanks to thesis. Thanks for the don’t call just text help and only a few people have gained my respect and one of those is you. Thanks for the friendship. You will not be forgotten.
To Gaiety- ang babaeng N.R. I’m happy that we’ve been able to get close before this year ended and I treasure the moments we had, specially when we got to talk. Also, thanks for listening to my yakking din.
To Froilan- the only rose among the thorns.. Froilan is the kind of person you would want to be on your side..mahirap kaaway si froilan that’s why I’m lucky to be her friend! I will miss you as soon as school starts for you and work for me!
And I would just want to end this entry by again, thanking everyone who’s been part of my life. For the memories and things you’ve taught me. I wouldn’t be who I am today if our paths didn’t crossed.
I can only wish for each and everyone’s happiness, and i hope we can keep the friendship that we share...
I don’t know why, but I might be known in High school as the girl who had a lot of friends. no, not the type who was friends with everyone. I had new set of Friends almost every year, but those who I’ve treasured are those who I still see every now and then. And I think it’s a good way of emotional exercise (if there is such a thing) to keep in touch with your friends, esp. your high school friends.
I got an unexpected text from my good friend Joy, we were supposed to see each other in our friend’s despida, but because of my thesis I wasn’t able to come. Here’s her text : Hi kaye! Kagagaling ko lang sa party ni romi, ewan ko ba bakit kita naisip kanina pa.hay, I juz realize some things kc yung situation k andami kong naging close nung HS but only a few talaga yung tingin ko na magsstay.kaye, alam ko na hindi nman tayo kabonded lately pro ewan ikaw yung naisiip ko na 1friend from HS na gsto ko makasama for a long tym.pls stay kaye.i wana share my life with you..andrama noh..wala lang..J mahal kita.
And no, she’s not lesbian. Her text may just sound like that. hehe but really, I appreciated that Joy sees me like that. When friends like joy and actually all my HS friends (they are the best), it makes me feel that at least I’ve done well. And makes me want to pay it forward. And this entry is for my friends who have accepted me as the crazy little woman that I am.
To Nina – who keeps us all laughing. Who never runs out of her funny antics and punch lines. The friend I had to share the whole summer before college with on the phone, talking about pancit canton and not having a school.
To Jen – who inspires me to be the best person. Who taught me the art of being nice to people who aren’t not so nice and you don’t like. And I wouldn’t forget the time when I thought the whole world will judge me, the first thing that she said was “so,how are you?”
To Florida- the one that insipires all of us and makes us all say “wow” and “amazing”. With all that she has achieved. She taught us that perseverance and hard work pays off.
To Vanessa – the one who’s always demanding with gimiks, the one who never fails to amaze us with her sometimes deadma reaction. And the one who’s giving us the first baby of the barkada.
To Dang – not much to say about dang, aside from always not being able to give us gifts on Christmas, she really does not belong in the group. hehe joke lang dang!
To Gian- my best friend of almost 8 years, she’s just the best when it comes to hearing me out and laughing at my stupid jokes. The best friend everyone would wish to have.
To Anne- the girl who always smiles even when there’s no reason. The girl with the shampoo commercial hair. Anne has been always matiyaga to plan out our get togethers and drives for us in our gimiks
To Romi- who has been a part of my life since Grade 6, we might have lost touch bt just like gian, we could pick it off from where we left it. I know that even if we have not been able to communicate lately, I know she considers me a friend and so do i.
To joy- who inspired me to write all this, if you’ll be able to read this, im sorry I wrote ur message here without your permission. And be assured that I’ll always be here no matter what.
To Pam- the bestfriend I thought I lost. and now the mommy of my inaanak aiken. She has been a friend for 7 years now, and when she said that she’s getting me as her first born’s god mother, I was touched. That made me realize how much she still values our friendship.
To Jho – the funniest gal I’ve ever met, next to Niña of course. She speaks her mind, and tells you as it is. The kind of an honest friend you sometimes don’t want to have.
College buddies:
To Tonet- my tiborcia jowa. I love you for being the kind, understanding, and supportive friend that you are to me. I thank you for your friendship and goodness you’ve shared with my bf and me. My days in EAC were not wasted because of your company.
To Larcy- I know I may sometimes forget that you are the first friend I had in EAC. But I hope you know that I’ll always be grateful for the friendship we have and if there’s one person I know who will listen when I talk, and only give advice when I ask to, its you. So thank you for being the audience I’ve always wanted to have.
To Jeline- whom I only got to be close lately, thanks to thesis. Thanks for the don’t call just text help and only a few people have gained my respect and one of those is you. Thanks for the friendship. You will not be forgotten.
To Gaiety- ang babaeng N.R. I’m happy that we’ve been able to get close before this year ended and I treasure the moments we had, specially when we got to talk. Also, thanks for listening to my yakking din.
To Froilan- the only rose among the thorns.. Froilan is the kind of person you would want to be on your side..mahirap kaaway si froilan that’s why I’m lucky to be her friend! I will miss you as soon as school starts for you and work for me!
And I would just want to end this entry by again, thanking everyone who’s been part of my life. For the memories and things you’ve taught me. I wouldn’t be who I am today if our paths didn’t crossed.
I can only wish for each and everyone’s happiness, and i hope we can keep the friendship that we share...
Sunday, March 20, 2005
when older doesn't mean wiser..
so, my birthday's coming up. it would be a very happy event if my family and friends will share the day with me.
i've been not celebrating my birthday for two years now, aside from my being kuripot, nobody that i know really exerted effort for me on my birthday.aside from greeting, although greetings are good enough for me, no one has ever made me feel extra special on this extra special day. no i'm not asking you to pity me. this past two years have been not a "happy" birthday. even if i choose to be happy, i think its natural that i feel sad that this happens/ that i feel this way on my birthday.
so anyway, enough of the drama... i just hope this year would be different from the other two years.
i don't want to say how old i am, and if you know, please don't say it to me... i already know so much.
with that number, i should be working like all of my highschool batchmates, and if i was working, i should have all the money i need and buy all the shoes that i would want and can afford. i could have shared paying the bills, i could be paying for my cellphone bill, and maybe i could afford that much needed and deserved summer getaway.
i should be, but i'm not. and i guess it would be too late to have regrets and blame it on my bad judgement. but hey, i'm happy and i've learned from those things. and i think that's what's important. although what i've learned doesn't really make me "wiser", i know there's so much for me to learn. but definitely i choose better now.i hope.:)
so, my birthday's coming up. it would be a very happy event if my family and friends will share the day with me.
i've been not celebrating my birthday for two years now, aside from my being kuripot, nobody that i know really exerted effort for me on my birthday.aside from greeting, although greetings are good enough for me, no one has ever made me feel extra special on this extra special day. no i'm not asking you to pity me. this past two years have been not a "happy" birthday. even if i choose to be happy, i think its natural that i feel sad that this happens/ that i feel this way on my birthday.
so anyway, enough of the drama... i just hope this year would be different from the other two years.
i don't want to say how old i am, and if you know, please don't say it to me... i already know so much.
with that number, i should be working like all of my highschool batchmates, and if i was working, i should have all the money i need and buy all the shoes that i would want and can afford. i could have shared paying the bills, i could be paying for my cellphone bill, and maybe i could afford that much needed and deserved summer getaway.
i should be, but i'm not. and i guess it would be too late to have regrets and blame it on my bad judgement. but hey, i'm happy and i've learned from those things. and i think that's what's important. although what i've learned doesn't really make me "wiser", i know there's so much for me to learn. but definitely i choose better now.i hope.:)
i have two other friends who's celebrating their bdays this month, actually, this is a belated happy birthday to my two best pals, Pam and Jenny!!! i hope both of you had a great day yesterday! cheers!
hitch
i know...everybody has seen it.
it was only last night that jog and i watched the movie. and it was funny and educational.
i was telling jog that in the heirarchy of fictional romantic men, Noah (the notebook) tops the list, Dr.Hitches is next on that list..hehehe
we had dinner at the foodcourt of sm manila. my friends and i have been raving about Magic Wok for over a week now. and i told them, jog would love their food. and for those who loves rice toppings, i would definitely recommend for you to try Magic Wok.
i know...everybody has seen it.
it was only last night that jog and i watched the movie. and it was funny and educational.
i was telling jog that in the heirarchy of fictional romantic men, Noah (the notebook) tops the list, Dr.Hitches is next on that list..hehehe
we had dinner at the foodcourt of sm manila. my friends and i have been raving about Magic Wok for over a week now. and i told them, jog would love their food. and for those who loves rice toppings, i would definitely recommend for you to try Magic Wok.
Thursday, March 17, 2005
Lemme write!
Just when I have the inspiration to write again, surf maxx wouldn’t cooperate. Again, just as I was about to write an error message popped so I decided to write it on word muna, And when I have been able to write 2 paragraphs straight, our pc shuts down. And I haven’t saved it! Syet.
Last week has been a tough week, aside from my emotional drama, our thesis was due for defense. It was on a Monday, March 7 when we had to defend our study. And just when we all thought we were doing the right thing, just because it was not the traditional thesis, like what 4th years do every year in our school, one of the panelists said, we had to do it again. And yes, I cursed him to hell after that. We’ve been through all-nighters for a week for that thesis, just because they couldn’t understand T-test and our statistical data, it was wrong? If a statistician was present or a teacher from the Math department was there, it could have been a different story. But anyways, god is good and so, Mrs. Bionesta (our savior) said we just had to make minor revisions and it will all be good. And as of this writing, I have to make a dedication and we are to have it book bind. Salamat.
This week, is finals week. By the way, Nat Sci 2 is giving me sleepless nights. I’m so scared I might not be able to graduate because of that subject. Finals week for most of my school mates but its OJT cramming for me. I have to make up 30 hours for print and 45 hours for radio. Wish me luck.
I was able to unwind last Friday with good friends and the man who relaxes me…I’m loving love moves now both Nina and MYMP’s version, but Jlo’s new single is hot!
I haven’t progressed on The five People you meet in heaven, haven’t had the time. Hope after this week, I’ll be able to find time. Jog finished Catcher in the Rye na, when in fact we both started reading the books at the same time. I’ve created a monster! Hehe
So there, hope everyone’s doing well!
Just when I have the inspiration to write again, surf maxx wouldn’t cooperate. Again, just as I was about to write an error message popped so I decided to write it on word muna, And when I have been able to write 2 paragraphs straight, our pc shuts down. And I haven’t saved it! Syet.
Last week has been a tough week, aside from my emotional drama, our thesis was due for defense. It was on a Monday, March 7 when we had to defend our study. And just when we all thought we were doing the right thing, just because it was not the traditional thesis, like what 4th years do every year in our school, one of the panelists said, we had to do it again. And yes, I cursed him to hell after that. We’ve been through all-nighters for a week for that thesis, just because they couldn’t understand T-test and our statistical data, it was wrong? If a statistician was present or a teacher from the Math department was there, it could have been a different story. But anyways, god is good and so, Mrs. Bionesta (our savior) said we just had to make minor revisions and it will all be good. And as of this writing, I have to make a dedication and we are to have it book bind. Salamat.
This week, is finals week. By the way, Nat Sci 2 is giving me sleepless nights. I’m so scared I might not be able to graduate because of that subject. Finals week for most of my school mates but its OJT cramming for me. I have to make up 30 hours for print and 45 hours for radio. Wish me luck.
I was able to unwind last Friday with good friends and the man who relaxes me…I’m loving love moves now both Nina and MYMP’s version, but Jlo’s new single is hot!
I haven’t progressed on The five People you meet in heaven, haven’t had the time. Hope after this week, I’ll be able to find time. Jog finished Catcher in the Rye na, when in fact we both started reading the books at the same time. I’ve created a monster! Hehe
So there, hope everyone’s doing well!
Friday, March 04, 2005
when it all falls down
its been a while since i last wrote..a lotta things happened, up until last night when i felt, ugh...this is too much..
i'd rather not go into details but it reminds me of the time in highschool, when my "friends" all got mad at me, and they turned my bestfriend into their side and got mad at me for reasons that i lied to her daw and i didnt tell it to her face whenever i get tampo, or when she gets tampo always and i couldnt understand why she gets like that.
its frustrating and i get hurt when people i consider friends do things like this. na parang, our friendship is defined with the time we spent together and when i call them, yun lang ba? i mean even if we don't talk, my bestfriend gian lives far north, its just recently they got a phone line again and a cellphone, and now that we could actually talk, she has work na. but i dont get mad that we dont have time together, or she does not have the time, the beauty of our friendship is when we get together, it feels like its not been years since we last talked. we could pick it up where we left it..
another thing, its hurtful when you think your friend should know you better, and yet, when shit happens and you are in the that shitty sitation the blame is on you, before you conclude or blame it to someone else, a friend would think "she cannot possibly do a thing like this"
i think what hurts the most is when FRIENDS do this to you. i don't have to say ive been a good friend, i know im not perfect but i know i wouldnt do something like this to a friend.
and when such a thing like this happens to the people you love, it's bad that they seem to blame it on you.
basta, today, i learned the real meaning of family and friends.
and if ive been thankful and proud of my boyfriend, much more now.
this shall all past, and i hope things would get better for everyone.
its been a while since i last wrote..a lotta things happened, up until last night when i felt, ugh...this is too much..
i'd rather not go into details but it reminds me of the time in highschool, when my "friends" all got mad at me, and they turned my bestfriend into their side and got mad at me for reasons that i lied to her daw and i didnt tell it to her face whenever i get tampo, or when she gets tampo always and i couldnt understand why she gets like that.
its frustrating and i get hurt when people i consider friends do things like this. na parang, our friendship is defined with the time we spent together and when i call them, yun lang ba? i mean even if we don't talk, my bestfriend gian lives far north, its just recently they got a phone line again and a cellphone, and now that we could actually talk, she has work na. but i dont get mad that we dont have time together, or she does not have the time, the beauty of our friendship is when we get together, it feels like its not been years since we last talked. we could pick it up where we left it..
another thing, its hurtful when you think your friend should know you better, and yet, when shit happens and you are in the that shitty sitation the blame is on you, before you conclude or blame it to someone else, a friend would think "she cannot possibly do a thing like this"
i think what hurts the most is when FRIENDS do this to you. i don't have to say ive been a good friend, i know im not perfect but i know i wouldnt do something like this to a friend.
and when such a thing like this happens to the people you love, it's bad that they seem to blame it on you.
basta, today, i learned the real meaning of family and friends.
and if ive been thankful and proud of my boyfriend, much more now.
this shall all past, and i hope things would get better for everyone.
Sunday, February 06, 2005
this is my second and last attempt on posting the pictures.!hay naku. inaantok na ako! the medications i'm taking for my skin asthma makes me sleepy sobra!
here are the pics from vane's wedding.
me and the bf not looking
jc,magan,anne,jho& nina -mga taksil,they took pics without me
the side of the table,which we claim the Prettiest side
the newlyweds
nina,jc,joy,dang,jen -the otha side
the only pic where all of us we're looking -taken by jen
Tuesday, February 01, 2005
Fab 5
Just watched their holiday episode wherein they visited and invited some of those who they made-over and see how they kept it together since the make over.
Among the finalists, Adam and his wife was chosen the best kept and I couldn’t agree more.
Their house – their living room, kitchen and living room seems to be the same way the 5 left it. It’s touching to see how much they learned
And maintained the make over. It’s nice to see men listening and keeping advices from gays.
Keeping it together
Speaking of which, we managed (my thesis group) to submit our Chapters 1-3 today. There are just minor revisions. The clock is ticking… February na later! OMG! –haha cant believe im using that word.
Jobs
This morning my lolo texted me about a job fair for INFONXX (not sure) at the RCBC this week. I know it’s a call center. I’m just not sure if I’m going to go there since I still have 2 internships, thesis, and 1 minor subject which I never thought would be this much of a problem to me.
So, even if I want to work and apply for work this early, it would be a much wiser choice to keep my priorities on graduating on March, and give the job hunting a little less pressure on me.
Just watched their holiday episode wherein they visited and invited some of those who they made-over and see how they kept it together since the make over.
Among the finalists, Adam and his wife was chosen the best kept and I couldn’t agree more.
Their house – their living room, kitchen and living room seems to be the same way the 5 left it. It’s touching to see how much they learned
And maintained the make over. It’s nice to see men listening and keeping advices from gays.
Keeping it together
Speaking of which, we managed (my thesis group) to submit our Chapters 1-3 today. There are just minor revisions. The clock is ticking… February na later! OMG! –haha cant believe im using that word.
Jobs
This morning my lolo texted me about a job fair for INFONXX (not sure) at the RCBC this week. I know it’s a call center. I’m just not sure if I’m going to go there since I still have 2 internships, thesis, and 1 minor subject which I never thought would be this much of a problem to me.
So, even if I want to work and apply for work this early, it would be a much wiser choice to keep my priorities on graduating on March, and give the job hunting a little less pressure on me.
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