the final set

I was hesitant to write down about my soon to be experience*...

watching the final set of the eraserheads.

i'm not just a fan, i am in love with them. with ELY BUENDIA most specially.

if there was one band/artist i could say that i truly loved... it is definitely the ERASERHEADS.

I could no longer wait. I might cry again, but I am looking forward in seeing them perform, have fun and see them do what they do best.

I am sure that everyone who will be there, just like the first time are all fanatics. All good vibes i'm sure. Everyone singing along to every song they will perform. Sarap ng feeling na the person next to you, although you don't know each other, while singing along, you'd smile at each other kasi you both understand how you feel. How ecstatic you both are.

and to ely, marcus, raimund and buddy

THANK YOU! THANK YOU FOR PERFORMING TOGETHER AGAIN AND FOR THE MUSIC YOU'RE SHARING TO US AND TO THE FUTURE GENERATION. AND ON A MORE PERSONAL NOTE THIS IS AN ADVANCE 26TH BDAY GIFT TO ME. ROCK EN ROLL!

and to our venus, when they sing MINSAN you know it's for you.

sana'y wag kalimutan ang ating mga pinagsamahan, at kung sakaling gipitin ay laging iisipin na minsan tayo ay naging tunay na magkaibigan

*(because i don't want naman people think i'm being mayabang, but i can't help the excitement)

in my own little world

the generation gap (my version)

Whenever i see teenagers, high school people. I always say (silently) "thank god i was not like that"

But today i just realized, they're actually great. They actually make me laugh, and if you think about it, we were one of them years ago. Yun nga lang, we had cellphones much later on.

A very young wise man once told me "our generation is better than our parents".

So i've realized, Its not that i don't like the young people. I just can't accept the fact that they're better, they have iPods, their websites and could get away with any fasyon. They're different, yes. And they're better.

So now whenever i overhear them on the escalator, or when we both get coffee at starbucks... i could now smile and say....
yah yah yah.... OMG!

final words

1. I heart Starbucks. I'm never gonna attempt on trying on other coffee shops. period.
2. When i have kids of my own, i'm gonna raise them here. When they're 18 and want to move out or go abroad. I will be fine with it.
3. I LOVE books. Might get tired of them sometimes, but i'll always go back.
4. My first love is writing, and i miss writing on a daily basis because of work and because sometimes i forget to write down my ideas/views agad.
that is why before getting myself a new camera, I'm gonna get a laptop. the small one, the one that could fit my bags.
5. I will have more ALONE time this year, I'm gonna savor each moment of it and will never feel gulity of having it.

what i wore today...

black knitted turtle neck from landmark, gun metal skirt and pink matthews wedge

me

na tinuruan mo ang puso ko na umibig ng tunay

the nth time im listening to ely buendia with the phil harmonic orchestra singing Ang Huling El Bimbo. the first time i heard it on radio, thursday morning, i had goosebumps. it is beautiful.
the ym relationship

today is our "date" day, kasi day off ko. since jog finally bought a laptop, we get to chat and see each other for an hour or two every friday since the start of october. thank god for ym. and because we start at around 12 and end 230 sometimes, i don't get to do anything na. hahaha. im tamad to go out na or what. except last friday when my mom asked me to meet her up in makati because she needed to buy something.
it's funny how much i miss him more now that malapit na siya umuwi. i cried the last time we talked, he's been gone 5 mos already and last week lang ako nag breakdown. i just miss his presence and i appreciate him now more than ever. i mean before naman i do appreciate him, pero now parang mas doble lang or maybe because i'm now more older and experience has taught me a lot.

moving forward

i have told only a few friends when i started going to greenhills to have my interviews. more so my work friends. so when it was final, i took the courage to tell them one by one that i'm moving. and when i filled my resignation september 30, with brian printing it, and chelo coaching me to do it now than later that day, i gave the letter to my supervisor.

i wanted to tell each and everyone from work about this little by little, and personally. i didnt want to just send them a text. Told chelo the minute i had accepted the offer, same with angel, sam. the next day, confirmed it with brian and robert. I actually made a list pa nga of the people whom i wanted to tell it to. Got the chance to tell anna, but she saw my letter na pala in jpl's desk, john who heard it from some of our bosses asked me "wala ka ba sasabihin sa akin?" had to hear it from me after eavesdropping (hehehe), told kristine the only person who endured and got used to my carino brutal style of friendship right after john, with the fear of them knowing thru others. i didnt want the people special to me know this decision through others. was a little successful in that goal, one more person left to tell to is Des. my havie partner, graveyard kasi, kaya sa phone na lang. i'm still planning though.

told jen, and joy through ym. eh kasi didn't know when will we see each other pa. told jho last week lang when we went out, and gian knew about it since the start, kasi naman every saturday kami mag park nun. and now fernie is about to find out through multiply.hehehehe

i'm moving and starting on november. i'm definitely sad about leaving these people i've been so close to for the past year. they've been the best people to have in work, work never felt like work, we always say it's just like highschool, only we get to be paid. after work, we get to bulakbol, go to the mall and go home past 10 p.m even if we have work the next day. we can't get enough of each other, chika time is never enough. after work, sometimes we still talk sa cellphone! hay! i'll miss them.

this move was a great surprise, it was unplanned and unexpected. the minute i got the call for the job offer, i knew i could do it, kahit na it meant leaving them, i have to adjust again, study again, learn a new route again, i was up for it.

my family, most specially my father was very supportive from the time i told them i got a call back. and as for jog, even if he was nt physically present, he would call and text on the most crucial and important parts of this whole process. maybe he has ESP, he called/text on the days when i was worrying to much, and when it was the waiting game (the time when you remember they haven't called when they said they would or when you think of when was the last interview you had with them and then said they would call for the next instruction and then you realize it almost the end of the week na pala and they havent called.) jog was always sakto. he would call 3 hours before my interview or he would text me to suggest things to do so i wont stress too much on waiting, or he would make utos to follow up his projects here. always on time dat silly guy.and more importantly, he always made me feel that i will get that post. more than the support i guess, jog has always believed in me. and although this new job means no VL for me in the next 5 months, which also means we have to postpone our plans of going out of town, i never heard anything from him. he told me later, he was looking forward for this trip pala, pero there's always time for that naman daw. *thanks!

my friend john

i have to share this. when i told john i filled my resignation na, he asked ...
john: ma ho-hold ba sweldo mo?
me: ata...
john: may budget ka ba if ever?
me: *big grin* wala
john: in case ma hold, let me know ha..
me: *surpised/touched* talaga john? thanks!!!!!!!!!!!!! sabay suntok sa shoulders nya
i'm so glad i have that kind of friend, naisip niya pa yun. told jog about it nga and our other friends. katuwa kasi.

twilight the movie

got to see the huge ad for the movie in G4 last night. could not wait for it. i asked when is the tentative date for this, the lady from the ticketbooth said, first week of nov or 2nd week. could not wait!

the carlyles.gossip girl book 2

forgot the title but i saw thats it already out in bibliarch. leech. havent started in book one nga. pressure.

mascara

told jog kanina, to buy me a mascara (loreal or maybelline) when he gets a chance sa walmart or target. he immediately said. no way. "hindi yan importante"
but when we started saying our goodbyes and our reminders for each other, he said:

jog: in case we dock with a nearby walmart/target, sige i'll buy those mascaras. just text me the details kung ano yung specific na gusto mo.

hahahaha! see di mo ako matitiis!

also...funny e

when my boss talked to me after reading my r.letter he asked me:

jpl: are you and jog getting married na?

when i told ms.aileen(she's from another department but we really got close when i was the telephone operator) about the resignation...

miss aileen: kelan? magpapakasal na ba kayo ni bf? andito na ba siya?

other officemates who learned about this through i dont know how...

them: totoo ba? nag file ka na daw? bakit? papakasal na ba kayo ni jog?

sabi ko nga kay chelo, its funny. also flattering, mukha naman pala akong marrying-type.hahahahahaha

so as for now, im enjoying the remaining days i'll be with my dear work friends and that from the office glorietta,landmark and sm is just a 15 minute walk. Angel said "soon we'll be ur mcc friends" kasi daw ako madami set of friends, whenever i have lakad kasi na hindi sila ang kasama ko she asks, "sino kasama mo? your highschool friends? college friends?"hahaha

and i'm so inggit kina buding and dondi who are on their sem break. they're petiks all day.

ate: (asking buding when i arrived from work) so ano ginawa mo today?
buding: WALA. *with a huge smile to make asar* inggit ka na naman!

this is by far the longest post i've had. incoherent. but wtf. peace!


P.S to jho, joy and anne : i owe you ur bday gifts. i wont forget. ok?

miss saigon

no one has ever articulated her views about breastfeeding (more on that later), motherhood, marriage, politics and breast cancer better than Ms. Lea Salonga.

there is no doubt about her talent in singing and performing. but her first Marie Claire Philippines cover made me her fan when she talked about her opinions about everything that i think is important a woman should know or at least consider.and in this October issue, it is official. i'm not just a fan. i adore this woman.

i know its too early for me to say anything about breastfeeding, having no child yet, but since i was i guess 20, my mom who breastfed all of us (3), was always vocal and reminded us how important breastfeeding is. i still up to this day don't understand why some mothers choose otherwise. i have nothing against them though, but what are those breasts and milk it produces for if you wont give it to the little person it is intended for? aside from the bonding it creates between moms and babies, for me its so simple. breasts = milk = babies.

i was surprised that for someone like her who lived abroad, she is still very much Filipina. that's what made me admire her most. she deserves every praise, every compliment she gets.

she even said that on her 40th birthday she'll be getting her first mamogram, as her birthday gift to herself. which gave me an idea. i'll also do that on my 40th birthday. let's all do that on our 40th!

if you havent have the copy of this month's issue of marie claire. pls get one and lets all order the icanserve tshirts! i'll post the details later. the magazine is out of my reach as i write this kasi.

*picture is from: summitmedia.com